<div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><span style="line-height:21.6px;">1편: </span><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=87137&s_no=87137&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;line-height:21.6px;background-color:transparent;">http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=87137</a></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">2편: <a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=87158" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=87158</a></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">3편: <a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=87250" target="_blank">http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=87250</a></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><br></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><br></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><a class="title may-blank loggedin" href="https://www.reddit.com/r/nosleep/comments/3p2df2/the_new_girl/" target="_blank" style="color:#ffffff;text-decoration:none;margin-right:.4em;padding:0px;overflow:hidden;font-size:medium;margin-bottom:1px;font-family:verdana, arial, helvetica, sans-serif;line-height:normal;background-color:#555555;">The New Girl</a><span style="line-height:21.6px;">  </span><span style="line-height:1.5;"><font face="Arial" size="2">by wyldepixie</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><br></div> <div style="color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">오늘</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아침에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어떻게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">일어나서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">학교에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">올</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었는지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">모르겠어</span>.  <span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자리에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">눕고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">고작</span> 3<span lang="ko">초</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">정도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">지났을까</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">느껴졌을때</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알람이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">울리기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시작했었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">학교에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">갔더니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">오늘</span>1<span lang="ko">교시에는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수업</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">진행</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대신</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">모든</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">학생들을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">강당에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집합시켰어</span>.  <span lang="ko">강당에는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끔찍하게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">죽어간</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">친구들을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집회가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">열리고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었는데</span>, <span lang="ko">거기서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">학교</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">차원에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">작은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기념공원</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자리를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마련해주어</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">학생들이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">서로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">슬픔을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">공유하도록</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해주고</span>, <span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나아가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">원하는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사람에게는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전문가에게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">개인적인</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상담을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있도록</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해주었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">왠지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">모르게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">모든</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">화가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">났었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">작년</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">죽었을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">학교는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">점심시간에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">슬픈</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">노래를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몇</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">곡</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">틀어줬던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말고는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아무것도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해주지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았으면서</span>.  <span lang="ko">아무도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그녀의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">장례식에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">참석하지도</span>, <span lang="ko">꽃을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보내지도</span>, <span lang="ko">심지어</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신경을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쓰는거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같지도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았단</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말이야</span>.  <span lang="ko">근데</span> Brett<span lang="ko">과</span> Jill<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">죽으니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그애들이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">성자로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">추대라도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해야되는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">양</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">유난을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">떨고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자빠져있으니</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">속이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뒤집히는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같았지</span>.  <span lang="ko">물론</span>, <span lang="ko">사실은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">속이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좋지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이유는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잠이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">모자라</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신경이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">예민해져</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있다보니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주변</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상황에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">과잉반응했기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문이었을꺼야</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상담사</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">중</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">명에게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다가가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">애들의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">죽음에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">너무</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상심이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">커서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">속이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좋지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않아</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수업에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집중하기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">힘들꺼</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">핑계를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">조퇴를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돌아가지는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았지</span>.  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">추모집회에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">동안</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주의를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끈</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사실은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">단</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하나</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뿐이었지</span>.  Matt<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">오늘</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">학교에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">오지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거야</span>.  <span lang="ko">물론</span> Matt<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">결석에는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아무런</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">문제가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보는게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">맞겠지</span>, <span lang="ko">걔도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나와마찬가지로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밤새도록</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숲</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">속을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">헤매고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다녔으니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도저히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">등교할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몸상태가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아니었을수도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있잖아</span>.   <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상담사에게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">조퇴증을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">제출하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">놓칠</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수업을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대신할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">과제를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받으러</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">당당히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">교무실로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쳐들어갔어</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내심</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">교무실에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">파트타임으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자원봉사를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하시는</span>Matt<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어머니와</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마주치길</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기대하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">하지만</span> Matt<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어머니도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">교무실에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">계시질</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았어</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">혼자</span> Matt<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">차를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몰았어</span>.  <span lang="ko">도착해보니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">애의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">앞에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">경찰차가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몇</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">서있었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> 일단 속도를 늦추지 않고 </span><span lang="ko">차를</span><span lang="ko"> 몰아 </span><span lang="ko">그대로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">지나쳤어</span>.