<div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> “</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">오빠</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">새치가 왜 이렇게 많아</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">? </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">일로와</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">어머머머 세상에</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그녀와 내가 몰랐던 사이에 시간은 흘렀고 나이듦의 열매처럼 새치가 하나 둘 올라오고 있음을 모르고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">이따금씩 그녀는 다리에 나를 눕히고 새치를 뽑았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그녀에겐 수확의 기쁨과 나의 움찔움찔하는 고통이 즐거움이라했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">나의 고통에 수반하여 그녀는 즐거워했고 시간이 어떻게 지났는 지도 모르게 흘렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">까만바지에 수북하게 올려진 새치만큼이나 그녀는 나를 생각했으리라 생각했었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">좋아한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">사랑한다는 말보단 그런 행동들이 더 좋았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그럴때마다 그녀는 내게 수더분한 미소를 남겼다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> 내 생에 처음으로 염색을 하며 괜히 씁쓸하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">처음으로 하는 셀프 염색이라 대견하기도 했지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">참 잘했지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">정말 마음에 드는 것 같지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> 평소와는 다른 모습과 생각으로 지냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">미처 채우지 못한 공백들마저도 뒷전이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하고싶은걸 꼭하려고 노력했고 평소 보지못했던 거리가 좀 있던 친구들도 만났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">너는 알지 못하는 지난 이야기</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">너와 내가 교집합이었던 시간보다 더 먼 그 시간들을 얘기하며 애써 함께였던 시간들을 밀어냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">요즘은 어때</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하면</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그냥 잘지내</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">일이 바빠서 힘들지만 그래도 할만해</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">다른 재밌는거나 좋은 소식은 없어</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하면</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그냥 요즘은 평범하게 잘 지내는 것 같아</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> 그런 말들을 하고 헤어져 집에 오는 길</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">정말 그냥 잘지냈으면 좋겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하는 생각을 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> 오랜만에 보는 오랜 친구를 만나 이런 저런 얘기도 하기 전에</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">괜찮아</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하는 친한 친구의 물음에</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">응</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하며 짧은 대답을 하고</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">진짜 괜찮은거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하는 두 번째 물음엔</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">아니</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">라는 대답을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"> </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">하는 짧은 대화</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> 별 대화도 없다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그냥 게임을 하며 맛있게 밥을 먹으며 일상을 얘기하고 회사얘기를 하고 그리고 헤어질 때엔 </span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">“</span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">힘내</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.” </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">한 마디 듣고 끝난다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span><br></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> 지난 시간에 비례하여 통장엔 돈이 쌓이지만 뭔가 이룬건 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">항상 새롭게 결심해오는 다이어트도 어릴적엔 꾸준히 해오던 독서도 취미로 하고 있던 그렇게 좋아하던 게임의 랭크업도 하나도 쌓아지는게 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">쌓이는 돈에 비례하여 무너지는 느낌이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">한가지 다행인 것은 아직 잊지 않고 꾸준히 맨몸운동을 한다는 점</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">, </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">한페이지 두페이지 조금이나마 책을 읽으려고 노력한다는 점</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그전엔 습관처럼 휴대폰을 보는 것도 너를 찾는 것도 이제는 많이 줄었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">흥미있고 재밌는 부분이 있으면 메모하고 기록했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그건 이제 네게 이야기 할 수 없음일까</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">?</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);font-family:'함초롬바탕';"></span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> 요즘은 때때로 너를 만나기 전의 나는 무얼했을까 하며 생각한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그리고 조금이라도 생각나는 것이 있다면 일단 시작했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">. </span><span style="background:rgb(255,255,255);">그 속에서 그때의 나를 만나고 그때쯤 내가 무엇을 좋아했는지 알게되고 그 행동들은 작게나마 내 안에서 해우소가 되어 우울한 기분을 풀고 나를 달래주고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="background:rgb(255,255,255);letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'함초롬바탕';">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);"> <p></p></div>
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