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    <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">새로운 모토와 인생설계</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">]</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">야 장군아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 교회가자 그러면 안 간다 그럴 줄 알았냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">솔직히 말해도 돼</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">당연히 안 간다 그럴 줄 알았어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이 새</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">X </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아무것도 모르는구만</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내 제일 친한 친구가 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">OO</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">교회 다니는데 거기 뭐 한다 그럼 맨날 가</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아 그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 넌 왜 안 다녀</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그냥 오라 그러니 가는 거지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">친구 엄마가 다니라고 해서 다녀봤는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하며 교회에서 얼굴에 침 맞은 이야기를 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나도 때렸다는 내용은 빼고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">너 맨날 내가 무슨 생각인지 도통 모르겠다고 했잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 형들 한번 관찰해 봐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아마 내 생각이랑 크게 다르지 않을 형들이라 이해하는데 조금은 도움이 될 수 있을 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 형들도 약해빠졌어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">큭큭큭</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">여튼 농구는 진짜 개잘하더라</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">니가 이 정도 하는게 당연하네</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">누구 형은 개빠르고 다른 누구는</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이러면서 분석한 내용을 이야기하고 다음 주에 다시 가기로 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">예배 끝나면 간댔더니 형들이 예배 안 드리면 농구 안 한다고 했단다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">저것들이 달란트를 쿠폰이라고 속이는 것도 모자라 농구로 나를 꾀이려 하고 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?'</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 난 사실 궁금했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">초식동물을 스스로 선택한 자들</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!'</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리하여 그곳으로 가 예배를 드리고 그들과 농구를 하기 시작했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 그 형들을 관찰하며 깨달았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">마른 장군이</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">안경 쓴 장군이</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하얀 장군이</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">말을 약간 더듬는 장군이</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">생긴 것만 다르지 저 사람들의 뇌회로는 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">왜 그렇게 생각했냐면 저들도 코 좀 베어가겠다고 하면 코를 베어가라 할 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">겉껍데기만 다르고 다 같은 장군이였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">분명 답답한 생태계 최하위권 초식동물이었지만 따뜻한 빛처럼 느껴졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">외투를 벗기는 건 찬 바람이 아니라 따뜻한 햇살이라는 동화가 생각이 났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">점점 그 이유를 알 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그들이 왜 그런지 목사님이 매주 일요일 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">시간씩 설명해 주셨다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그들은 초식동물이 아니었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내게는 인간 생태계 최하층으로 보였지만 그들 나름의 이유가 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어느 날 들은 말로 장군이가 뭘 카피했는지도 알았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">오른뺨을 치거든 왼뺨도 돌려대며</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">를 들으니 장군이가 사과하라는 그 장면이 떠올랐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 처음 장애인 취급을 받았는데 해명하지 못하고 빨리 내려야 했을 때도 생각났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">저들은 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">손해 이익</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이기고 짐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">기브 앤 테이크</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">약육강식</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">' </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">말고 다른 원리를 배우고 고민하며 살고 있는 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나와는 다른 모토를 가지고 사는 사람들</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그것은 내가 알던 세상과는 전혀 다른 세상이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">믿을 수 없는 이야기도 많았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그러나 나는 예배를 들어야 그들과 같이 수준 높은 농구를 할 수 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">난 중학교 때 다른 학교랑 농구 시합을 하러 가면 학교 대표로 가고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">길거리농구 대회도 나갈 정도로 농구에 자부심이 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내 나이 대가 아니어도 난 웬만한 것들은 다 바를 수 있다고 생각했는데 내가 아는 세상은 너무 좁았었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">새로운 모토의 이야기를 듣기 위해 모여있지만 그들 중에는 나와 같은 모토를 가진 친구들도 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 그들이 이해가 됐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나도 그 동안 이해하지 못한 장군이의 뇌회로</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이의 말들이 많았는데 설명을 들어도 납득이 되지 않았었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나에게 새로운 모토는 너무 재미났고 