<div><span>칼의 자국</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>글 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">: </span><span>루류루</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">#1</span></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span>내가 이 세상에서 가장 사랑하는 사람</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>가장 믿을 수 있는 단 한 사람</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>설</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>그녀가 웃으면 나도 웃고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>그녀가 슬퍼하면 나도 슬프다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>하지만 한 가지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>그녀가 아파하면 나는 기쁘다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>그녀가 우울해 하는 날이면 어김없이 우리의 게임은 시작된다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>아무도 모르는 우리 단 둘만의 놀이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>아파</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.”</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span>기쁘다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>즐겁다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>설이가 아파하는데 왜 즐겁지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">? </span><span>오늘도 난 그녀의 손목을 든다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>그러곤</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>커터칼을 들고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>삭</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>아파</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">..</span><span>으</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">..”</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span>그녀의 우울함이 내게 숨어있던 공격성을 드러내게 만드는 걸까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>더 우울해하게 만들고 싶다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>더 아파하게 만들고 싶다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>더 혼란스러워하고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>더 울고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>더</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>더 망가뜨리고 싶다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>가끔씩은</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>죽여 버리고 싶다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>어쩌면 영원한 사랑이란 건 죽음으로부터 이루어질 지도 모르겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>인간이란 죽어야 영원해지니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>삭</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>얇은 줄 하나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>삭</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>그 위에 얇은 줄 또 하나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>삭</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>그 위에 깊은 줄 하나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>삭</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span>그 위에 더 깊은 줄 하나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span>흐르는 핏물</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>고이는 핏물</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>그녀의 눈물</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span><span>그녀의 곁에는 아무도 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>언제나 나와 그녀뿐이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">#2</span></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>어쩌다 이렇게 됐을까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.”</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span>그녀의 상처에 입맞춤을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>비릿한 맛에 머리가 어지럽고 속이 메스꺼워 칼을 놓쳐 버렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>상관없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>이제 설이의 팔을 소독할 차례다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>설이가 죽으면 내 삶도 끝나니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>죽여줘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>제발</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>제발 죽여줘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>이럴 바엔 죽는 게 낫겠어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.”</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span>설이가 울면서 외친다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>왜 죽여 달라는 걸까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>설이가 조금은 아플지라도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>난 설이가 행복하게 살았으면 좋겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>그래서 죽이고 싶어도 꾹 참는 건데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>왜 이런 내 마음을 몰라줄까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>아니야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>살려줘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>제발 살려줘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.”</span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">·</span></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">·</span></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">·</span></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span>바닥의 피를 모두 닦고 손을 씻다가 거울을 보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>그곳엔</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>설이가 울고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div>