<p></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-size: 12px;"><font face="함초롬바탕"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">눈을 맞으며 그녀가 서 있었다.</span></font></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">지난 주 첫 눈이오던 일요일, 납골당 주변을 순찰하던 중에 검은 정장을 입은 한 여자를 보았다. </span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">사람에게 광채가 난다는 이야기를 들었지만 실제로 볼 것이라는 건 생각도 못했었다. 그녀</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">의 옆엔 눈을 감은 아이</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">가 위태롭게 서 있었다. 조금 더 자세히 그녀를 보고 싶어서 조심스럽게 발길을 옮겼다. 하지만 다섯보를 남긴 상황에서 더는 앞으로 나가지 못했다. 그녀가 한 남자의 사진 앞에서 소리도 내지 못한 채, 울고 있었다.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> 주제 넘는 생각이지만 다가가 눈물을 닦아주고 싶었다. 하지만 그렇게 하지 못했다. </span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그런데 </span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">오늘, 라디오에서 흘러나오는</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> 사연이 어쩌면 그녀의 이야기일지도 모른다는 생각이 든다.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">서울 성북구에 사시는 이미연씨의 사연입니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">안녕하세요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저는 성북구에서 딸아이와 함께 살아가는 이미연입니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">홀로 세상에 남아 앞을 보지 못하는 딸아이를 키우자니 너무 많은 것들이 힘에 부치네요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">애기아빠랑 저는 양가 부모님의 반대를 무릅쓰고 지난</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">2010</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">년에 결혼을 했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">. 2011</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">년 아이를 낳고 신혼의 달콤함이 새싹처럼 피어나던 그 해 봄날</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">남편이 백혈병 판정을 받고야 말았습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">실낱같은 희망이라도 잡아보려고 여러 대학병원을 돌아다녔지만 상태가 좋지 않아 완치를 확정짓기 힘들다는 말만 들었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">모든 걸 포기한 애기아빠는 떠나기 전에 마지막으로 아빠노릇을 하고 싶다며 친정에 받은 치료비로 몰래 변호사를 선임했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그리고 회사를 상대로 소송을 걸었어요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">자기가 사라지면 육아비가 많이 필요할 거라고</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">꼭 이겨서 저랑 딸아이 돈 걱정 안하며 살게 해주겠다고 밝게 웃으며 제게 말했는데 현실은 드라마가 아니었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그제서야 알았습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">개인이 대기업을 이긴다는 것은 불가능에 가깝다는 것을요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">결국 저희는 패소했고 한 푼</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">두 푼 모아두었던 돈까지 모두 소송 진행비로 지출하고야 말았습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그리고 애기아빠는 패소 충격에서 빠져나오지 했고 결국 몇 개월 뒤</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저와 딸아이의 곁을 떠나고야 말았습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">아기를 업고 장례식 준비를 하고 있을 때였습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">시부모님과 올케가 장례식장에 찾아오셨죠</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그런데 저를 보자마자 시어머님께서 제 따귀를 때리시더니 자식새끼 저승길로 내몬 악마 같은 것들이라며 병원 밖으로 저와 아이를 밀쳐내셨습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">장마철이라 장례식 내내 비는 멈출 줄 몰랐습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저는 이제 갓 돌을 넘긴 아이를 업고 장례식장 주변을 서성거렸습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그런 제가 안쓰러웠는지 장례일을 도와주시던 아주머니들께서 시부모님 몰래 밥과 잠자리를 마련해주셨습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그리고 번갈아가며 저를 찾아와 말씀하시길</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">서로 죽이려고 했던 사람들도 장례발일에는 참석했다며 걱정하지 말라고 위로해 주셨습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그래서 마지막은 볼 수 있겠다고 생각했었는데 그렇지 못했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저는 그저 멀리서 애기아빠 가는 길을 바라볼 수밖에 없었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">장례를 치루고 며칠이 지나자 친정엄마한테 연락이 왔습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">아이를 버리고 집으로 돌아오라는 말을 하더라고요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저는 어떻게 손녀를 버리라 말을 할 수 있냐며 화를 냈었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그리고 일주일 뒤엔 시어머님께서 집에 찾아오셔서는 아이를 데리고 눈앞에서 사라지라고 소리를 치셨습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저희 집이 친정에서 얼마 떨어지지 않은 곳에 있습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">애기아빠가 시댁을 먼저 설득해보겠다며 신혼방을 근처에 구하자고 했었어요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">막내라 애지중지 자랐다며 걱정 말고 자기만 믿으라고 했는데 지금은 너무 먼 곳으로 가버렸네요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">하루는 정말 이러면 안 되는데 아이를 보육원에 맡길까라는 생각을 아주 잠시 했었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">순간 제 자신에게 너무 화가 나더라고요</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">. 