<span></span><p dir="ltr" style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">언젠가 할머니께 물어본 적이 있었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">지금 행복하시냐고.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">내가 그렇게 물어본 것은</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그저 그녀가 언제나 행복해보이지 않았기 때문이다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">언제나 무표정에 과묵한 사람이었기에.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">웃는 일도 거의 없으셨던 것 같다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할머니는 그 말에 어떻게 대답하셨을까.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">무언가 말하셨지만 기억나진 않는다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">머리를 쓰다듬어 주셨다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">다만 할머니의 그 조금 울적해 보이는 눈동자와 여전히 웃지 않는 그 입술은 기억난다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그것만이 기억난다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">아버지는 6남매의 막내였다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할아버지는 전쟁때 돌아가셨고.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">한마디로 그런거다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">홀몸으로 6남매를 기르셨다는 것이다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그것도 전후 아무것도 없는 이 나라에서</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">혼자 살아남기도 힘든 그 때, 6명을 살려갔으니.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">심지어 아이들을 학교에 진학시키고, 대학까지도 보냈다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그리고 첫째 아들, 나에겐 큰 아버지가 돌아가셨다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할아버지와 같이 군대에서.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">하지만 이것은 전쟁도 아니었고</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">윗선에서 자살로 결론 내렸지만</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그 누구도 믿는 사람 없었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">실제로도 큰 아버지의 동기 중 한명은 선임이 심하게 구타하는 장면을 보았다고도 했었고.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그런 주장은 묻혀버렸지만.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그리고 둘째, 넷째, 다섯째 형제들도</span></p><br><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">정말, 덧없이 돌아가셨다고 한다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">불치병에 걸려서 마지막으로 할머니의 손을 잡고 떠난 그 형의 눈동자를 잊지 못한다고,</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">자유를, 민주를 외치다 터지는 폭죽같은 최루탄들과 번쩍이는 천둥같은 납탄들의 가운데 서있던 누나의 뒷모습을 잊지 못한다고,</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">다음에 만나 뵐 때는 더 장한 아들이 되어서 돌아오겠다고 말하고 갑작스런 사고로 영영 다시 돌아오지 못한 형의 웃음을 잊지 못한다고 아버지는 말했다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할머니는 어떤 느낌이었을까.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그것을 헤아릴 수는 없겠지.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">아무튼 확실히 기억나는 것은 할머니는 웃지 않았다는 것이다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">내가 태어났을 때의 사진에도.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">팔순때의 사진에도.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">어디에도 웃고 있는 모습은 없었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">웃음을 잃어버린 것이다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">분명, 그런 것이다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그리고 그렇게 할머니는 행복의 편린도 보이지 않는 모습으로 언제나 앉아만 있었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">TV소리가 소음처럼 지직거리고, 전등은 깜빡거리는</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그 작은 방에서</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">언제나 앉아만 있었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그걸 뭐라고 할까.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그건 불행이라 한다고 생각한다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그렇게 살아온 것이다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">불행에 덮힌 삶을 살아온 것이다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그리고 불행은 다시 또 할머니의 발목을 잡아 챈다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">치매였다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">이젠 더이상 떨어질 곳도 없었을 텐데.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그렇게 생각했다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할머니는 이제 모든 것을 잊어버렸다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">가족들의 얼굴도, 존재도 전부.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">마지막까지도 불행함은 그녀를 맴돌았다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">라고 생각했다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">문손잡이를 잡았다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">조금 따뜻한 온기를 느꼈다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">문을 열자 4인실의 창가 자리에 할머니가 앉아 있었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">다른 사람들이 전부 자고 있는 그 시간</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">침대에 걸쳐 앉아 창 밖을 바라보고 있는 할머니의 모습에 나는 잠깐 멈췄다 이내 걸어갔다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할머니는 나를 보곤 이내 다시 고개를 돌렸다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">무슨 말을 할 수 있을까.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할머니에게 있어서 나는 없는 존재 이기도 하고 모르는 사람 이기도 했다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">나는 아무 말 없이 의자에 앉았다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할머니는 하늘을 보고 있었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그가 무슨 생각을 하는지 모르지만</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그때와 같은 차가운 느낌은 아니다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">정말 갑자기.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그때의 일이 문득 떠올랐다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">나도, 아버지도, 모두를 잊은.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그때의 모든 시간을 잊은 그녀는 모를 시간.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그 시간이 떠올랐다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">나는 모든 것을 잃어버린 그녀에게</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">한 마디 물어보았다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">"지금 행복하신가요?"</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">할머니는 나를 바라보곤 </span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">그때와 같이 머리를 쓰다듬어 주었다.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">다만 조금.</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">정말 조금 다른 점이 있었다면</span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;"><br class="kix-line-break"></span><span style="font-size:11pt;font-family:Arial;background-color:transparent;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;">웃고 있었다는 것 정도일까.</span>
