<p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">..</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">...</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">엥</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">...</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에에엥</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.]</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">무거운 눈꺼풀</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">반복되는 사이렌 소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="4">......</font></span></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">희뿌연 시야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">원을 그리며 돌아가는 붉은빛</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">손을 흔들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">멍하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">딱딱한 곳에 기대고 있다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">다리를 폈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">엉덩이가 시렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">오른손은 흔들린다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">검지는 느리고 약지는 빠르다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">힘이 들어가지 않는다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">괴리감</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">가느다랗게 이어졌지만 멀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">서늘한 떨림이 등을 타고 온몸을 감쌌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">호흡을 가다듬으며 눈을 감았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="4">“Singularity was, is ,will be in seed”</font></span></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에에엥</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에에엥</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">에에엥</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">!]</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">고음이 온 몸을 흔들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">조금씩 올라가던 눈꺼풀이 확 재껴졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">우웩 컥</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">케엑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">’</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">매쓰꺼움이 내 허리를 타고 올라와 목구멍에 자리잡았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="4">“Si....ty wa..., is ,wi.. ...d.”</font></span></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">욕지거리와 함께 입에서 말 한마디가 나왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">머리가 지끈거렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">양 손을 올려 귀를 막았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">식어버린 두 팔이 뺨에 닿을 때마다 메스꺼움이 비어진 위를 쥐어짰다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">메마른 기침을 몇 번이나 하고서 계속 입속에서 머무는 말이 나왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="4">“Singularity was, is ,will be in seed”</font></span></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">있었고 있고 있을 씨앗</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">싱귤러리티</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">싱귤랄리티</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">하나의</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">한 개만의</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">특별한</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">특이점</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">아 아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">!”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">오른팔이 없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">풀어진 붕대처럼 얇게 오른쪽으로 빨려 들어간다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">일어나 뭐라도 해보려 하지만 기시감이 쏟아져 내린다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">이번만은</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">이번에도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">이번에야말로</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">역시나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">아니나다를ᄁᆞ</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">이것밖에는</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';letter-spacing:0pt;">……</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.“</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">수없이 시끄럽게 떠드는 그 말속에서 의식이 멀어진다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="4"><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">연구소 복장</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">사원증</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">동료가 괜찮나 물어본다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">이부분 안썼다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.)</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4"> ------ ehddlfsodyd tnwjs 1</font></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">[</span>에<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">..</span>에에<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>에에<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">...</span>엥<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>에<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">...</span>에에엥<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.]</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">무거운 눈꺼풀<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">반복되는 사이렌 소리<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="4">......</font></span></p> <p><font size="4">희뿌옇다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>껌뻑거리는 붉은빛<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>원을 그리며 궤도를 도는 그 소용돌이에 멍하니 손을 뻗는다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">미동조차 않는 오른손<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">... </span></font></p> <p><font size="4">내려본다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>흐적거리는 검지와 세차게 진동하는 약지<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">기이한 떨림 속 괴리감<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>가느다랗게 이어졌지만 멀다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>조금씩 풀어지는 듯하게<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">공허감<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>벽의 속의 냉기는 등을 타오른다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>딱딱한 바닥 위 엉덩이가 시렸다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4">호흡을 가다듬었다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>서늘한 떨림이 널부러진 두 팔<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>두 다리를 얽멨다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4">무감각한 팔을 끌어올려 허벅지로 올렸다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4">마비된 듯<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>마네킹처럼 팔에 끌려온 손은 얽힌 실타래처럼 풀리고 있다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">[</span>기시감<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">]</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">이전에 그리고 지금 그리고 앞으로 들었던 말들이 귀에 속삭였다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">아주 천천히 그리고 서서히 빠르게<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>잘했어<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">,</span>이제 다 잘될거야<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>이러기로 했었지<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>어쩔수없었어<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>이러지 않기로 했잔아<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! , </span>바보같은<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>쓸모없는<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>네가 모든걸 망쳐버렸어<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>특이점은 끝은<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>이 안에 있다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p><br></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">[</span>에에엥<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span>에에엥<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span>에에엥<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">!]</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">마지막 속삭임이 사라진 순간 고음이 머리를 궤뚫었다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p><font size="4">넋나간 눈꺼풀이 번ᄍᅠᆨ 뜨였다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span>우웩 컥<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span>케엑<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">’</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4">매쓰꺼움이 내 허리를 타고 올라와 목구멍에 자리잡았다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>평형감각이 사라진다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>머리가 지끈거렸다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>욕지거리와 함께 양 손을 올려 귀를 막았다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>입에서 내뱉어진 체액이 두 팔에 달라붙어 끈적였다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>닿을 때마다 몇 번이고 메스꺼움이 비어진 위를 쥐어짠다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">메마른 기침이 나온다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>풍선처럼 볼품없이 흔들린다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4">다시금 말이 들려온다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span>있었고 있고 있을 일들<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>그 속에서 찾아라<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>끝이 없다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span>난 실패했어<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>기회는 많아<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span>이것은 형벌이다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>잊지말아라<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>단 한 개만의<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span>특별한<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span>특이점<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>아<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span>아 아<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">!”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4">기억났다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>기쁨에 소름이 돋아남이 느껴졌다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>오른팔로 메만진다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">... </span>하지만 없다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>어느세 팔꿈치를 넘어 풀려진 팔 끝으로 얇게은 실이 오른쪽으로 빨려 들어간다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p><font size="4">깜짝 놀라 일어났지만 기시감과 시끄러운 말이 내게 쏟아져 내린다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span>이번만은<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>이번에도<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>이번에야말로<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>역시나<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>아니나다를ᄁᆞ<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>이것밖에는<span style="letter-spacing:0pt;">……</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span>의미없다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.“</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4">  </font></p><p></p> <p><font size="4">기대와 부흥<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span>그리고 일말의 희망도 없는 그런 떠드는 그 말속에서 의식이 멀어진다<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="4"> </font> </p><p></p> <p><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">연구소 복장</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">사원증</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">동료가 괜찮나 물어본다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></p> <p><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'함초롬바탕';">이부분 안썼다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.)</span></p> <p></p> <p> <font size="4"> </font> </p> <p></p>