즐거웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그곳은 밝은 빛으로 둘러 쌓인 것 같이 따스하게 느껴졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그렇게 나는 그들과 함께하며 나도 모르는 사이 초식동물인 사슴이 되어갔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년에서 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년으로 올라가는데 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">문과</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">와 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이과</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">를 선택하라 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 당시 나는 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아버지 사업 따위는 물려받지 않는다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그건 아버지가 좋아서 일구신 거고 난 그런 일에는 관심이 없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">라고 생각했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나중에 뭘 하면 먹고 살 수 있을까</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?' </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">고민하다가 나온 답은 경호학과였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">같이 운동하는 형 한 명이 용</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">X</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">대에 지원한다며 운동하는데 그 형도 보통이 아니었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아주 멋있어 보였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 어떻게 테크를 타야 경호학과를 들어갈 수 있는지 물었더니 단증외에 뭐 별거 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 원래 가졌던 목표 외에 그것도 생각하며 운동을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그러던 어느 날 장군이에게 물어봤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">야 넌 문과 갈 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이과 갈 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">응</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">난 이과</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">왜</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">의대가려고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">의대</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">너 공부 잘하니까 의사 되게</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아니</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아픈 사람들 고치려고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그럼 나도 이과 가야겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">너네 아버지 사업하시잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그거 잘 되는 거 아니야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">난 그딴 거 관심 없어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 경호학과나 갈까 생각하고 있었지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그런 거 있잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">양복 쫘악 빼입은 보디가드</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">크으</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">~ </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">멋있지 않냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">자기 몸 하나뿐 아니라 힘이 남아 돌아서 주변 사람들까지도 지켜줄 수 있는 강한 사람</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">캬아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">~ </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 그거 이과 가도 들어갈 수 있는 거 맞지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 너는 왜 격투기를 해</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">지금 말했잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 단증 따놔야 돼</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">태권도도 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 때부터 시작할 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">유도도</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이미 집에 다 말해놨어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 그 말 한 적 있지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 초에 다른 학교 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">3</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 새끼들한테 쳐 맞았다는 거</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 새끼들은 다시 나 보면 뒤졌어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">지금 만나면 깔끔하게 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">분 안에 둘 다 죽일 수 있을 텐데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이 새끼들이 어디 숨었나 안 보인다 야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">보디가드 좋네</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 보디가드도 좋은데 그 경호를 받는 사람이 되어 볼 생각은 없어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"......"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">태어나서 한 번도 생각해 본 적 없는 질문이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">신일이 너는 이미 네 한 몸뿐만 아니라 주변 사람들을 지켜줄 수 있지 않아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">틀린 말이 아닌 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그럼 나 어떡해야 되냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">다른 아이들에게는 없는 게 네게 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그게 뭔데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">사업체를 가진 아버지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그건 맞는데 그건 내 일이 아니야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">난 아무것도 모른다고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 관심도 없어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래도 한번 생각해 봐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">남들에게는 그런 아버지를 갖고 싶어도 가질 수 없는데 너는 이미 그런 아버지가 계셔</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래도 그걸로 빌 붙어먹고 사는 건</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">좀</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아닌 것 