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여태까지 글 목록
 - 1. 판결 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1194574
  - 2. 4월의 감옥 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_87184
  - 3. 일상 - http://todayhumor.com/?lovestory_78851 
  - 4. 비 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88258
  - 5. 을지로 3가 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88260
  - 6. 길 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88282
  - 7. 나와 너의 차이 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1263295
  - 8. 구원 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1262835
  - 9. 시계 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88417
  - 10. 상처 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88432
  - 11. 희망 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1264685
  - 12. 술 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88492
  - 13. 삶 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1269038
  - 14. 거래 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1269193
  - 15. 징크스 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88730
  - 외전 모음집 1 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1272350
  - 16. 눈 - http://todayhumor.com/?bestofbest_252505 
  - 단편 모음집 1 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1274006
  - 17. 절망 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1274632
  - 18. 각 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1275207
  - 19. 시간 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1277353
  - 20. 참돔 [낚시게] - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1280416
  - 21. 야경 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1278174
  - 22. 외로움 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1278979
  - 23. 레몬 - http://todayhumor.com/?love_6396
  - 24. 포장마차 .1 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1282642
  - 25. 리셋 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1280152
  - 26. 돼지 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1281824
  - 27. 평등 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_89407
  - 28. 그들이 살아가는 카페 시리즈 1. 네코마타 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1281956
  - 29. 탐사 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1285164
  - 30. 실패의 정원 시리즈 1. 죄와 벌 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_89509
  - 31. 광기 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1285221
  - 32. 짜장면 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1287496
  - 33. 전화기 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1288360 
  - 34. 상조 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_89725
  - 35. 착한 아이 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1289270
  - 36. ... - http://todayhumor.com/?bestofbest_260057
  - 37. 꿈 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1293285
  - 38. 줄 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1295680
  - 39. 실패의 정원 시리즈 - 2. 미운오리새끼 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1296234
  - 40. 실패의 정원 시리즈 - 3. 잠자는 숲속의 공주 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1295887
  - 41. 앎과 거짓말 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1296740
  - 42. 별 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1298622
  - 43. 용서 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1299205
  - 44. 실패의 정원 시리즈 - 4. 인간 실격 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1300502
  - 45. 변화 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_90322
  - 46. 눈을 감지 말아주세요 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1301586
  - 47. 깨달음 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_90469
  - 48. 타살 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1306422
  - 49. 1cm - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1308193
  - 50. 색 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1309629
  - 51. 노래 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1312308
  - 52. 광장여행자 시리즈 - 01. 공포 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_90788
  - 53. 불행 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1312293
  - 54. 실패의 정원 시리즈 - 05. 피노키오 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_90876
  - 55. 꿈 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_90951 
  - 56. 6 Word 시리즈 - 1. 1~5  - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1316001 
  - 57. 6 Word 시리즈 - 2. 6~10 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1319354
  - 58. 6 Word 시리즈 - 3. 11~15 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91059
  - 59. 변하지 않는 것 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91080
  - 60. 6 Word 시리즈 - 4. 16~20 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1319648
  - 61. 6 Word 시리즈 - 5. 21~25 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91123
  - 62. 숫자 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1322481
  - 63. 눈 [2] - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1327981
  - 64. 이름 없는 시간 시리즈 - 1. 아파트의 세상 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91337
  - 65. 나비효과 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1328856
  - 66. 무에서의... - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91371
  - 67. 깨달음 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91400
  - 68. 실패의 정원 시리즈 - 06. 외전 단편 가짜 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91443
  - 69. 내일 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1333722
  - 70. 영웅 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1336621
  - 71. 손 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1338629
  - 72. 그 - http://todayhumor.com/?panic_91617
  - 73. 위선 - http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1346232
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