<b style="font-weight:normal;"></b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">#3</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">저녁 집합이 길었다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">말년까지 나서서 뭐라고 하였으나 그들의 말은 언제나 낮았고</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">내 자리까지 내려오는데 늘 시간과 단계가 필요했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">정자세를 취하고 앞만 바라보는 지루한 시간이였다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">건너편 관물대에 삐져나온 옷자락이 눈에 들어왔다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">길어진 말년의 말들이 끝나질 않는다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">초조하다 어서 정리해야 하는데</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">점호청소까지 얼마남지 않았는데 화장실도 다녀와야 하는데</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">아직 씻지도 못했는데</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">그보다 먼저 걸레를 빨아놨는지...</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">오늘은 저녁 먹기 전에 시간이 너무 없었다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">갑자기 언성을 키우며</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">우리는 모두 다 한 솥 밥 먹는 식구라고 말년이 말했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">목공창고가 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">어둠 속을 채우던 신음소리도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">베어나오던 침 사이에 묻어 난 핏내음도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">창고 끝 쪽에 놓인 빠루도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">허벅지에 느끼지던 빠루의 차가움도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">빠루질하던 철거 작업도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">해머로 칠 때마다 시원시레 부숴져 나가는 낡은 담벼락도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">담벼락 밑에 짓이겨진 한일병도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">고무처럼 휘어진 다리와 모든 고통을 다 삼킨 눈빛도 생각났다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">그 생각에 생각이 미친듯이 넘실대다 암구호를 생각했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">오늘밤 불침번을 생각했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">오늘 작업장에서 굴렀다는 두호의 절둑대는 뒷모습을 생각했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">뺨이 부어오른 채 밥을 먹던 인구의 숟가락질도 생각했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">천천히 말을 끝마치며 말년은 이게 다같이 살자고 하는 짓이라 했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">조직이란게 다 그런거라고도 했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">우리 중대가 살아야 우리가 산다고도 했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">그렇게 말을 마치며 나는 생각을 마쳤다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">세면가방을 놓고 부어오른 머리에 찬물을 쏟으며서 나는 오늘 밤에 외울 군가와 병기통과 화기 조립 순서와 그리고 사람 이름과 군번을 생각했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">이 모든게 지랄맞다는 생각도 했다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">지랄에 지랄을 맞아서 이름을 써놓은 속옷 위에 양말 위에 미친 듯이 비누칠을 하고 미친 듯이 비벼 빨다가 그래도 지워지지 않는 내 이름을 꽉 비틀어 짰다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">물이 흘러내렸다…</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">…이...이  씨발 그래 내 이름이 씨발이다</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"> </b><div style="line-height:1.38;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;" dir="ltr"><b style="font-weight:normal;"><span style="color:rgb(0,0,0);font-family:Arial;font-size:14.66px;font-style:normal;font-variant:normal;font-weight:400;text-decoration:none;vertical-align:baseline;white-space:pre-wrap;background-color:transparent;">씨발</span></b></div><b style="font-weight:normal;"><br></b>