같은데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 난 운동하는 게 좋아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">가서 땀을 흠뻑 흘리면서 내가 할 수 없을 것 같은 목표를 계속 깨나가는 그 쾌감이 있단 말야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그럼 그건 계속하면 되지 않아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">꼭 그걸로 먹고 살 필요는 없잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">병행이 가능할 것 같은데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 네 아버지는 경영에 대해서 공부하신 게 아니라 원래 연구를 하시던 분이라며</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">너는 경영을 배워서 아버지가 만들어 놓은 것을 더 크게 키워 보는 게 어떨까 하는 생각이 들어서</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">전문 경영인이지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">반박의 여지가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">막연하게 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">꿈</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">과 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">돈</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">', </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 둘을 연계 시켜보니 나온 경호학과</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그러나 저렇게 반박할 여지 없이 논리적으로 내가 생각해보지도 못한 말을 하니 나는 충격을 받았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">돈은 돈 버는 일을 하고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 하고 싶은 운동은 운동대로 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.'</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그것에 대한 명분까지 명확했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 다 가능한 이야기였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">머리의 크기와 생각의 크기가 비례하는 것인가 궁금했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그날 밤</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">난 아버지 어머니를 모셔놓고 말씀드렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나 내일부터 격투기랑 헬스 안 간다고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">공부에 올인할 거다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">대학교를 갈 건데 과는 이미 정했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span><span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">난 아버지 사업체를 키울 것이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 경영학과에 가려 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아버지는 기술쟁이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">경영에 대해 책 몇권 읽으신 것을 빼고는 따로 공부하신 적이 없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 그 경영을 전공으로 공부를 하려 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그러려면 지금 운동은 잠시 접어두고 공부에 몰빵을 해야만 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">조금이라도 더 낫다는 대학에서 장군이처럼 똑똑한 놈들과 같이 공부를 하고 싶다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 대학을 붙고 나면 다시 운동을 시작 할 것이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그러니 지금부터 나 공부하게 지원 좀 해 달라</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.'</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이 말을 듣고 어머니는 우리 아들이 드디어 정신을 차렸다며 엉엉 우셨다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">격투기를 시작하게 된 고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1, 4</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">월</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어머니 생각에는 아들이 슬슬 진로를 정해야 하는 중요한 시기인데 학교 정규 수업만 듣고 운동을 하겠다 하니 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">3</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">일을 앓아 누우셨었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아버지는 사람은 하고 싶은 걸 하고 살아야 한다며 지원해 주시기로 하고 운동을 하든 뭘 하든 나만 즐거우면 된다고 하셨다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그런 아들래미가 갑자기 운동을 다 끊고 공부를 한다니 얼마나 기쁘셨을까</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 운동을 그렇게 죽기 살기로 하다 보니 수업 시간에 피곤해서 나도 모르게 졸 때가 많았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">선행 학습도 몇 과목만 고등학교 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학기부분까지 한 게 전부라 첫 입학은 반에서 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">4</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등이었는데 마지막 시험은 반에서 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">32</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어머니는 성적이 이게 뭐냐 했지만 나는 어차피 그걸로 먹고살게 아니라 큰 상관이 없다고 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 지금 발등에 불이 떨어졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 이 문제에 대해 장군이와 상의했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이는 넌 체력이 좋으니 겨울동안 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 과정을 최대한 빠르게 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">5</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">번 반복해서 보라 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. 1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 것을 마스터해야 하는 이유는 그 뒤의 내용이 연계가 되기 때문이라고 지금 그것부터 얼른 해야 한다고 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 말을 들은 후</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 새벽 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">시 이전에 잔 적이 단 한 번도 없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">시간이 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">지체하면 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년이 시작된다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그러면 나는 할 게 점점 쌓여간다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">처리할 것부터 빨리 처리하자</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">마음먹었는데 뜻대로 되지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">보고 까먹고 보고 까먹고 보고 까먹고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">' </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">의 