<div> </div> <div> </div> <div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">미영은 지금 정도만 살아간다면 이혼하지 않은 게 얼마나 다행인가 싶을 정도로 그럭저럭 만족한 삶을 살았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그렇게 한 여섯 달쯤 지났을까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...?</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">하루는 남편에게서 친구 아버지 돌아가셨다는 문자가 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">오늘 친구 아버님 상 당하셨네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">아무래도 늦을 것 같아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">먼저 자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">누구</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">당신은 잘 모르는 고등학교 동창 녀석인데 무척 친했던 친구라 쉽게 일어나지 못할 것 같아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">또</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;"> </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">오랜만에 만난 동창들과 술도 한잔할 것 같고 금방 못 일어날 것 같아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">알았어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">내일 출근 하려면 피곤할 텐데 너무 늦지는 말고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그럼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그럼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11pt;"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">  </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그렇게 시작한 문자는 이틀이 멀다 하고 날아왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">오늘은 부장님 장모님이 돌아가셨는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">바로 </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">직속 상사라 늦게까지 있어야 할 것 같아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">미영은 아무래도 너무 자주 누군가가 돌아가시는 것 같아 몇 번째 이런 문자가 왔나 빠르게 세어봤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">이번 달 벌써 여덟 명이나 돌아가시네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그러니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">나도 부조금도 많이 나가고 힘드네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">할 수 없지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">알았어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">저번처럼 너무 늦지는 말고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그럼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그럼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">먼저 자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">기다리지 말고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">이상하게 당신이 들어오지 않으면 잠이 잘 안 와</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">남들도 그렇게 새벽까지 자리를 지키나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">일찍 가는 놈들도 있지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">경사도 아니고 애사에 그런 놈들은 싸가지가 좀 없는 이기적인 놈들이지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">좀 이기적일 필요도 있는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그렇게 계속 못 자면 피곤하지 않아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">피곤해도 할 수 없는 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">남자가 직장생활 한다는 게 쉬운 게 아니야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">당신은 집에만 있으니 사회생활을 뭘 알겠어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">내가 왜 집에만 있었어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">나도 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">3</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">년 정도 한 살림에서 근무했었잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그게 직장이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">언제라도 그만둬도 되는 알바 하고 직장하곤 엄연히 다르지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">알았어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그 말이 아니야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">집에만 있었다는 말을 강조하는 것 같아 기분이 잠시 상해서 나온 말이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">올해 아버지 회갑인데 부모님 유럽 여행이나 좀 시켜 드리고 싶은데 내가 돈이 없어서 아들 노릇을 못 하네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">유럽 여행</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">두 분을 유럽 여행 보내 드리려면 이래저래 하다 보면 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">7~8</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">백만 원은 있어야 할 텐데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그렇겠지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">돈 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 놀래서 물어봤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">내가 돈이 어딨어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그럼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">무슨 돈으로 보내드려</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">무슨 돈으로 보내 드리자고 말하자 한참 동안 남편은 대답이 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">미영은 기분이 나빠졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">집에 생활비도 주지 않아 친정엄마가 주는 돈으로 간신히 먹고만 살고 있는데 부모님 유럽 여행을 보내 드리고 싶다면서 돈이 없다니 미영은 기가 찰 노릇이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">말이 나온 김에 물어보자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">뭘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">집에 생활비도 안 내놓으면서 봉급 받아서 다 뭐하고 돈이 없어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">이번 달 애사만 있었던 게 아니야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">경사도 있고 애 경사 비에다 왔다 갔다 기름값까지 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">200</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">만 원 정도 나갔어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">출퇴근 기름값에 담배 값에 점심값에 내 용돈 쓰고 하다 보면 모을 게 어딨어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그렇다면 우린 앞으로 계속 이렇게 살아야 하는 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">나도 친정엄마한테 타다 쓰는 거 이제 눈치 보여</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">남편은 곤란한지 문자에 대답이 없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">문자가 답이 없자 답답해서 전화를 걸었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';"> </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">나야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">우리 말 나온 김에 이 문제 