<div style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:20px;margin:0px;"><b style="letter-spacing:0px;">1.<span class="space"></span>병무청 신체검사<span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></b></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">나도 이제 성인이라는 <span style="font-family:gulim;">자부감</span>을 약간 가지고</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">주변에 4급나오거나</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">공익판정 받는애들 안 부러움</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">2. 입대하라고<span class="space"></span>영장 나옴</font></span></b></span><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">약간 스트레스 받음, 하지만 한참 후 입대이기 때문에<span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span>별신경 안씀</span></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">(아직은 나와는 먼 얘기)</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">3 .군대가기 한참전<span class="space"></span></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">군대에 대한 환상을 약간 갖고 있고<span class="space"></span>나름 멋지고 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">멋진 청춘을 불태울 곳이라 생각듬<span class="space"></span></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">4. 군대가기 4~5달전</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">복무중이거나 전역한 친구,학교선배등에게<span class="space"></span></span><span style="font-family:gulim;">군대 간다고 하면 다들 존내 웃음.그땐<span class="space"></span>웃음 이해 못함</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">다들 웃으면서 뱅이 치라고 함. 그땐 별 이해못함.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span><span style="font-family:gulim;">군대에 대한 기대와 환상에대한 이야기하면 다들 비웃음</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">이미 복무중이거나 전역한 친구들이 선임들이 후임들 갈구고</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">친구들도 후임갈구는 얘기들으면 절대 이해 불가</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">친구들에게 후임들을 왜 갈구냐고 오히려<span class="space"></span>나무람.<span class="space"></span>(</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 자신도 나중에 후임 갈굼)</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><br></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">5. 군대가기 2~3달전<span class="space"></span></font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">약간 슬슬 똥줄이 타기 시작하며<span class="space"></span></span><font style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">이 때 아니면 언제 놀아보냐</span></font><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">하며 열라게 놀기시작</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">공부고 미래고 나발이고 진짜 인생에 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">놀수있는 마지막이라 생각하고</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">열라게<span class="space"></span>밤새 술먹고 놀고 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">일어나서 또 놀고<span class="space"></span> 마지막 청춘을 불태우면<span class="space"></span>놀음</span></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">이때는 부모도 친구도 어떠한 사람도 터치불가</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">" 곧 군대 갑니다 " 이 한마디로<span class="space"></span></span></span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">하면 다들 위로와 격려를 주며 노는데 건들지 않음</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">6. 군대가기 1달전</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">이제 제대로 똥줄이 타들어가지만 아직 군대에 대해 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">얘기만 들었지 경험하지 못해서 잘 모름.</span></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">술도 먹다먹다 지쳐 군대가기전 1달을 어떻게 보낼까</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">굉장히 고민하며 남은 시간을 </span><font style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">신중하게 </span></font><font style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">생각</span></font><span style="font-family:gulim;">하게됨</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 신중히 생각한다해도 </span><font style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">술은 열라게 먹게됨</span></font><span style="font-family:gulim;">.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">주위에 앞으로 비슷하게 입대할친구들끼리 젊음을 불태우며</span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">놀게 됨.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">근데 놀고 놀아도 </span><font style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">기분 착찹함.</span></font><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">제정신에는 기분이 적적해 술만 먹게됨. <span style="font-family:gulim;">감이안잡힘<span class="space"></span></span></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><br></span></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">7. 군대가기 2~3주전</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">너무 무리하게 2~3달을 놀아서 몸이 많이 피폐해짐.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">스스로를 추스릴겸 휴식도 갖고 그동안 살아왔던 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">20여년을 뒤돌아 보며 마음을 정리함.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">정리도 잠시 술로써 찹찹함 마음을 달램.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">친구들 만나도 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">별 위로도 즐겁지도 않음</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">8. 군대가기 1주전</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">지하철역에서 지하철 들어오는것만 봐도 눈물이남</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">. </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">이때는 여자도 눈에 잘안들어옴.