</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">차를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">세우로 </span>Tricia<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어머니와</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">통화해보기로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">결정했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">전화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">건</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어머니께</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잠시동안</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이사하느라</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">고생하시진</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않으셨는지</span>, <span lang="ko">주부로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사시다가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">일을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시작하시니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기분이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어떠신지</span>, <span lang="ko">그리고</span> Texas<span lang="ko">는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">날씨가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좋은지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">등등</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기본적인</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">안부를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">물어봤어</span>.  <span lang="ko">여러분</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">중</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몇</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">분이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">궁금해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문에</span>, <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어머니께</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">병명이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">무엇이었는지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">여쭤봤지</span>.  <span lang="ko">어머니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말씀에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">따르면</span>, Tricia<span lang="ko">는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아주</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어린</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나이</span>, <span lang="ko">한</span> 6<span lang="ko">살</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쯤</span>, <span lang="ko">아스버거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신드롬이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있다는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">진단을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받았대</span>.  <span lang="ko">그리고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">한동안</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그런줄</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">살고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있다가</span>, <span lang="ko">아무래도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">동네</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">병원의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">진단에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">의심이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">든</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어머니는</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뉴욕에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자폐증</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">행동</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">치료</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전문</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">병원으로</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">데려갔대</span>.   <span lang="ko">전문</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">병원의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">의사에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">따르면</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">앓고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아스버거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신드롬과는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">멀다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">의사들은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">청소년기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">성격장애를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전문분야로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소아</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">정신과</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전문의를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소개시켜줬지</span>.  <span lang="ko">몇</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">달간</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">관찰한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소아</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">정신과</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전문의는</span>, Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이른</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">청소년기에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">분열형</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">인격장애 </span>(Schizotypal Personality Disorder)<span lang="ko">를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">앓고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">진단했지</span>.  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">후로 </span>Tricia<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">병명은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">바뀌지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았어</span>.  <span lang="ko">처방받은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">약은</span>Tricia<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상태를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">호전시키긴</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했지만</span>, Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">약을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">먹는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거부했대</span>.  <span lang="ko">계속해서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">억지로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">약을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">게워내던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그녀는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">결국</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">심각한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">체중</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">감소와</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">영양실조로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">병원신세를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">질</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밖에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">그녀는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자기가</span><span lang="ko"> </span>“<span lang="ko">보지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">못하게</span>”<span lang="ko">되면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다른</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사람들을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도와줄</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">된고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">믿었대</span>.  <span lang="ko">약을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">먹으면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그녀가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다른</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사람들의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">불행을</span><span lang="ko"> </span>“<span lang="ko">보지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">못하게</span>” <span lang="ko">만든다는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거였지</span>.</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어머니께</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형들에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대해서도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">여쭤봤어</span>.  <span lang="ko">어머니는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">애의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집착은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아마도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">외할머니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">생겼을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거라고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했어</span>.  Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">너무</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">심각한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">심신의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">고통을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">겪고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는것을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">본</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">외할머니는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">손녀의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마음고생이라도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">조금</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">덜어줄</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있을까해서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">일종의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마법</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">걸</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소개해줬나봐</span>.  <span lang="ko">외할머니는</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">에게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이용해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사악함을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">물리칠</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마법을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가르쳐줬어</span>.  <span lang="ko">아마도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">외할머니는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">호랑이를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">무서워</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아이에게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">호랑이가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">무서워하는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">곶감을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것과</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">생각이셨겠지</span>.  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">애가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">정신적으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">안정이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">되고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">안전하다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">느끼면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상태가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">호전되리라</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기대하시면서</span>.  <span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">예의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집요함이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">발동한</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">외할머니가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가르쳐준</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마법에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">완전히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">꽂혀버렸지</span>.  <span lang="ko">외할머니가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가르쳐</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주신</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기초로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">삼아</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그녀는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">깊이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">빠져들기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시작했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">그녀는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">결국</span><span lang="ko"> </span>“<span lang="ko">성스러운</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기하학</span>”<span lang="ko">을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">찾아내버렸지</span>.  