<p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">지금 생각해 보면 </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">나는 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">20</span>대를 참으로 건강하게 보냈던 것으로 기억한다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">아파서 병원 갔던 적이 딱 두 번 있었는데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">한 번은 간단한 치과 치료였고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">나머지 한 번이 바로 제목과 관련된 이야기이다.</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">처음에 멘불게에 썼는데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">뭔가 내용이 뻘글에 더 가까운 것 같아서</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">자게에 다시 쓰기로 함.</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;">그 날은 어버이 날이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">사실은 어린이 날 쯤부터 몸살 기운이 있어서 약을 사다 먹고 있었는데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">이게 나을 듯 말 듯 사람을 살살 약올리는 기분이 들었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그러다 어버이 날 이브 때</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">부모님 선물을 사러 퇴근하고 동네 상가에 들어갔는데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">나는 내가 무슨 초능력이라도 생긴 줄 알았다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">말하자면 프로 스멜러<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">...</span>랄까<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">?</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그 상가 안에서 나는 모든 냄새들이 디럭스화 되어서</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">내 코로 맹렬히 돌진해 왔다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">화장품 냄새<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>새 속옷 냄새<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>서점 종이 냄새<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>반찬 냄새<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">,</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">심지어 복도 구석에 있는 화장실 냄새까지</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">먼저 내 코에 들어가겠다고 아우성을 쳐대는 통에</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">머리가 핑 돌고 정신이 아득해졌다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">흔들리는 몸을 겨우 부여잡고는</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">선물을 사서 집으로 돌아와 밥을 먹는 둥 마는 둥 하며</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">쓰러지듯 잠이 들었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">다음 날<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>일찍 출근 하시는 부모님께</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">어제 산 선물과 약간의 애교를 덤으로 드리고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">두 분을 배웅한 다음</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">잠깐의 쪽잠을 자려고 침대로 다시 들어갔을 때</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">내 몸이 서서히 불타고 있다는 느낌이 들었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">온 몸이 뜨거워졌고 눈앞이 뱅뱅 돌기 시작했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">급기야 어깨에 커다란 돌덩이를 짊어진 듯</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">천근만근 가라앉고 있었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">또 양쪽 볼이 서서히 부어오르면서 아팠는데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그제서야 내가 어릴 때 볼거리를 하지 않았던 것이 떠올랐다</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">설상가상으로 속까지 울렁거리기 시작했고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">며칠 동안 음식 공급을 많이 받지 못한 것을 시위라도 하듯</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">내 위는 쉴 새 없이 출렁출렁댔다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">이건 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">100% </span>오바이트각이었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">움직여야 했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">아무리 속이 뒤집어져도 방에서 사고를 칠 수 없는 노릇이었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">거기다 뒷수습도 내가 다 해야 한다는 생각이 들자</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">화장실을 향해서 필사적으로 기어갔다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">나는 분명히 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">2</span>족보행을 하는 어엿한 인간인데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">이제 막 걷기 시작한 돌쟁이 아기보다도 못한</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">네 발 짐승이 될 수밖에 없었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그 날 나는 걸어서 몇 발짝 안 되는 화장실까지</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">1</span>분 넘게 기어갔다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">,</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">위에서는 커다란 돌덩이가 어깨를 질끈 누르고 있고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">뒤에서는 누군가 내 다리를 힘껏 잡아당기고 있었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">기어가다 중간에 엎어져서 못 일어나기도 했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">천신만고 끝에 화장실에 도착<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그날따라 늘 보던 변기가 어찌 그리 사랑스러워 보이던지<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">일말의 망설임 없이 변기를 끌어안았고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">기다렸다는 듯이 무언가 역류했고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그 순간 나는 잠시 후 펼쳐질 대참사를 차마 볼 용기가 안 나서</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">눈을 질끈 감아 버렸다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>우웨에에에에<span style="letter-spacing:0pt;">ㅔ</span>에<span style="letter-spacing:0pt;">ㅔㅔㅔㅔㅔ</span>엑<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">!!!”</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span>나를 토해 베오베로 추<span style="letter-spacing:0pt;">ㅊ</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">... </span>아 이게 아니지<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">;;;;)</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">잠깐의 정적<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그리고 뭔가 시원하고 후련한 기분<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">눈을 떴다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">응<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">?</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">이게 뭐징<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">?</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">분명히 뭔가 내 속에서 나왔는데 내가 예상했던 그것<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">(?)