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">휴대폰에 오는 문자는 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">군대 잘갔다오라는 문자등등 위로섞인 문자들.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">그동안 20여년이 너무 허무하게 살았던 거 같다는 생각이 들기도하고</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">많은 후회도 들고 앞으로 속세를 2년동안 떠날거라는 생각에 </span><span style="font-size:12pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">굉장히 슬픔</span><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">.</span></b></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></b></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">9. 군대가기 2~3일전</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">마지막으로 소중히 여기던 지인들과 마지막 술자리를 가짐.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">여러가지 충고와 격려를 들으며 슬픔의 술잔을 가짐.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">마지막으로 인사하고 집에오는데 술취해서 비치는 사회와 거리의 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">풍경이 낯설고 슬픔.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">10. 군대가기 하루전</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">친구들</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">, 지인들에게 오는 전화 받느라 바쁨.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 괜찮은 척 해보지만 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">마음은 죽을정도로 뒤숭숭함.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">남자가 이러면 안되지 하지만 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">그래도 마음은 공중에서 파도를 침.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">별에 별생각과 내일 입대할때 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">준비물챙기고 혹시라도 늦을까 일찍잠에 듬.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">근데 잠이 안옴. </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">하지만 결국 잠듬.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><b><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">11.</font></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"> 드디어 입대날</font></span></b><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">본인은 306다녀왔음.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"> 306가기전 의정부에서 먹는 부모님과의 마지막 고기.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">고기를 먹는건지 내가 나를 먹는건지 맛도 느껴지지 않음.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">긴장해서 똥 오줌 존내 마려움.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">훈련소 들어가기전 마지막 피는 담배 진짜 눈물나도록 맛좋음.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">가족 친구들과의 작별인사. </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">잊지못함.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">12. 306에서 3일</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">첫날밤 잠잘때 별생각 다들음. 나는무엇인가, 왜여기에 있는가.</span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 주위에 취침시작하자 마자 코골기 시작한 놈들 많음.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">솔직히 아직도 그런놈들 </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">이해안됨.(맘이 편한건지, 많이 피곤했던 건지)</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">피복</span>을 받으면서 군대에 온것을 <span style="font-family:gulim;">잠시</span> <span style="font-family:gulim;">실감</span>함. 아직 다 감 잡지못했음.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">13. 306떠나고 훈련소 가는날</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">벌써 군생활 다한거같음. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">기분좋음</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">몇일동안 사귄 친구들과의 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">작별 굉장히 아쉬움</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">14. 훈련소 배치</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">처음 부터 조교들 존내 쎈척함. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 지내다보면 </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">좋은 사람들.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><br></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">15. 훈련소 생활및 자대배치전</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">다들 동기라서 굉장히 재미있음.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">사소한 다툼도 있지만 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">군대라서 싸움까지는 안가고 다들 재미있게 지냄.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">군대에대한 환상도 조금 생기고 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">나름 할만하다고 느낌.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">16. 훈련소 퇴소</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">1달동안 정들은 동기들과 <span style="font-family:gulim;">이별</span>이 굉장히 아쉬움.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">다들 전역해서 보자고 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">약속.조교, 간부들과 눈물의 작별인사.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">같은 부대에 배치받은 동기들과 서로 <span style="font-family:gulim;">위로</span>.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">17. 자대배치</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">드디어<span style="font-family:gulim;"> 군대생활시작.</span></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">자대배치 전 존내 다리 후들거림.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">군생활 할만하다고 한건<span style="font-family:gulim;"> 나의 착각</span>.