<blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2"><br></font></p> <p><font size="2"><br></font></p> <p><font size="2">생각해보면 그 날은 좀 이상했던 거 같아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">아니<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>늘상 이상했었죠<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그게 좀 이상하잖아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span>아프던 엄마가<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>치즈가 먹고 싶다고 하셔서<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>저는 마법소녀가 되었거든요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그때부터<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>이미 뭔가 좀 이상했던거예요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그렇잖아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span>엄마가 치즈가 먹고 싶다고 했을 때<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>나는 그렇게 되물었었죠<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그 날은 내가 마법소녀가 되는 날이었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p> <p><font size="2"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>치즈<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>먹으면 엄마가 낫는거야<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그건 이상한 질문이었지만<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>내가 할 수 있는 유일한 질문이었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">엄마는 어떤 표정을 지었던건지 잘 모르겠어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그걸 떠올리는 것에 그다지 의미를 둘 순 없을 것 같아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그래서 나는 그 병실의 풍경 밖에 기억하지 못해요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>하얀 소독약 냄새<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>병원복 위에 가디건을 걸친<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>회색<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>흰색 빛의 우리 엄마<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>하얀 가운의 의사 선생님들<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>그 안경과<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>간호사 언니들<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>익숙함이라는 건 그런 것인가 싶어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>나는 어려서 잘 모르겠지만<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>기억이란 그런 거구나 싶었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>엄마를 기억하지 못한다는 것과 병실의 기억은 슬펐어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그때 엄마의 대답조차 확실히 기억나지 않아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>잠시<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>갔다 올래<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">아니<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>아닌거 같아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>응<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>그럴 것 같아<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">아니에요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>엄마는 확신을 담지 않았어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>엄마는 뭐라고 했을까요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>나도 모르겠는걸요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그건 불확실이었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>엄마는 언제부턴가 말하는 것이 애매해졌어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>내가 어려서 그런 걸지도 모르지만<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>엄마는 확실한 단어를 쓰지 않았어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그건 나에게도 하나의 방식이 되었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>나는 단어를 흩트리는 수 밖에 없었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그래야 엄마의 대답이 차라리 명확했어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>혹은 틀린 답을 선택해야했어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그게<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>놓아가는 엄마와 나의 대화였던 거예요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그래서 나는 기억할 수 없어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">오렌지 쥬스에서 오렌지와 물을 어떻게 나누겠어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그런 기억이었던 거예요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그래서 나는 마법소녀가 되었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>엄마의 소원을 위해<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>이상하잖아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span>엄마의 소원이 고작 치즈를 먹는거라니<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>병이 낫는 것도 아니고<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>고작 치즈라니<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그런데도 나는 치즈를 믿을 수 밖에 없었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>엄마가 명확하게 말한 게 그것 뿐이었으니까요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>병이 낫는다는<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>낫게 해달라는 부탁에 앞서<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>가장 명확했던 대답이었으니까요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그래서 나의 소원은 치즈였던 거에요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그래서 나는 밤마다 마녀를 위해<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>나를 위해 싸우기 시작했어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2"> </font></p> <p><font size="2"><br></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">그렇게</font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2"> </font></p> <p><font size="2"><br></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">하얀 장미 하나 들고<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>엄마는 잠들어 있었어요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">어른들 말로는 어디어디 멀리 간거래요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>힘들어서 잠든거래요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>잠시 있다가 돌아올거래요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>어른들 말은 하나 같이 이야기가 달라서 나는 뭐가 진짜인지 잘 몰라요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>그래도 그게 무슨 뜻인지는 잘 알아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>하얀 장미잖아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">어른들은 바본가봐요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">하얀 장미의 말은<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>순수함이잖아요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>바보 어른들<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p></blockquote><blockquote style="margin:0px 0px 0px 40px;border:none;padding:0px;"><p><font size="2">엄마는 그렇게 떠난거예요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>내 순수함 때문에<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="2"><br></font></span></p> <p>전 나기사를 가장 슬픈 아이라고 여기고 있습니다.</p> <p>아픈 엄마가 먹고 싶어했던 치즈를 위해 계약을 했고, 그랬기에 엄마를 건강하게 해달라는 소원을 빌지 못했죠.</p> <p>어린아이의 시선을 이용한 큐베의 농락질에 가장 크게 당한 아이라고 생각해요.</p> <p><br></p> <p>요즘은 장면에 중점을 두고 심리묘사를 하고 있습니다.</p></blockquote></blockquote> <p></p><p></p> <p></p><p></p>