매일매일 단기알바로 연명하는데 사는게 참 ㅈ같네요 의미도 목적도 없이 꿈도 희망도없이 사는게 참
어렸을적 ㅇ꿈꿔왔던 상상과 달리 라면에 과자에 혼자 추할때까지 술마시는게 이렇게 병신같고 찌질해질지 누가알았을ㅋ까요
스물 보고있는데 내 스무살을 어디가씅ㄹ까요 겨우 전문대 이년제 졸업하고 살아가는데 암덧도못하고 암것도 아니고 이렇게 살다가는 내 인생 소망인 행복한 가정을 가지는게 가능항까요 난 못하겠어요 며칠 일하다 며칠 쉬고 당장 돈 급하면 일하고 병신같도 병싱그ㅏㅌ은데 내가 아무 노력도 안하는거ㅛ도 병신같은데 저 영상속에 나오는 남자들은 멋지고 ㅈ같에요 스물두살인데 밬뀐건없도 대낮부터 취해있네요
치ㄴ수들고 다 군대가잌ㅅ고 아 또 취하고 자고 일어나면 오늘도 지나겠죠 세상 살기 ㅈ같네요 뭐하고있는지 입안속에서는 엄청쓴데 내 인생이 더 쓰네요 내가 말할게 어렸을때 부터했던 오유네요 이시간도 지나면 뭐 괜찮아질수도있는데 참 힘느네요 내가 왜이러ㅗ게살아야하는지 아무도 없는 집안에 혼자 값싼 소주사들고 먹는게 이렇게 처량할줄을 몰랐네요 원래같으면 남들에게 보이는것도 싫고 말해주기도 싫은데 요즘은 너무 뭘 어쩔줄모르겠아요 나머지 술 한명 더먹고 남들 일할때 자야겠어요 힝 너무 시간은 빨리지나가요 이러기 싫은데 자꾸만 이래지네요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 아 ㄴㅇㅈ같이네요 친구들에게는 쪽팔려서 못말하고 그나마 오유에다가는 말해봐여 내 인생 왜이런지 뭐가이리 꼬인가ㅓㄴ지 내가 원하지않아도 무너지는게 익숙해서 나혼자 뭣도모하겠어요ㅠ 미안해요 페북도 지우고 요즘에 남은건 단톡이랑 오유밖에 없어요 누가날 기억해줄까여