연속이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">모르는 게 나오고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">안 외워지고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">답답해도 난 엉덩이는 떼지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">떼면 지는 거고 죽는 거였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 후 모르는 것이 있으면 시도 때도 없이 장군이에게 전화를 걸었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이는 우리 반 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등을 한 번도 놓친 적이 없었고 전교 한 자릿수 등수다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그렇게 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년이 시작되자 나는 문과</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이는 이과로 가서 반이 갈리게 되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이와 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">8</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">년의 계획</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">]</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 수업이 끝나고 야간자율학습시간이 되면 장군이네 반으로 가서 공부했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">모르는 걸 따로 모아 둔 것도 물어봐야 했고 또 공부를 하다 모르는 게 생기면 바로바로 물어볼 수 있어서 좋았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 반에 갔더니 안면 있는 양아치들이 집에 가고 싶은데 강제로 남아 있게 되어 시끄럽게 떠들고 장난을 쳤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이런 건 기선제압을 제대로 해야 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그냥 참으면 그래도 되는 줄 알고 시끄러운 게 계속된다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 다른 아이들도 점점 거기 동조해 나날이 더 시끄러워진다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 본보기로 그 반에 가장 힘이 세다는 친구가 떠들 때 조용히 하라고 소리쳤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">잠시 조용해졌다가 다시 떠들어서 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">번</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">3</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">번째 다시 떠들 때</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"3</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">번째다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">마지막이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하고 크게 소리를 질렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">자존심이 상했는지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">야 넌 우리 반도 아니면서 왜 와서 지</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">X</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하고 호기롭게 욕까지 섞어 대답을 해주었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">걸려 들어쓰</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!'</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">기분 좋게 날라가서 아까 참았던 마음이 풀릴 때까지 때려주었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 당시 인내심을 기준으로 많이 참았었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이름도 기억 안 나지만 미안하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">친구야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">여튼 그래서 그 반에서는 나부터도 장군이에게 뭐 물어볼 때 소근 소근이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">다른 애들도 다 마찬가지라 공부하기 참 좋은 환경이 되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어느 날</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 반 담임선생님이 야자 시간에 들어와 넌 왜 니 반에서 공부 안 하고 맨날 남의 반에서 공부하냐고 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 공부 좀 해보려는데 장군이가 필요하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이는 나 조금 돕는다고 자기 성적이 떨어질 하수가 아니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">야자 시간이 끝나고 밤 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">10</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">시부터는 집에 가서 혼자 공부하는데 물어야 할 것들이 쌓인다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">해소할 시간이 필요하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그렇다고 시끄럽게 하는 것도 아니고 시간을 엄청 빼앗는 것도 아니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학교에 있는 시간만큼은 날 이 반에서 공부하게 해 달라</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!‘</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">라고 납득 가능하게 설명을 드렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">다음 날 아침</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">우리 반 담임선생님이 교실로 들어오자마자</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">야 이 미친x끼야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">넌 왜 니 반 놔두고 남의 반에 기어 들어가서 야자를 해 가지고 아침부터 열받게 만들어</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하며 다짜고짜 욕을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아니 선생이 학생 공부 좀 하자는데 말들 더럽게 많았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어머니는 매년 초 담임선생님께 책 한 권을 선물한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 책 안에는 두툼한 봉투가 하나 끼워져 있다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">저렇게 말을 할 수 있다는 것은 아직 어머니의 책이 전달되기 전이기 때문인 듯했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">팔은 안으로 굽는다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">자신에게 미리 감사함을 담은 마음을 책으로 표현해 준 학부형의 아들에게는 한마디라도 따스하게 건네게 되어있다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그러나 곧 일어날 미래의 일을 모르는 이 담임 선생님 입장에서는 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">학년 때 반에서 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">32</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등 하던 놈이 야자 한답시고 남의 반에 가서 그 반 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등을 괴롭히니 누가 봐도 이것은 위험한 행동이었을 것이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 욕을 한 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">더러워서 우리 반에서 공부하기로 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하아</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...'