10</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">개월이라는 시간동안 뱃속에 넣고 다녔고</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">골반이 비틀어지는 고통과 과다출혈로 자궁척출까지 하면서 낳은 애기아빠와 저의 하나뿐인 자식을 버린다는 생각을 할 수 있는지 천벌을 받을 거라며 자책하고 또 자책했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그런데 며칠 전에 이제 갓</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">3</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">살이 되어 걷기도 하고 말도 배운 제가 세상에서 제일 사랑하는 딸아이가 제게 물어볼 것이 있다며 말을 걸었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">엄마 나 물어보고 싶은 게 있어</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">뭔데</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">?”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">정말 내가 그렇게 예쁘게 생겼어</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">?”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그럼</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">우리 딸이 세상에서 제일 예쁘게 생겼어</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">정말</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">?”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">딸아이가 해맑게 웃었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그리고 또 제게 물었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그러면 엄마는</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">?”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">우리 딸이 예쁘니까 엄마도 예쁘지</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">안 그래</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">?”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그러자 딸아이는 표정이 시무룩해졌습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저는 왜 그러냐고 물었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">하지만 말을 하지 않았고 갈수록 표정이 어두워지기만 했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">혹시 누군가에게 놀림을 받아 기가 죽은 건 아닌지 걱정이 되어 말해보라며 재촉했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그러자 딸아이가 입을 열었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">엄마 보고 싶어</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">가슴이 무너졌습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">어떤 말을 해야 할지 몰랐습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">하염없이 눈물만 흘렀습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">혹시나 딸아이가 눈치챌까봐 숨죽여 울었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그런데 자신의 말에 아무 대답도 하지 않아서 그랬는지 딸아이가 저를 애타게 찾았습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">아이의 부름에 대답하고 싶었지만 하염없이 흐르는 눈물을 참지 못해 입을 열지 못했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그러자 딸아이가 갑자기 울음을 터뜨리기 시작했습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그리고는 현관을 바라보며 무릎을 꿇고 두 손을 싹싹 빌며 소리쳤습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">엄마 미안해</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">..</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">내가 잘못했어</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">한번만 용서해줘</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">..</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">나 버리고 외할먼네 가지마</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">..</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">나 다시는 엄마 보고 싶다고 말 안할게</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">..</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">응</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">?</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">엄마 나 버리지 마</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">..</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">가지마</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">용서해줘</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">엄마 미안해</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">..”</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">딸아이가 닭똥 같은 눈물을 흘리며 그 작고 여린 손을 수없이 비벼대고 또 눈물을 닦는 모습을 보니 제가 그 때 무슨 생각을 했던 것인지</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">머릿속이 하얗게 변해버렸습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">저는 곧바로 아이를 품에 안고 엄마가 미안하다고</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">,</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">아무데도 가지 않겠다며 달래고 또 달랬습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">그날 딸아이와 저는 목이 쉴 때까지 울다 잠이 들었습니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif; letter-spacing: 0pt;">.</span></p><p class="0" style="clear: both; line-height: 18px; color: rgb(100, 100, 100); font-family: 돋움, Dotum, San-serif; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">사연을 보내는 이 시간에도 제 옆에 곤히 잠들어 있는 딸아이를 바라보며 힘을 내보려 노력하지만 자꾸 현실에 치입니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; font-family: 함초롬바탕; letter-spacing: 0pt;"><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">.</span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: Gulim, 굴림, AppleGothic, sans-serif;">이러다 제가 변해버리는 건 아닐까 걱정됩니다</span><span lang="EN-US" style="margin: 0px; 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