<p><!--[if !mso]><style>v\:* {behavior:url(#default#vml);}o\:* {behavior:url(#default#vml);}w\:* {behavior:url(#default#vml);}.shape {behavior:url(#default#vml);}</style><![endif]--></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">최근 재미를 느끼게 된 것이 바로 책꽂이에 꽂혀진 오래된 책 다시 읽기다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">한동안 경제</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">/</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">경영학</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">자기계발서 도서만 읽어오면서</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그 동안 방치되어왔던 인문</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">철학</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">소설</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">수필 등의 도서는 나에게 철저히 버림을 받았다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그런데</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">어느덧 불혹의 나이가 되고 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">20</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">여년 간의 직장생활의 방점을 찍고 새로이 무언가를 시작할 시점에 돌아서 보면 내 가슴 속에 남아있는 책은 인문</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">철학</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">소설</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">수필 등의 도서였지</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">경제</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">/</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">경영학</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">자기계발서 등의 도서는 아니었다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">.</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">최근 서재에서 오래된 책들을 다시금 꺼내 들고 있다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">스무살 무렵</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">대학입시에 실패하고 방황하던 무렵</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">또는 군대에서 짬밥이 되지 않아 고참들 몰래 숨어서 보던 책들</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">김한길의 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">"</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">여자의 남자</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">" </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">라든가</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">이은성의 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">"</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">동의보감</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">", </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">베르나르 베르베르의 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">"</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">개미</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">", </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">안정효의 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">"</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">하얀 전쟁</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">" </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">등등</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">...</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">물론</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">군대에서 어느 정도 짬밥을 먹고는</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">내무반에서 누워있을 정도의 계급이 되었을 때</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">책을 많이 보았지만</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">제대를 앞두고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">후임병들을 위해 책을 내무반에 기증하고 나왔기 때문에 지금은 물론 그 책들이 내게는 없다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">다시 한 번 그 책들을 읽어 보기 위해 중고서점 사이트 등을 뒤져 가며</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">한 권씩 그 추억들을 모으고 있는 중이다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">.</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">이외수님의 금오벽학도는 그 무렵 읽었던 책은 아니다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">안사람이 결혼 전 읽었던 책이란다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">이상하게도 이외수님의 책을 읽어 본 적이 별로 없었던 것 같다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">최근에 읽었던 책은 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">"</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">하악하악</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">" </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">정도 였던 것으로 기억이 난다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">.</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">어쨌던</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">책장에서 낡아빠진 벽오금학도를 발견하고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">아침부터 미친 듯이</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">읽어 내려갔다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">줄거리는</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">다음과 같다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">.</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">풍류도인 농월당 선생의 손자 강은백은 신선의 마을에서 사흘을 노닐다 돌아온 후 머리카락이 하얗게 세어버린다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">만물에 편재하는 신비로운 체험을 한 그는 환상의 그림 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US"><</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">벽오금학도</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">></span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">를 들고 돌아온다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그는 그림 속을 자유자재로 왕래할 수 있는 사람을 만나면 다시 선계로 돌아갈 수 있다는 신선의 예언을 실현시켜 줄 사람을 찾아 헤매게 되는데</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">...</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">이 책을 읽으면서</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">상당히 빠져들고 말았지만 책을 덮고는 상당히 곤욕스러웠다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">주인공은 강은백이 선계로 돌아간 것이지만 이외수 선생은 벽오금학도를 통해 무엇을 이야기하고자 하는 것인지 솔직히 이해하기 어려웠다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">편재란 무엇인가</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">? </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">몰아일체를 이야기하는 것인지</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">?</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">천부경이 무엇이고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">단학이 무엇인지</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">? </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">어렵다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">도교 사상을 바탕으로 하는 것은 알겠지만</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">지금까지 살아오면서 도교에 대해 얼마만큼이나 내가 알고 있을까</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">? </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">왠지 책을 읽고 났을 때 에반게리온의 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">TV</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">판 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">25~26</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">편이 생각났다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">세상은 나 혼자만 살아가는 것이 아니며</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">세상 사람들과 자연스럽게 어울려 살아야 한다는 것</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">? </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">나 혼자 옳은 것이 아니라</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">다른 사람 모두가 옳고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">다른 사람들의 의견을 틀렸다고 생각하는 것이 아니라</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">나와 다르다는 것이라고 생각해야 한다는 것</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">? </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">등등</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">... </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">너무 많이 혼란스러웠다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">.</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">하지만</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">지난 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">20</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">여년 간 직장생활을 하면서 나는 나만이 특출하다는 생각을 많이 했다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">나는 한 눈 팔지 않고 지금 것 살아왔다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">자기계발에 손 놓지 않고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">한 달에 최소 </span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">2~3</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">권의 책을 읽고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">틈틈이 유명 강사들의 강의도 들으러 다니고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">학원도 다니며 여러 가지 자격증을 따기 위해 노력해왔다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">내 직장동료들은 그러나 그러지 않았다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">퇴근 후 동료들끼리 모여 술이나 한 잔 하고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">책이라고는 손톱만큼도 보지 않았다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">나는 그들을 솔직히 경멸했다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. ‘</span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그래 지금은 차이가 나지 않아도 나중에 보면 당신들은 후회할 꺼야</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">...’</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그러나 그것은 나의 편협한 생각이었다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">사람은 사람마다 사는 방식이 다르다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그 사람들이 나와 다르고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">나와 틀리다고 해서 그 사람들을 내가 경멸할 필요는 없는 것이다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그 사람들이 그러한 생활에서 그러한 삶에서도 행복을 느낀다면 그 사람들이 옳은 것이다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">나와 같이 절제된 삶을 살아가면서</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">내 스스로에게 엄격하게 굴고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">내 스스로를 계발하기 위해 불철주야 노력했지만</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">막상 뒤돌아 보면 난 그렇게 행복하지 않았다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">그럼 난 불행했던 거였다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">.</span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">어떠한 기준으로 남을 평가해서는 않되는 것이었는데 나는 그것을 몰랐다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">단지</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">나는 내 방안의 수 백 권의 도서를 읽었다는 자부심으로 스스로 내가 대단하다고 착각하였을 뿐이다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">하지만 이제 이외수님의 벽오금학도 한 권이 이러한 나를 무너뜨렸다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">책을 읽고 많이 괴로웠다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">마치 메트릭스에서 빨간 약을 선택한 후 진실을 알게 된 것 처럼 괴로움이 솟구쳐왔다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">이외수님의 벽오금학도에 대한 평가는 내리기 어렵다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">재미있는 것 같으면서도 어렵고</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">, </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">어려운 것 같으면서도 뭔가 허전하다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">특히나 책의 마무리가 내가 기대했던 것 보다 조금 부족한 것 같기도 하다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">하지만 지금 평가를 내리기 보다는 한 번 더 읽어보고 난 후... 그래도 이해가 않간다면 한 번 더 읽어봐야 할 것 같다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span><span style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;background:#ffffff;">쉽게 답을 내리기에는 내게는 너무 어려운 책이 아니었나 싶다</span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;background:#ffffff;" lang="EN-US">. </span></p><p class="0" style="background:#ffffff;mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"> </p>
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