짚고 넘어가자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">무슨 말</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">기혁은 퉁명스러운 목소리로 물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">집에 생활비도 못 내놓으면서 남들 애경사는 전국 어디고 쫓아다니는 거 좀 문제 있는 거 아냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">나도 쫓아다니는 거 힘들어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">누군 좋아서 하는 줄 알아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">직장생활이 그렇게 만만한 게 아니라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">직장생활</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">어려운 거 나도 알아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그렇지만 남들도 다 이렇게 살까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">나 여기 지금 직장이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그런 얘기는 나중에 집에 가서 얘기해</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';"> </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">남편은 전화를 일방적으로 끊었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">미영은 간신히 걸어온 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">6</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">개월간의 살얼음판이 와르르 무너지는 소리를 들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">답답했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">답답한 정도가 아니라 숨이 멎을 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">행복을 유지하려고 미영은 그동안 생활비 얘기도 못 하고 친정엄마 집에서 이것저것 갖다 먹으며 근근이 살고 있었는데 도대체 생활비는 줄 생각을 하지 않으니 벙어리 냉가슴 앓듯 답답했었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';"> </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">신혼 초부터 거의 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">4</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">년이라는 세월 동안 집에 생활비를 한 푼도 내놓지 않으면서 직장생활의 노고만 들먹이니 미칠 것만 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">세상에서 직장생활은 남편 혼자 하는 것처럼 말을 하니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">앞으로 이 문제는 해결이 될 것 같지가 않자 속이 얹힌 것처럼 더부룩 답답해 왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그렇다고 어디다 말한들 해결될 일이 아니지 않은가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">남편과 부부 상담 클리닉이라도 가보고 싶었지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그런 말이 씨가 먹힐 사람이 아니라는 생각을 하자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">앞으로 나아가야 하는데 높은 시멘트벽이 딱 버티고 있는 상황의 가위를 눌린 것처럼 미영은 숨이 막히고 힘이 들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">눈물이 볼을 타고 흘러내렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11pt;"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">  </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">갑자기 진우가 떠올랐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">아내가 있는데도 장을 직접 보는 자상한 진우가 미치도록 보고 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">그동안 사실 수시로 생각나고 보고 싶었지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">가정의 행복을 지키려고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;"> </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">무진 애를 쓰며</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;"> </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">전화 통화 한 번 하지 않았었는데 갑자기 진우의 목소리가 불현듯 듣고 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">핸드폰에서 진우의 전화번호를 찾아냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">손만 한 번 까딱 누르면 연결이 될텐데 떨리고 두려웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11pt;"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">  </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">만나서 불같은 섹스를 한다고 해서 내 문제가 해결되는 것도 아니지 않은가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?’</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">  </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">미영은 다시 핸드폰을 손에서 내려놓았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">수건을 죄다 꺼내 삶았고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">이불이니 침대보니 죄다 꺼내서 세탁기를 돌렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">바쁘게 움직이며 진우를 잊으려 했을까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">잊으려고 아무리 몸을 움직이고 몸이 녹초가 되도록 집안을 닦고 또 닦아도 진우가 보고 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-size:11pt;"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">  </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">전화를 걸었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">여보세요</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">진우의 목소리였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">미영의 눈에서 갑자기 툭</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">하고 눈물이 볼을 타고 흘러내렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">여보세요</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">전화 거셨으면 말씀을</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.... ”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">발신자가 아무 말이 없자 끊으려던 진우는 혹시나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">싶었는지 수화기를 귀에 갖다 대며 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">혹시</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';font-size:11pt;">저 미영이에요</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';">  </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';"> </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';">다음 회에서 만나요</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';">.</span></div></div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>오늘은 3월 10일 하루종일 봄비가 내리네요.</div> <div>이 비로 코로나 바이러스도 같이 씻겨 내려가면 좋겠습니다.</div> <div> </div> <div>오늘 갑자기 비가 내리자, 양수경의 [사랑은 창밖에 빗물 같아요] 를 불러보고 싶어졌습니다.</div> <div> </div> <div>아래 주소를 누르시면 들으실 수 있습니다.</div> <div> </div> <div><a target="_blank" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gO3h2qOuZk" target="_blank">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gO3h2qOuZk</a></div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div>***************</div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> <div> </div> 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