<p class="p1">내<span class="s1"> </span>친구는<span class="s1"> </span>썩<span class="s1"> </span>행복하진<span class="s1"> </span>않았다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그는<span class="s1"> </span>삶에<span class="s1"> </span>치여<span class="s1"> </span>살았고<span class="s1"> </span>언제나<span class="s1"> </span>지쳐<span class="s1"> </span>보였다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">어느날<span class="s1"> </span>그가<span class="s1"> </span>내게<span class="s1"> </span>말했다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">자기도<span class="s1"> </span>버킷리스트라는<span class="s1"> </span>걸<span class="s1">, </span>써볼까<span class="s1"> </span>한다고<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">나는<span class="s1"> </span>그에게<span class="s1"> </span>인생의<span class="s1"> </span>목표의식이<span class="s1"> </span>생긴다면<span class="s1"> </span>아주<span class="s1"> </span>좋을거라고<span class="s1"> </span>생각했다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그런데<span class="s1"> </span>그가<span class="s1"> </span>말한<span class="s1"> </span>버킷리스트는<span class="s1"> </span>소박하기<span class="s1"> </span>이를데<span class="s1"> </span>없었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">가족이<span class="s1"> </span>모두<span class="s1"> </span>모여<span class="s1"> </span>밥<span class="s1"> </span>먹기<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">나만의<span class="s1"> </span>휴가<span class="s1"> </span>보내기<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">주니와<span class="s1"> </span>산책<span class="s1"> </span>가기<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">주니는<span class="s1"> </span>십년째<span class="s1"> </span>기르고<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>그의<span class="s1"> </span>늙은<span class="s1"> </span>리트리버다<span class="s1">.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p1">언제나<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>친구<span class="s1"> </span>전화번호부<span class="s1"> </span>프로필에<span class="s1"> </span>빠짐없이<span class="s1"> </span>나오는<span class="s1"> </span>귀여운<span class="s1"> </span>녀석이다<span class="s1">.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">“</span>죽기<span class="s1"> </span>전에<span class="s1"> </span>해야<span class="s1"> </span>될<span class="s1"> </span>일이라기엔<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>간단한<span class="s1"> </span>거<span class="s1"> </span>아냐<span class="s1">?”</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1"><br></span></p> <p class="p1">내<span class="s1"> </span>질문에<span class="s1"> </span>친구는<span class="s1"> </span>말했다<span class="s1">.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> </span></span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">“</span>이거면<span class="s1"> </span>충분해<span class="s1">.”</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">한달<span class="s1"> </span>뒤<span class="s1"> </span>나는<span class="s1"> </span>그의<span class="s1"> </span>비보를<span class="s1"> </span>들었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">사인은<span class="s1"> </span>자살이었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그의<span class="s1"> </span>유서에는<span class="s1"> </span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>짐작조차<span class="s1"> </span>못했던<span class="s1"> </span>그의<span class="s1"> </span>진짜<span class="s1"> </span>고통들이<span class="s1"> </span>적혀있었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그가<span class="s1"> </span>입양되었다<span class="s1"> </span>파양된<span class="s1"> </span>고아라는<span class="s1"> </span>사실<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p1">휴일까지<span class="s1"> </span>바쳐야만<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>회사의<span class="s1"> </span>업무<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p1">몇년<span class="s1"> </span>전<span class="s1"> </span>곁을<span class="s1"> </span>떠난<span class="s1"> </span>반려견까지<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그는<span class="s1"> </span>자신의<span class="s1"> </span>힘든<span class="s1"> </span>일들을<span class="s1"> </span>절친한<span class="s1"> </span>친구인<span class="s1"> </span>나에게까지<span class="s1"> </span>철저히<span class="s1"> </span>숨겼다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">나는<span class="s1"> </span>아무것도<span class="s1"> </span>모르고<span class="s1"> </span>있었던<span class="s1"> </span>것이다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그가<span class="s1"> </span>남긴<span class="s1"> </span>유서를<span class="s1"> </span>보고<span class="s1"> </span>난<span class="s1"> </span>뒤<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p1">나는<span class="s1"> </span>그제서야<span class="s1"> </span>내<span class="s1"> </span>친구가<span class="s1"> </span>썼던<span class="s1"> </span>버킷리스트를<span class="s1"> </span>이해할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그건<span class="s1"> </span>그가<span class="s1"> </span>죽기<span class="s1"> </span>전에<span class="s1"> </span>해야<span class="s1"> </span>될<span class="s1"> </span>일들이<span class="s1"> </span>아니라</p> <p class="p1">그가<span class="s1"> </span>죽고<span class="s1"> </span>나서야<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있던<span class="s1"> </span>일들이었다<span class="s1">.</span></p>