<div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">....’</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>또 그 소리다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 이 소리에 온 몸의 털이 다 쭈뼛해지고 정신은 번쩍 든다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>미쳐버리겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>아주</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>시계는 너무 당연하게도 새벽 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">3</span><span>시 언저리를 가리키고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>지금 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">4</span><span>시간 째 이렇게 방에 웅크리고 졸면서 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">’</span><span>와의 사투를 벌이고 있다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>약 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">20</span><span>분 간격</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>저렇게 정확히 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">3</span><span>번 씩 두드리고 있다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>문 열어서 확인 하면 안되냐고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>경찰에 신고 안하냐고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>당신이라면 지금 이 상황을 이해할 수 없겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그러나 지금 얘기를 들어보라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">...’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이 소리를 처음 들었을 때는 밤 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">11</span><span>시쯤이었나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 혼자서 스마트폰으로 예능을 한창 보고 있었지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>참고로 나는 자취생이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>방은 좁은 원룸이고 꾸밀 것도 없는 그저 옷과 의자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>침대</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>책상</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">...... </span><span>전형적인 자취생이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>침대에 누워 혼자 낄낄 거릴 때 그 소리가 들려왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>정확히</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그것도 세 번 박자를 맞추는 듯이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>처음에는 친구가 술 마시자고 쳐들어온 줄 알았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그것도 토요일 밤이니 대학가 술집도 근처겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>당연하지 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>누구세요</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>목소리 높여 침대에서 한 발자국도 움직이지 않은 상태였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그런데 돌아온 것은 침묵 뿐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 더 크게 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>누구세요</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?”</span><span>라고 소리치며 친구들 이름을 하나씩 나열했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“XX</span><span>이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">? OO</span><span>이냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">? </span><span>누구야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>또 대답이 없기에 나는 속으로 욕하며 침대에서 벗어났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>문을 열려고 하는 찰나 또 문을 노크하는 소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">......’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>내 방 문은 밖을 보는 구멍이 없어 살펴볼 수도 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>살짝 기분이 이상해진 나는 날카롭게 비명질렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>야이씨</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>누구야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">! </span><span>장난 치지마</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">! </span><span>누구냐고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">!”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그 순간 나는 얼굴이 새하얘졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>쾅</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">! </span><span>쾅</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">! </span><span>쾅</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">!’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>문을 부수듯이 큰 소리로 건너편의 누군가는 문을 두드렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>거기서 멈춘 게 아니라 달그락달그락 문을 열려고 하였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 그 때 공포에 극에 달하면 몸이 움직이지 않는다는 표현이 이해가 되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그러다가 아무런 소리는 나지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 천천히 뒷걸음질치며 침대로 복귀했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이불과 핸드폰을 웅크리고 떨고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>도저히 문을 열 용기는 나지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그렇다고 경찰에 이런 일로 전화하는 것도 무언가 경찰 입장에서는 웃길 터</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>안 그래도 토요일이고 술도 조금 들어갔겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>학교 기숙사에 산다는 친구한테 문자했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">...... </span><span>내 방 와라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>술 마시자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>대답은 금방 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>뜬금없이 뭐냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">...... </span><span>뭔 일 있냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 차마 무서워서 그렇다고 할 수도 없고 그렇다고 뜬금없이 술 마시자는 것도 웃기다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>일단 핑계로 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>요즘 인생 많이 힘들다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.’</span><span>라고 보냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그래도 의리 있는 놈이니 이렇게 말하면 와주진 않을까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>나도 지금 밖에서 술 마시고 있다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>집 갈 때 한 번 들를게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>무언가 아쉬운 대답이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 언제쯤 오냐고 문자 보냈을 때 금방 갈 듯 하다고 답장이 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이렇게 순간적으로 안도를 느꼈지만 여전히 불안했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그 때였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">......’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 몸이 또 경직되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이번에는 가만히 있기로 하였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그런데 웬걸 건너편에서는 웃음소리가 들려왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>이히히히히히히히히히히히히</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">!!!!!”