어렸을 때부터 부모님에 대한 기억은 항상 다투셨던 게 대부분입니다 물론 좋은 기억도 있긴 하지만 손에 꼽습니다 그것때문인지 우리집 분위기도 그렇게 화목하진 않고 그냥 어렸을때부터 고민이 생겨도 말하면 친구들한테나 말했지 웬만해선 저혼자 생각해서 해결하려는 편입니다 그게 더 편하기도 하고요 아빠는 계속 부모님이랑 상의를 해야된다고 하는데 솔직히 어렸을때부터 그렇게 싸워댔는데 그상황에서 제가 뭘 상의하고 그럴수 있나요 아무리 저한텐 잘해준다고 해도 어렸을때부터 먹어온 눈칫밥이 있고 거의 인생 전부를 그렇게 해와서 습관이 들었는데 굳이 상의를 해야 하나 싶네요 지금은 저희때문에 이혼 안하고 사신다지만 솔직히 이렇게 눈치보면서 살 바엔 이혼을 했으면 좋겠습니다 가족한테 그렇게 정이 있지도 않고요 또 아빠랑 엄마는 가치관이 달라서 저한테 요구하는것도 다릅니다 그사이에서 저만 힘들어져요 맘같아선 내일이라도 집을 나와서 자취하고 싶은데 지금 돈을 모으는게 제일 큰 목표라 그러진 못하겠어요ㅠㅠ 어차피 인생은 혼자다 라는 생각이 강해서 누구한테 의지하고 싶은 마음도 없고 혼자 다 해결하고 싶은데 이게 맞는건지도 잘 모르겠어요 쓰다보니까 그냥 한풀이 한거 같기도 한데 부모님탓을 하면 안될거 같은데 ㄱ자꾸 부모님탓, 환경탓만 하게 됩니다 고민을 계속 하다보면 제 성격에 문제가 있어보이기도 하구요 정신병원 가서 상담을 받아볼까 까지도 생각했습니다 그냥 제목에 대한 어른 분들의 의견이 궁금해서 글써봤어요