</span>이 아니었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">분명 그것은 알록달록한 색깔과 버라이어티한 모양들이</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">넓게 퍼져 있어야 정상인데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">지금 내 눈앞에 둥둥 떠 있는 이것<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">(?)</span>은 단색이었고 모양도 일정했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">둥그렇게 뭉쳐져 있는 빨간 뜨개질 털실같은<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그건 핏덩어리였다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그러니까 나는 태어나서 처음으로 피를 토한 거였다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><br></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">세상에...</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">몸이 용광로처럼 끓어오르고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">정신이 오락가락 하고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">눈앞이 노래지는 와중에도</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">생전 처음 보는 광경에 </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">물 내리는 것도 잊고 한참을 구경했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><br></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">TV</span><span style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;">를 보면 각혈 하는 장면에서</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">대부분 액체로 된 피를 토하는데</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">내가 토한 건 말 그대로 덩어리였다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">빨갛고 동그란 모양<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">순간 피콜로 대마왕이 된 듯한 착각이 들었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">알 같은 덩어리를 토하다니<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">색깔은 다르지만.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">둥근 모양에 선명하고 도도한 붉은 빛깔<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">실핏줄 같은 것들이 덩어리를 가운데 두고 사방으로 뻗어 있었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">녀석이 내 몸 어디에서 나왔는지 알 수는 없으나</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">어느 새 울령거림이 멈추어져 있었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">피를 토하는 것이 밥을 먹는 것처럼 일상적인 일이 아니고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">더군다나 태어나서 처음 겪는 일이라</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">신기하기도 했고 걱정도 되고 두려운 기분이 들기도 했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">뭔가 큰 병을 암시하는 건 아니겠지<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span>하는 생각<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">순간 갈등을 했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">이걸 한 번 만져 볼까 말까<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">변기물에 손 넣는 것이 찝찝해서가 아니라</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">덩어리를 만졌을 때 퍽<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">!</span>하고 터져서</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">변기 안이 온통 핏물로 번지는</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그로테스크한 장면을 보고 싶지 않아서였다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">아<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">...</span>카메라가 있었다면 기념으로 찍어서 남겨 두는 건데<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">다시 방까지 기어가서 도로 화장실로 돌아올 엄두가 안 나서</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">포기해야 했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;"><br></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">한동안 넋 놓고 구경하다가</div> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">이제는 헤어져야 할 시간<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">내 분신<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">(?)</span>같은 덩어리야 안녕<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">녀석은 나와의 이별이 아쉬운 듯 세찬 변기물을 맞으면서도</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">몇 번이고 빙글빙글 돌다가 꾸라랏<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span>소리와 함께 사라졌다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그 날 오후 친구의 부축을 받아 질질 끌려가다시피 병원으로 갔고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">거기서 <볼거리 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">+ </span>몸살 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">+ </span>급체 = 3콤보>라는 진단을 받았다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">체온은 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">39.8</span>도였고 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">2</span>시간 동안 링거를 맞았다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">아침에 피 토한 얘기를 했더니</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">열이 많이 나면 그럴 수 있다고 했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">이후 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">3</span>일 동안 물과 죽 이외에는 아무것도 먹지 못했고</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">4</span>일째 되던 날 겨우 밥 한술 뜰 수 있었다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그리고 몸이 완전히 회복 되는데 한 달 정도 걸린 것 같다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">당시에 나는 워커 홀릭이었고 무언가에 홀린 듯 미친 듯이 일을 했다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">음주를 즐겼고 건강을 돌보지 않았다<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">피 토하는 건 <span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">TV</span>에서나 나오는 환타지라고 생각 했는데<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;"><br></span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><font face="굴림체">아프기 전에는 좀 뚱뚱한 편이었는데</font></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><font face="굴림체">회복하고 나서부터 살이 서서히 빠지기 시작해서</font></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><font face="굴림체">지금은 홀쭉한 몸매가 된 건 자랑.</font></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">그날 아침에 엄마한테 전화해서</p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>엄<span style="letter-spacing:0pt;">ㅁ</span><span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">...</span>엄마 나 아퍼 아퍼 엉어어어어어어<span style="letter-spacing:0pt;">ㅓㅓㅓㅓ</span>엉<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">하고 운 건 안자랑<span style="letter-spacing:0pt;">ㅠㅠ</span></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"> </p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;"></p> <p style="margin:0px 0px 10px;color:#333333;font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;">우리 징어 여러분 건강관리 잘 하세요<span lang="en-us" style="font-family:'굴림체';letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p>
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