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">나름 사회에서 사람대접받고 자신감도 있었지만 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">그런거 다 필요없어짐.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><br></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b><font face="Gulim"></font></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">18. 이등병</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">내 생애 이렇게 모든걸 버리고 열심히 살은적은 없었던것 같음.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">자다가 눈이 떠지고 피곤해도 몸이 움직임. </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">1분1초가 긴장의 순간.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">눈치보느라 바쁘고 죽도록 열심히 함.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">개인적인 의견, </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">표현, </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">그런거 없음</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">그냥 부대의 <span style="font-family:gulim;">노예</span>.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">그래도 지금 생각하면 재밌는데 그때는 매순간 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">똥줄탐. 선임들한테 갈굼의 연속.</span></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">존내 서럽고 억울한일 당할때면 자기전에 이불덮고 <span style="font-family:gulim;">눈물</span>흘림.<span class="space"></span></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">19. 부모님한테 편지 왔을때</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">그동안 부모님한테 <span style="font-family:gulim;">효도</span> 못한거 너무 죄송함.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">가정의 소중함을 절실히 느끼게됨.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">부모님의 따스한 품이 그리움</span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">존내 눈물남.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">나중에 효도하겠다고 다짐하게됨.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b><font face="Gulim"></font></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">20.<span class="space"></span>신병위로휴가(100일휴가)</font></span></b></span><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">휴가가기전날밤.<span class="space"></span></span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">100일 밖에 안됬지만 그동안 사회가 어떻게 돌아가고 있는지 궁금함.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">장난아니게 설렘</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">정말 </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">설렘</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">.<span class="space"></span>새벽 4시반정도에 깨서 잠이안옴.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">못되게 굴던 선임도 이뻐보임. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">충성을 맹세하고 싶어짐.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">21. 100일휴가</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">부대나오는순간 주머니에 손도 넣고 싸제</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">담배도 사서 꼴아물고하지만 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">존내 어색함.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">부대나와서 역 근처에 가다가 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">다른 부대 선임들 봐도 왠지 눈치보임.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">주머니에 손넣으면 안될거같음.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">그리고 기차역근처에 휴가나온 무리들중 병장들 보면 <span style="font-family:gulim;">부러움.</span></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">집에가서 부모님께 큰절후 친구들 만나서 열라게 술먹기 시작</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">친구들한테 존내 아무렇지도 않은척 쎈척하고 군대 별거 아니라는듯이 말함.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 현실은 정반대. <br>그렇게 4.5<font color="#000000">초같은 100일 휴가가 훅</font> 지나감</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">22. 100일휴가 복귀전날밤</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">지구가 멈추길 바람. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">세상에 종말이 오길 기원함 잠 안옴.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">23. 복귀할때</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">타고 있는 택시나 버스가 뒤집히길 바라게됨. 혹은 천재지변.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">복귀할때 부대 입구만 봐도 사지가 떨리고 속이 메스꺼움</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">24. 복귀후</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">선임들의 퐌타지 갈굼의 시작. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 지내다 보면 나름 재미있음(지나고 생각하면)</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">25. 일병</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">굉장히 기분좋음. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">갓 들어오는 이등병들보면 존내 불쌍함</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">첫 후임과는 굉장히 친해짐.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">서로 챙겨주게됨.(혹은 완전틀어짐)</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">대부분의 <span style="font-family:gulim;">일</span>을하고, 이등병 방패가 사라져서 <span style="font-family:gulim;">폭풍갈굼을</span> <span style="font-family:gulim;">직격탄</span>으로 맞음.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">26. 일병 중간</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">슬슬 후임들 늘어나면 재미있어짐. </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">후임들 잘해주고 싶고.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">자신이 이등병때 였던 생각은 슬슬사라짐</span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">존내 갈구고 싶은 충동 충만해짐. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">갈굼 충만. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 아직은 눈치봄</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"></font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b><font face="Gulim"></font></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">27. 일병 휴가</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">첫 10일휴가라 재미있음</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">. 이것저것 하지만 결국 술만 먹음.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">28. 상병</font></span></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">이젠 짬도 되고 나름 군생활 마스터가 되어감</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">. </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">선임들 전역하는거 보면 존내 부러움.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">1년 남았다는 생각에. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">정말 괴로움</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">.<span class="space"></span></span><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 선임들 눈치보여서 이것저것 열심히 하는척함</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">열심히 하지는 않고 열심히 하는척만 함. <br></span><span style="font-family:gulim;">아들이 들어오고 진정한 군생활이 시작됨.</span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">29. 상꺽(상병5호봉)</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">굉장히 어려웠던 선임들. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">미웠던 선임들 모두 떠나가게됨.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">굉장히 허전함. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">그토록 전역하길 바랬던 미웠던 선임들도 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">하나둘씩 떠나니깐 진짜 보고싶음.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">다시 돌아와서 날 괴롭혀</span><span style="font-family:gulim;">줬으면</span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">하는 생각도 가끔 들음.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">윗사람이 없다는게 허전하다는걸 조금 느낌.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">책임감도 슬슬 생기게 됨. </span><span style="font-family:gulim;">하지만 그래도 선임이 없어지니 </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">편하긴 편해짐.</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">후임들 들어와도 별로 눈에 안들어옴.</font></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">후임들 관리도 슬슬 <span style="font-family:gulim;">지겹고</span> 만사가 다 <span style="font-family:gulim;">귀찮음.</span></font></span></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:12pt;"><b></b></span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim"><br></font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-size:14pt;"><b><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font face="Gulim">30. 상말(상병7호봉)</font></span></b></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">이제 그동안 군생활을 되짚어 보게됨.</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">많은 선임들 다떠나고 같이 이등병때 고생했던 선임들만 남아서</span><span style="font-family:gulim;"><span class="space"></span></span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;">군생활의 재미가</span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"></span></span></font> </div> <div><font><b style="font-family:gulim;font-size:12px;line-height:1.6;"><font color="#000000">31. 상병휴가</font></b> </font><div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;font-size:12px;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-family:gulim;">1년동안 세상이 참 많이 변해있음. </span><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font>조금 허전</font></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;font-size:12px;line-height:1.6;"><font face="Gulim"><span style="font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:12px;font-family:gulim;"><font><br></font></span></span></font></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;font-size:12px;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>31. 상병휴가 </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">1년동안 세상이 참 많이 변해있음. 조금 허전하고. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">뭐랄까 그냥 빨리 부대복귀해서놀고 싶다는 생각만들음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">휴가때도 부대사람들과 맞춰나오고 만남. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>32. 병장 </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">기다리고 기다리던 병장.하지만 멋도 잠시 그냥 존내 지겨움. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">만사가 다지겨움 후임도 지겨움 기상도 지겨움 밥도 지겨움. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">티비도 지겨움 훈련도 지겨움 상사도 간부도 지겨움. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그냥 다 지겨움 자고 자고 또 자도 졸림. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그놈의 병장집합은 끝나지를 않음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">상병때부터 모아둔 삐대기스킬을 본격적으로 사용함. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>33. 병장 중간</b> </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">이제는 선임들 다 떠남 조금 있는 선임들한테도슬슬 반말까고 그냥 얘기함. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">주머니에 손넣고 아무리 뭐라하는 사람도없고 간부 없을때 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">내 하고 싶어하는짓 다해도 뭐라고 하는 사람이 없어서 편하기도 한데 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">뭔가 굉장히 허전함. 내가 자유로운 반면 이등병들은 내 눈치 열라봄 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">가끔 이등병들한테 장난만 침. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;font-size:12px;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>34.