</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">조용히 만드는 작업을 또 시작해야 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 웬걸 우리 반은 생각보다 조용했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">분위기가 나쁘지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">여기서 해도 생각보다 괜찮은데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">궁금한 건 쉬는 시간이나 점심시간이나 저녁시간에 몰아뒀다 묻지 뭐</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하고 나는 반에서 야자를 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 며칠 뒤 야자 시간에 장군이네 반 담임선생님이 우리 반으로 찾아왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">잠깐만 나와보라 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">저 선생님이 나를 찾을 이유는 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">궁금해서 나가보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">선생님이 한 말은 어이가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">자신이 전화를 한 통 받았다고 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">자기 반 아이의 엄마가 요즘 야자 시간에 애들이 시끄럽게 떠들어서 자기 아들이 공부를 못하겠다고 했다는 것이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 반장인 장군이에게 원래 우리 반 야자 분위기 좋았는데 누가 문제냐고 물으니 내가 문제라고 했다는 것이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 사라지고 점점 시끄러워졌다는 말을 듣고 뛰쳐 올라왔다는 것이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">거봐요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!! </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그냥 냅두면 알아서 잘 하는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!!"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">니가 뭔데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">왜 니가 가니까 그런 건데</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">제가 어험처엉나게 열심히 공부하니까 이게 애들한테도 전달이 되는 거라니까요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아 저 쓰레기도 저렇게 공부한다고 하는데 나라고 못할까</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">뭐 이런 거 아닐까요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하하</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그럼 니가 다시 우리 반에서 야자를 하면 다시 그런 전화가 안 걸려온다는 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">백퍼</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">!!!</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아 그러게 그냥 놔뒀으면 되는 걸 왜 괜히 우리 담임선생님한테 이야기해서 이렇게 서로 불편하게 만들어요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">선생님도 심심하면 제가 지금 그 반 가서 공부할 테니까 오셔서 한번 지켜보세요</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">제 말이 맞나 틀리나</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">선생님 계셔도 애들 떠들죠</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">?"</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이 성적 떨어지면 제가 다신 안 갈 테니까 그럼 저 선생님네 반 프리권 주시는 겁니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">"</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">일단</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">좀 보고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">..."</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">난 책과 필기구를 들고 장군이 옆자리로 갔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">서로 말은 안 하고 씨익 웃었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 내가 온 것을 본 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">3</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">번 경고받은 친구와 그 무리들은 갑자기 졸린지 엎드려 잤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그들 주변만 어두운 밤이 된 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 후 매년 연례행사로 하던 어머니의 책이 전달이 되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">중간 기말 중간 기말 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">16, 8, 4, 2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">거짓말같이 딱 절반씩 줄어들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">한번은</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어떤 과목 시험을 보고 나서 장군이와 답을 맞춰보러 갔는데 딱 한 문제 내 답이 틀렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">장군이는 그 문제 정답이 왜 그런지 설명을 해주었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 며칠 후 시험 점수가 나왔는데 내 답이 맞은 것이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">틀린 건 장군이였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">살면서 누구를 그렇게까지 집요하게 쫓아다니며 놀린 것은 그날이 처음이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 장군이에게 배운 공부를 하는 방법에 대해 장군이에게 다시 설명도 해주고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">너처럼 공부하면 그렇게 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">문제씩 틀리는 거라고 그게 반복되면 점점 틀리는 게 익숙해지고 그럼 너는 의대는 커녕 태어나서 처음 들어보는 대학에 가게 될 거라며 놀렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 선이 살짝 넘어가자 장군이의 표정이 근엄하게 바뀌어서 아쉽지만 놀리는 것은 그날 하루로 끝냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">여튼 소소한 즐거움이 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">우리 반은 등 수가 떨어지면 떨어진 등수만큼 담임 선생님이 빠따를 쳤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 빠따 시간 집합에는 열외가 없었는데 난 굳이 갈 필요를 못 느껴서 장군이 옆자리로 가서 공부를 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그런데 문이 열리더니 우리 반 친구가 나를 부르러 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">담임선생님이 나를 급히 찾는다며 너 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">X</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">된 것 같다고 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">올라갔더니 내 성적이 적힌 부분에 형광펜으로 밑줄이 그어져 있었고 얘가 반에 들어올 때 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">32</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등이었는데 이번 시험 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">4</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">등을 했고 점수가 뭐가 어쩌고 너희도 신일이처럼 하려면 하고 말려면 말라 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">생애 태어나 처음 받아보는 극찬이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">바보같이 그 말을 듣고 난 울었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">참 스승이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">제자를 사랑하는 따스한 마음을 느낄 수 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">저 빠따도 사실 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">아무 관심이 없으면 안 치겠구나</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">' </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">하고 빠따의 참 의미도 깨달았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">'</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">선생님께서는 그동안 나의 노력을 다 알고 계셨구나</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.'