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>굉장한 고음이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나를 비웃는 듯했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>손가락 마디마디마다 신경이 곤두섰다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>여름인데도 추웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나도 모르게 눈가에 눈물이 고였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나도 내가 꼴사나운 것을 안다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>옆에 누구라도 있었으면 좋겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 더더욱 웅크리고 다시 한 번 친구한테 문자 보냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>아직이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>숨이 턱 막혔을 때 그의 답장은 산소와 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>금방 간다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>지금 안주 좀 사고 가는 중</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>그런데 뭔 일이기에 그러냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 오면 얘기 해준다고 했고 그는 알겠다고 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>한 세 번째 이 소리를 들었을 때는 이미 자정이 넘어갔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>종교를 믿지도 않는 나는 본능적으로 두 손 모아 누군가에게 기도를 올리고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>제발</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>제발</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>제발</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>술기운 때문에 살짝 피곤하기도 했지만 발 뻗고 잘 엄두는 안 났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>친구한테 다시 문자 보냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>어디쯤</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>한 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">5</span><span>분이면 갈 듯</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>거기 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">OO</span><span>빌라 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">XX</span><span>호 맞지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 그렇다고 답하고 기다렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>이제 조금만 버티면 된다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>한 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">20</span><span>분이 지나도 친구의 소식은 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>대신 다른 것이 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">......’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>또 그 소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>미쳐버릴 지경이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>친구는 저렇게 문을 노크하지 않을 것이기에 당연히 나는 아직도 무서웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>전화를 걸었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>또르르르르르르</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">......’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>신호음이 갔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그리고 거기에 맞춰 어디선가 익숙한 음악이 들렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>복도에서 나는 소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>친구의 벨소리다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>안 받는다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>계속 신호음만이 울리고 복도에서는 음악이 울린다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>제발</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>제발</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>제발 받아라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>상대방이 받지 않아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">....’ </span><span>신호음이 열 번 울리고 들려오는 소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 툭 끊었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>뭐지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그렇다고 문을 열 용기는 안 났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>온갖 상상이 머릿속에 맴돌았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 대신 문자를 남기기로 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이때까지만 해도 설마 아니겠지라는 생각이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>야 너 어디야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>빨리 온다매</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이 한 줄은 아무리 째려봐도 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>읽지 않음</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">’ </span><span>표시로 남았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 그래도 마지막 희망을 놓치지 않기 위해 다시 전화를 걸었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>또르르르르</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">......’ </span><span>거기에 맞춰 문 넘어 복도에서 울리는 음악 소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그런데 그 때였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>신호음 세 번 정도 울렸나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그리고 꺼졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>상대방이 바쁜 관계로</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">......’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>복도에서 희미하게 울리던 음악 소리도 금방 꺼졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">......’</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이제 몇 번째인지 모르겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그렇게 나는 내 방에서 움츠러든 자세로 이렇게 새벽 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">3</span><span>시까지 버티고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그렇게 새벽을 버텼다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그러다가 느닷없이 핸드폰에 내 친구번호로 전화가 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>당연히 받지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 조용히 눈물을 머금었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그렇게 버틸 수가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>도저히 안 될 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>자리를 박차고 일어났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>그래 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">X</span><span>발</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">! </span><span>네가 이기나 내가 이기나 한 번 해보자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">!!!!!”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>온 동네가 떠나가라 괴성을 지르고 식칼을 찾아들어 문을 열 준비를 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>이 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">XX!! </span><span>어디 너 죽고 나 죽어보자 그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">!!!!!”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>문을 확 열고 앞으로 돌진하였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그런데 무언가에 걸려 고꾸라져 넘어졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 넘어지면서 칼을 이리저리 휘둘렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그렇게 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">10</span><span>초를 버둥거리고 욕하고 소리 질렀을까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>제대로 보니까 사람이 내 옆에 누워있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>내 친구였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그는 온 몸에 피가 낭자한 채 차갑게 쓰려져 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>내가 걸려 넘어진 것은 이 녀석이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“OO</span><span>아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, OO</span><span>아 정신차려봐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">!”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 그의 몸을 흔들며 깨워봤지만 반응이 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그 때 복도 저편에서 누군가가 문을 열고 나왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span>그리고 나랑 눈 마주치더니 비명을 질렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span>꺄아아아악</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">! </span><span>살인범이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">!”</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그리고선 문을 쾅 닫고 도망갔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그 때 깨달았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>오른 손에 꾹 쥔 식칼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>넘어지면서 내 몸과 식칼에 묻은 피</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>나는 그렇게 해서 정신병원이라는 곳에 몇 년 째 격리 중이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>이 이야기를 누구한테 하더라도 난 정신 나간 놈 취급 받는다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>그래도 행복하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>노크소리는 안 들리니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>부르면 바로 와 줄 사람들도 주변에 가득하고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><span>혼자만의 밤</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span>당신들은 어떤가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?</span></div> <div><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">   </span><p></p></div> <div><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">‘</span><span>똑 똑 똑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.......’</span></div>