<div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">아</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">하고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">부른</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">입술은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">새파랗게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">떨렸다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">이상하게도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그날은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">눈이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">떠졌고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">알람은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">울리지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">않았다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">푸름보다</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">붉음이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">강했던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">새벽녘이었고</span><span lang="en-us">, </span><span lang="ko">언틋</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">노을빛과도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">비슷했으나</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">시간은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">분명한</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">새벽이었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">붉음은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">새파란</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">입술을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">비췄고</span><span lang="en-us">, </span><span lang="ko">추위때문인지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">슬픔때문인지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">파래진</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">입술에</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">붉게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">립스틱을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">칠해주었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그래</span><span lang="en-us">. </span><span lang="ko">그랬었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그날은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그를</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">보내주던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">날이었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">딱</span><span lang="en-us"> 1</span><span lang="ko">년</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">전</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그날</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그를</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">보내주던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">날이었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">만지기도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아쉽고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">보기도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">닳을것</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">같은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사람</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사람이라</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">부르기도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아깝고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">보기만</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">해도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">행복하고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사람을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">생각하면</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">절로</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">가슴이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아릿해지고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">손끝이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">저릿해지는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">행복감이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">추락감이되기엔</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">겨우</span><span lang="en-us"> 1</span><span lang="ko">분이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">필요했던</span><span lang="en-us">. </span><span lang="ko">그날이다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">몇번의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">다짐속에</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사라진</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">마음을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사람은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아마</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">모를것이다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">수없이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">체념하고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">울음을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">삼키며</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사람의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">옆에서</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">단지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">있음에</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">감사했던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">나날들을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그사람은</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">모를것이다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">처음의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">고백이후</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">상상보다</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">커다랬던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">마음은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">이성을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">이기고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">감성을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">흐르게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">만들었고</span><span lang="en-us">,</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">이후</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">추스른</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">마음은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">부정을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">부정하였다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사람의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">좋은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">마음을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">고집스럽게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">밀어붙이고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">힘들게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">하고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">나혼자</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">충족감에</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">쌓여있었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그렇게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">두번의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">체념이후</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">저릿한</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">가슴을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">숨긴채</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">이곳에</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">만족하려</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">했다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">만족한다고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">생각했었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">시간이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">지날수록</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그사람과의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">함께가</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">늘어날수록</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">욕심도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">늘어났고</span><span lang="en-us">, </span><span lang="ko">또다시</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">감성은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">이성을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">이겼다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">여러번의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">스킨십으로</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">마음</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">억눌렀으나</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">커다란</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">마음</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">어디</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">단순한</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">스킨십으로</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사그러</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">들수</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">있는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">마음이겠는가</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">손바닥으로</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">하늘</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">가리기였다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">작은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">스킨십은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">오히려</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">스트레스로</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">쌓여</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">폭발하게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">만들것이었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그러나</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그러한</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">상황을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">예상하고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">미래를</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">빤히</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">보듯한</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">행동양식이었지만</span><span lang="en-us">,</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us"></span><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">차마</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">조그마난</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">온기에</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">취해</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">눈가리고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아웅하는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">것이었다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그렇게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">쌓이고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">쌓이다</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">언제</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">빵하고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">터질까</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">나</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">자신조차도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">불안했던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그때</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그사람이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">고백하는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">것이다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">우리</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">한번</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">만나보자고……</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">상황에서도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">사람의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">다정한</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">성격탓인줄</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">알고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">또다시</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">부정하였다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">나의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">잦은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">스킨십에</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">당신이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">희생하지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">말아달라</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">여전히</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">당신을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">좋아한다고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">당신에게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">강요하는게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아니었다고</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">나의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">스킨십이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">불편했다면</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">하지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">않겠다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그렇게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">나는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">떨리는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">입술을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">앙</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">다물며</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">떨리는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">손끝을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">잡으며</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그렇게…</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그렇게</span><span lang="en-us">.. </span><span lang="ko">속으로</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">억누르며</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">감정을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">표출하지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">않았다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">하지만</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">다정하게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">머리를</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">쓰다듬으며</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">두번</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">하지</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">않으리라</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">믿었던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">스킨십을</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">미리</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">하며</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">나를</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">위로하던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그때보다</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">더</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">다정하게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">웃으며</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">말했다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">동정심따위가</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아니라고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그렇게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">나에게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">말했다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">꿈일까</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">겁부터도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">나고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">애써</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">웃으며</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">지내던</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">가면이</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">툭하고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">내려가며</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">여리고</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">울보인</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">감정이</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">그대로</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그에게</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">전해졌다</span><span lang="en-us">.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">당황하는</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">그의</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">모습은</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">아직도</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">여전히</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">내</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">앞에</span><span lang="en-us"> </span><span lang="ko">생생한데……</span><span lang="en-us">..</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">생생한데</span><span lang="en-us"> ...그렇게나 생생한데……</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="ko">없다</span><span lang="en-us">. </span><span lang="ko">그가 </span><span lang="ko">없다</span><span lang="en-us">....</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us"></span> </div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us"></span> </div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us"></span> </div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us">쓴지 한달 좀 넘은글인데 이때 당시에 보답받지 못한 감정을 가지고 보기만 했던터라</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us">감정적으로 정말 너무 힘들었어요.</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us">지금은 여전히 짝사랑중인제 어떤 글을 보고 마음을 고쳐먹었답니다.ㅎ</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us"></span> </div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us">이글 쓰고 한참을 울었어요.....ㅎㅎㅎㅎ</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us"></span> </div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us">모든 짝사랑분들 힘내세요....</span></div> <div style="margin:0in;font-family:'Malgun Gothic';font-size:11pt;"><span lang="en-us"></span> </div>