말년 휴가 </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">이제 곧 사회인이라는 설레임은 잠시. 앞으로 나가서 뭐할지 걱정됨.그저 그랬음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;font-size:12px;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>35. 병장 말년 </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">간부도 병사도 군대 안에서 그 누구도 터치불가 언터처블 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">말그대로 그냥 내 세상. 내 말한마디에 많은 후임들의 하루의 컨디션과 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">바이오리듬이 변화됨. 그래서 본인은 후임들한테 잘해줬음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">후임도 이제는 날 선임으로 보기보다는 사회인으로 취급하기 시작. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">근데 화도 안나고 그저 후임들이 불쌍하게 느껴짐 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">사랑과 자비만 있을뿐.가끔 전입한 이등병들한테 장난침. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">본인의 이등병때 생각하면 조금 가슴아프기도 했음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">무서웠던 중대장도 행보관도 계속 이런 군대에 있을거란 생각에 간부조차 불쌍하게 보이게됨. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br></span></div> <div style="font-family:'굴림', gulim, tahoma, sans-serif;font-size:12px;line-height:1.6;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>36. 전역하루전날 </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">잠이 잘 오지 않음. 그동안의 2년이 주마등처럼 스쳐지나가며 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그토록 바랬던 오늘이지만 생각처럼 그렇게 설레이거나 하지는 않음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그저 2년동안 무사히 지낸거가 다행이란 생각이 들음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">군대오기 전날밤. 100일휴가때. 등등 많은것이 생각남. 그러면서 피식피식 웃게됨. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">아무리 힘들고 괴로운 순간도 지나고나면 추억이라는 생각이 맞다는 생각이 들음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그저 한낱 추억이 될뿐. 이런 저런생각에 미소지으며 잠이 들음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">군생활에서 가장 행복하고 편안하게 잠듬. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">설마 그날 밤에 북한이 쳐들어올까 살짝 걱정됨.기도하게됨. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>37. 전역날 </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">아침에 그토록 싫었던 기상소리가 천국의 노래로 들림 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">일어났을때 나를 향해 내리쬐는 햇살조차 감미로우며 군대의 후임들 간부들 모두 천국의 천사들같음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">마지막으로 후임들과 인사를 나누며 작별을 준비함. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">전역신고 마치고 동기들과 부대앞 정문을 나설때 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">부대를 뒤돌아 보게 될떄 후임들의 부러운 눈빛과 낯익은 부대의 전경. 잊지못함. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">동기들과 그렇게 부대를 떠나고 기차역에서 고기를 먹으며소주한잔 하게됨. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">모두들 2년전에 만났을때는 아직 어린티가 났었는데 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">세월이 지나 다들 약간 나이가 들어보이는걸 보면 조금 웃김. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">서로 자축하며 마지막 인사를 하고 제 갈 길로 걸어감. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그날은 부슬비가 내렸는데 정말 감동적이었음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">집에와서 부모님께 큰절하고 부모님과 식사. 그리고 친구들과 술한잔. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">술이 얼큰하게 취해 집에와서 침대에 누웠을때 참 많은 생각이 들게 됨. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그토록 바랬던 전역인데 왠지 모르게 굉장히 허전함 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">어제까지 옆에서 맞후임과 노래들으면서 1,2시간은 기본적으로 노가리까면서 잠이들었었는데... </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그 다음날 아침은 조낸 일찍일어남. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">가끔 환청으로 기상음악도 들림. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>38. 전역후 </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">사회에 돌아온 기쁨도 잠시 이제는 장래와 미래 걱정에 군대가기전의 배로 똥줄탐. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">벌써 전역한 친구들. 미래를 향해 뛰어가기에 본인도 열심히 하게됨. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">가끔 주위에 군대가는 후배들보면 그저 웃게됨.군대가 이제는 아름다운 추억으로 남음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">군대 안갔다온거 같다는 생각도 들음. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">친구들과 가끔 잊고 지내다가 군대 얘기나오면 정말 옛날생각 많이남. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><b>39. 그리고... 지금... </b></span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">밑에 군대에 대해 글쓴 사람 글보고 생각나서 적게됬는데 여기 까지 적게 됨 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">앞으로 군대갈분들. 재미있게 다녀오고, 추억 많이 만들길. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">힘든것도 잠시고 다 좋은 추억이되니까. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">가끔 리플중에" 아 입대 몇일 남았네~~" 하는 글을 보게되는데 </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">군대.. 지금은 가기 싫지만 갔다오면 세상 보는 눈과 남자세계를 보는눈이 많이 달라져있을것임. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">군대 갔다온거랑 안갔다온거랑은 천지 차이. 왜 남자가 군대를 가야되는지 알게될것임. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">정말 2년동안의 기다림과 인내의 시간...그건 겪어본 사람만 아는거니까. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">2년동안 많은걸 느낀건 가족,자유의 소중함과 헤어짐이 익숙해지는것? </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">특히나 외로움이 많은 군대에서는 누군가를 계속 보내고, </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">새로운사람을 계속 받으면서 작별이 익숙해진다. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;">그리움과 아쉬움이 커진다. </span><br style="font-family:'굴림', Tahoma;line-height:18px;"><span 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