</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 그것도 모르고 어머니의 책을 받자 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">180</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">도 달라진 여느 선생들과 같다고 오해를 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">책을 주는 타이밍이 늦어서 욕을 먹었다고 생각한 것을 후회했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">근데 진짜로 울었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">눈물 몇 방울 뚝</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">...</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">뚝</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그 자리에서 나만 스포트라이트를 받아 빛나고 있는 것 같이 느껴졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이렇게 참스승님께 칭찬을 받았는데 다음 시험에 내가 빠따를 맞을 수는 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">공부를 해야 하는 이유 중에 참스승에게 빠따를 맞을 순 없다는 것이 추가되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">공부를 하다 보니 처음에는 내가 뭘 하는 건가 이건 왜 배워야 하고 내가 이걸 알아서 무엇이 도움이 될지에 대한 근본적인 의문들이 들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나는 궁금한 것을 잘 못 참는다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그래서 스스로 답을 찾았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 갈 대학의 아이들도 이런 지루하기 짝이 없고 쓸모없어 보이는 것을 참고 이겨내는 과정을 견디고 그 자리에 왔을 것이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내가 공부 한 양이 그 친구들의 공부한 양과 비례하게 될 것이라고 생각했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">공부해야 하는 이유를 점점 알게 되자 가속도가 붙었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">더 반복해서 봐야 했고 더 외워야 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 희한하게 지난번 봤을 때는 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">X</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">소리이던 것이 다음번에 봤을 때는 이해가 되는 신기한 경험들도 반복되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이 쓸모없는 행위도 점점 재미가 생겼다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-size:11.3pt;"> </p><p></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어머니는 내가 공부한다고 방에 틀어박혀 괴로워하는 모습을 보는 것을 즐겼다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 매일 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">시까지 공부하는 나를 보자 공부를 하지 말라 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">적당히 쉬엄쉬엄해야지 그렇게 하다가는 골병 난다고 쉬라 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">어머니는 아무것도 모른다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">나에게는 계획이 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">지금 시간이 촉박하단 말이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 거기 가면 어떤 희한한 애들이 올지 궁금했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">또 그런 대학 생활은 어떨지도 너무 궁금했고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">안 그래도 늦게 출발해서 바쁜데 하라 할 때는 언제고 이제 와서 하니까 그만하라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">세상에 무슨 저런 청개구리가 다 있나 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">대화하지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">깔끔하게 무시했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">지금 나에게 중요한 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">번은 이것이었고 나는 그동안 어마어마한 체력을 길러왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">이 정도는 힘든 것도 아니었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">간간이 너무 열 받아서 이 문제를 만든 사람을 찾아내야 한다고 주장하기도 했지만 그 와중에 뚜렷한 목표와 정해진 분량이 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그걸 반복해서 봤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그렇게 나는 모든 시험을 오픈북처럼 봤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">내 머릿속 기억에 남겨두었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">간혹 까마귀 고기를 먹어 기억이 안 나는 것도 있지만 그것과의 싸움이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">그리고 난 그 싸움에서 만족할 만한 승리를 거두었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">계획대로 순조롭게 흘러가던 내 삶이 대학 졸업을 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">년도 안 남겨두고 모조리 물거품처럼 사라졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span><br></p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">야심찼던 이 </span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">8</span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">년의 계획은 완성되지 못하고 끝났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:Arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;">.</span> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span style="font-family:arial;letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11.3pt;"></span> </p> <p> </p> <div class="hwp_editor_board_content"> </div> <p> </p> <p style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11.3pt;"></span><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:11.3pt;">우리 가족은 도망자가 되었고 세상에 알려지면 안 되는 존재가 되어 어둠속으로 스스로 들어가 사라졌다</span><span lang="en-us" 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