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형엔</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">완벽함과</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신성함이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">깃들어있어</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사악함이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">감히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거역할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">힘이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">통화</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내용으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">미루어</span>, <span lang="ko">어머니는</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마음의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">병이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">굳게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">믿고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">계신</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보였기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">깊은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이어할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">우리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잠시</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">추억에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이야기를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나눈</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뒤</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끊었지</span>.</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">달리</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">갈</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">곳도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없었기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문에</span>, <span lang="ko">아직</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">중천에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">떠있을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숲으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돌아가서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어제</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밤에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">발견했던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">세</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그루의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나무를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">조사해보기로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자동차</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">트렁크에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쇠지레를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">꺼내서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가져갔어</span>.  <span lang="ko">쇠지레를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내모습이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">우스꽝스러웠지만</span>, <span lang="ko">그거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">외에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">달리</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">무기로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쓸만한게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">학교</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뒤</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숲은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어제</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밤</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">훨씬</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">작게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">느껴졌어</span>.  <span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어제</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">여기서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어떻게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">헤매고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다녔는지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이해가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">되지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">정도였지</span>.  <span lang="ko">나무가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">우거진</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전혀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아니고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말이야</span>.  <span lang="ko">주택가</span>, <span lang="ko">공원</span>, <span lang="ko">학교</span>, <span lang="ko">그리고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">묘지로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">둘러싸인</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숲은</span>, <span lang="ko">오히려</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숲이라기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보다는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">평범한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">미개발</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">택지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몇</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">에이커에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">불과해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보였어</span>.  <span lang="ko">어제</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">본</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">세</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그루의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나무는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쉽게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">찾을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나무를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">찾느라</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">고생할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">줄</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알았는데</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말이야</span>.  <span lang="ko">나무에는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">한눈에도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">선명히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보이게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형들이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">세겨져</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">나무를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">둘러싼</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">땅은</span>, <span lang="ko">마치</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">누군가가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">파</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">놓은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">처럼</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">땅이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뒤집어져있었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나무</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">사이에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뭔가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">묻혀있는지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">확인하기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">위해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쇠지레를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이용해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">땅을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">파기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시작했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">쇠지레가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">땅파기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그렇게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좋은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도구는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아니었지만</span>, <span lang="ko">얼마</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">파내려가지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않아</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상자가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하나</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나왔어</span>.  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상자는</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보내준</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나무상자와</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">비슷했는데</span>, <span lang="ko">좀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">정교했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">거기엔</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">예의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">세</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">세트가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">반복해서</span>, <span lang="ko">완벽하게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">열을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">맞춰</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">빼곡하게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">새겨져있었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">상자의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">안</span>, <span lang="ko">밖</span>, <span lang="ko">옆면</span>, <span lang="ko">그리고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">위아래면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전부</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다</span>.  <span lang="ko">상자의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">안에는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">흰</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">빛을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">띄는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">듯</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">투명한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">크리스탈</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">덩어리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들어있었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">크리스탈</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">덩어리의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">중심까지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">구멍이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뚫어져있었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">의심할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">필요</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이건</span> Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">일이었을꺼야</span>.  Jill<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">죽은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">후 </span>Brett<span lang="ko">과</span> Matt<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숲 속을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">헤맨게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상자를 찾으려고 했기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문이었을까</span>?  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">애들은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">왜</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상자를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">찾으려고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">한거지</span>?  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상자를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">원래</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자리에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">묻어놓고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주변에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마른</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잎을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주워서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">덮어뒀어</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전혀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">헤매는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">일</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">바로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">차로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돌아갔지</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">엄마에게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">걸어</span>, <span lang="ko">몸이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좋지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않아서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상담사의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">허락을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">조퇴했다고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알려줬어</span>.  <span lang="ko">집으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돌아간</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잠시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잠을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잤지</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">정말</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">오랜만에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">완전히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">푹</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잘</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">지금</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">생각해보면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">앞으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그렇게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숙면을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있을지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">의문이네</span>.  <span lang="ko">집에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돌아오신</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">엄마가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">저녁</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">먹으라고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">날</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">깨워주셨어</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">저녁을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">먹고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">방으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돌아와</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마법</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">의식과</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기하학에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">조사를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">몇</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시간</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">동안</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">인터넷을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뒤지고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">별안간</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화기가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">울리기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시작했지</span>.</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">모르는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">번호였지만</span>, <span lang="ko">일단</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받았어</span>.  “<span lang="ko">여보세요</span>?”</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">전화기에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">흘러나온</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">상당히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쉰</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리였지만</span>, 그건 <span lang="ko">분명히</span> Matt<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리였어</span>.  “<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">썅년</span>, <span lang="ko">너</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">개같은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">년아</span>.  <span lang="ko">어디에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숨겼어</span>?  <span lang="ko">네가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">안다</span>.  <span lang="ko">말해</span>, <span lang="ko">말해</span>, <span lang="ko">말해</span>.”  <span lang="ko">잠시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">거친</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숨을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몰아쉬더니</span>, “<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">오지랖년이</span>, <span lang="ko">말해</span>! <span lang="ko">말해</span>!”  “<span lang="ko">너</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">지금</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어디야</span>?”  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">최대한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">진정시키려</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">노력하며</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">물어봤지만</span>, <span lang="ko">심장이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쿵쾅대기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시작했어</span>.  <span lang="ko">전화</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">속</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">캑캑대는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가래</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끓는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내더니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뭔가를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뱉어내는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">났어</span>.  “<span lang="ko">썅년</span>, <span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">씨발</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">썅년이</span>.”  전화기에서 흘러나오던 분노에 찬 <span lang="ko">목소리는 별안간 </span><span lang="ko">갑자기</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">흐느껴</span><span lang="ko"> 우는 소리로 바뀌었어</span>.  “<span lang="ko">오</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">제발</span>, Andrea, <span lang="ko">나</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도와줘</span>.  <span lang="ko">제발</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">살려줘</span>.  <span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그걸</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">찾지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">못하면</span><span lang="ko"> </span>“<span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것</span>”<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">날</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">죽여버린대</span>.  <span lang="ko">나</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">지금</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">피가 나고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있어</span>.  <span lang="ko">너무</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아파</span>.  <span lang="ko">제발</span>…”  <span lang="ko">잠시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">고통스러운</span><span lang="ko"> 헐떡이는 소리가 </span><span lang="ko">들린 후, 다시 거친 목소리가 들려왔어</span>, “<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어리석은</span><span lang="ko"> 년</span>, <span lang="ko">넌</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">지금</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">니가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">무슨</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">짓을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는지</span><span lang="ko"> 상상도 못하고 있어</span>.  <span lang="ko">당장</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내놔</span>!”</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">급히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화기를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끄고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">덜덜떨면서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가만히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">자리에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">앉아있었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">쉴</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">새</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">흘러내리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">눈물은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">두려움</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">건지</span> Matt<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">불쌍해서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">건지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들었던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">모욕과</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">협박보다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대화</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">중간에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">터져나온</span> Matt<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">고통스러운</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때문에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마음이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">괴로워</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">견딜수가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">어디에다가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신고를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해야되는건</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아닐까</span>?  <span lang="ko">경찰에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신고할까</span>?  <span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뭐라고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">신고를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하지</span>?  <span lang="ko">부모님이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주무시려고하던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">바로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그때</span>, <span lang="ko">집</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">울렸고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">엄마가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들렸어</span>.  “Andrea!”  <span lang="ko">엄마가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">불렀어</span>.  “<span lang="ko">널</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">찾는구나</span>.  <span lang="ko">시간이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">늦었으니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">용건만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">간단히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해라</span>.”  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아래층으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내려가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받았어</span>.  <span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">여보세요라고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">순간</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">엄마가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">방에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내려놓는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">딸각소리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들렸어</span>. </font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><br></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3">“<span lang="ko">마지막</span>.  <span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마지막으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기회를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주지</span>.”  <span lang="ko">거칠고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">공허한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">분명히</span> Matt<span lang="ko">의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목소리였어</span>.  “<span lang="ko">그걸</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어디다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숨겨놨는지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알려주면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">너는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">살려주마</span>.  <span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다른</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">놈들은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">안돼</span>.  <span lang="ko">이놈들은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">꺼야</span>.  <span lang="ko">니가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아무리</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">발버둥쳐봐야소용없어</span>.  <span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="ko"> 내 말을 들으면 너는 살려주마</span>.  넌 <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">년이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">날</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가두려고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">무슨</span><span lang="ko"> 미친 </span><span lang="ko">짓을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했는지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나한테</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알려주면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돼</span>.  약속하지.  <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">년이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그걸</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어디다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숨겨뒀는지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나한테</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알려만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">두 번 다시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">네</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">앞에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나타나지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않겠다</span>."<br><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">한마디도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">못하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">눈을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">감았어</span>.  <span lang="ko">마치</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">목에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뭔가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">커다란게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">걸려있는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">느낌이었지</span>.  <span lang="ko">아무</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">못하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시간이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">흘러가고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">겨우</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몇</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">초나</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">됐을까</span>? <span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나한테는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">훨씬</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">길게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">느껴졌지</span>.  “<span lang="ko">생각할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">시간을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">줘요</span>.”  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대답하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">빠르게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끊고는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화선을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뽑았어</span>.  <span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">방으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들어가서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">부모님이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잠드실</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때까지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">기다렸다가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몰래</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">부모님</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">방으로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들어가서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">부모님</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">방의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전화기의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">선도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뽑았어</span>.</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좀</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">조사를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하려</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">했지만</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도저히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집중을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">할</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없었어</span>.  <span lang="ko">조퇴해서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">받은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">숙제는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">손도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">대지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않았지</span>.  <span lang="ko">당장</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내일</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">등교하면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">바로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">제출해야</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">되는데</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">말이야</span>.  <span lang="ko">도대체</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뭘</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어떻게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">해야할지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">모르겠더라고</span>.  <span lang="ko">마치</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">전염성</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">강한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">광기가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나와</span>Matt<span lang="ko">을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">덮친</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">건</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아닐까하는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">생각이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들었지</span>.</font></p> <p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko"><br></span></font></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><font size="3"><span lang="ko">게다가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">지금</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밖에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">누가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있어</span>.  <span lang="ko">계속</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">뭔가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밖에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">질질</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끌리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리와</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">땡</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">부딪히는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있어</span>.   <span lang="ko">바로</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어제</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밤</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들었던</span> Matt<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">삽을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">끌고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">다니던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리</span>, <span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">삽이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">땅에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">긁히는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리와</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어디</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">부딪혀서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">땡</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리말이야</span>.  <span lang="ko">그리곤</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">멀어지는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">것</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">처럼</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잦아</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들고는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잠시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아무</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">없다가</span>, <span lang="ko">다시</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">처음부터</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">반복되고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있어</span>.  <span lang="ko">아무래도</span> Matt<span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">우리집</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">주변을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">빙글빙글</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">돌고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같아</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">포스트잇에다가</span><span lang="ko"> </span>Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">가르쳐준</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">최대한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">빠르게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">휘갈기고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는데</span>, <span lang="ko">쉽지가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않네</span>.  <span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그린</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">너무</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">허접해</span>.  Tricia<span lang="ko">가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그렸던</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형은</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">깔끔하고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">단정해서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">아주</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">단단해</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보였는데</span>.  <span lang="ko">계속</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그리다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">보니</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쓸만한게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">몇개</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나온거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같아</span>.  <span lang="ko">난</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">밖에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리를</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잘</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">듣고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있다가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">소리가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">들리지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">때마다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">잽싸게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">집</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">벽에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그린</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">포스트잇을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">붙여뒀어</span>.  <span lang="ko">아무래도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">미쳐가는거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같아</span>.  <span lang="ko">아니면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">세상이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">미쳐돌아가고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는거겠지</span>.  <span lang="ko">차라리</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">미친거면</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">좋겠어</span>.  <span lang="ko">차라리</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그게</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">마음이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">편할거</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">같아</span>.  <span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">문이랑</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">창문마다</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">수호의</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도형을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">그린</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">포스트잇을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">발라뒀어</span>.  <span lang="ko">그리고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">나서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">지금</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">깜깜한</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">방에서</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">불도</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">켜지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">않고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">글을</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">쓰고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는거야</span>.  <span lang="ko">진짜</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">불</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">켜고</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">싶어</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">미치겠는데</span>, <span lang="ko">그러면</span> Matt<span lang="ko">한테</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">내가</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">어느</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">방에</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">있는지</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">알리는</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">꼴이</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">될까봐</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">도저히</span><span lang="ko"> </span><span lang="ko">못하겠어</span>.</font></p> <p></p> <font size="3"><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span></font> <div style="color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><font size="3"><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"><br></span></font></div><font size="3">나<span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">너무</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">무서워</span><span style="line-height:115%;">.  </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">어떻게</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">해야할지</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">모르겠어</span><span style="line-height:115%;">.  </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">어떡할까</span><span style="line-height:115%;">?  </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">누구한테</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">이야기를</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">할까</span><span style="line-height:115%;">?  </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">그냥</span><span style="line-height:115%;"> Matt</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">한테</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">그</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">상자랑</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">크리스탈을</span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;"> </span><span lang="ko" style="line-height:115%;">넘겨줘버릴까</span><span style="line-height:115%;">?</span></font></div> <div style="color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><font size="3"><br></font></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, 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