<p class="p1">콸콸<span class="s1">- </span>쏟아져<span class="s1"> </span>나오는<span class="s1"> </span>물을<span class="s1"> </span>손으로<span class="s1"> </span>한움큼<span class="s1"> </span>집어</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">얼굴에<span class="s1"> </span>세차게<span class="s1"> </span>들이부었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">크게<span class="s1"> </span>숨을<span class="s1"> </span>들이쉬고<span class="s1"> </span>천천히<span class="s1"> </span>고개를<span class="s1"> </span>들어<span class="s1"> </span>거울을<span class="s1"> </span>바라봤다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">분명히<span class="s1"> </span>있다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">누구인지<span class="s1"> </span>모를<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>사람의<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습이<span class="s1">….</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2">[내용상 잔인하고 끔찍한 표현이 있을 수 있습니다. 심약하신 분은 읽지 않는 것을 추천합니다.]</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <ul class="ul1"><li class="li1">뒷<span class="s1"> </span>모습<span class="s1"> (</span>상<span class="s1">)</span></li></ul><p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그<span class="s1"> </span>사람이<span class="s1"> </span>보이기<span class="s1"> </span>시작한<span class="s1"> </span>것은<span class="s1"> </span>수년<span class="s1"> </span>전<span class="s1">, </span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>사랑하는<span class="s1"> </span>가족을<span class="s1"> </span>떠나보내야<span class="s1"> </span>했던<span class="s1"> </span>살인사건<span class="s1"> </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>후였다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">평소와<span class="s1"> </span>다를<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>없던<span class="s1"> </span>주말<span class="s1"> </span>저녁<span class="s1">. </span>저녁<span class="s1"> </span>식사를<span class="s1"> </span>준비하느라<span class="s1"> </span>분주했던<span class="s1"> </span>집에<span class="s1"> </span>괴한이<span class="s1"> </span>쳐들어<span class="s1"> </span>왔다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">초대되지<span class="s1"> </span>않은<span class="s1"> </span>손님에<span class="s1"> </span>의해<span class="s1"> </span>집안은<span class="s1"> </span>순식간에<span class="s1"> </span>아수라장이<span class="s1"> </span>되었고<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">한<span class="s1"> </span>시간이<span class="s1"> </span>되지<span class="s1"> </span>않은<span class="s1"> </span>짧은<span class="s1"> </span>시간에<span class="s1"> </span>나는<span class="s1"> </span>부모님과<span class="s1"> </span>누나<span class="s1"> </span>세<span class="s1"> </span>명의<span class="s1"> </span>가족을<span class="s1"> </span>모두<span class="s1"> </span>잃어버렸다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">문을<span class="s1"> </span>열어준<span class="s1"> </span>누나는<span class="s1"> </span>비명도<span class="s1"> </span>지르지<span class="s1"> </span>못한<span class="s1"> </span>채<span class="s1"> </span>쓰러졌고<span class="s1"> </span>거실에서<span class="s1"> </span>티비를<span class="s1"> </span>보던<span class="s1"> </span>아버지<span class="s1"> </span>역시<span class="s1"> </span>등<span class="s1"> </span>뒤에서<span class="s1"> </span>들어오는</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">날카롭고<span class="s1"> </span>흉악한<span class="s1"> </span>칼날을<span class="s1"> </span>피할<span class="s1"> </span>기회조차<span class="s1"> </span>받지<span class="s1"> </span>못한<span class="s1"> </span>채<span class="s1"> </span>돌아가셨다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">주방에<span class="s1"> </span>계시던<span class="s1"> </span>어머니는<span class="s1"> </span>살인자에게<span class="s1"> </span>격렬히<span class="s1"> </span>대항하셨고<span class="s1">, </span>시끄러운<span class="s1"> </span>소리에<span class="s1"> </span>내가<span class="s1"> </span>방에서<span class="s1"> </span>나왔을<span class="s1"> </span>땐</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">살인마는<span class="s1"> </span>이미<span class="s1"> </span>힘<span class="s1"> </span>없이<span class="s1"> </span>추욱<span class="s1"> </span>쳐진<span class="s1"> </span>어머니의<span class="s1"> </span>시체에<span class="s1"> </span>욕설을<span class="s1"> </span>퍼부으며<span class="s1"> </span>분풀이를<span class="s1"> </span>하고<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">감지<span class="s1"> </span>못한<span class="s1"> </span>어머니의<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>쪽<span class="s1"> </span>눈에선<span class="s1"> </span>하염없이<span class="s1"> </span>피가<span class="s1"> </span>흘러나오고<span class="s1"> </span>있었고<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">단정하던<span class="s1"> </span>어머니의<span class="s1"> </span>단발머리는<span class="s1"> </span>가위와<span class="s1"> </span>칼로<span class="s1"> </span>끔찍하게<span class="s1"> </span>잘려있었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">겁에<span class="s1"> </span>질려<span class="s1"> </span>아무<span class="s1"> </span>것도<span class="s1"> </span>하지<span class="s1"> </span>못한<span class="s1"> </span>채<span class="s1">, </span>그저<span class="s1"> </span>경찰이<span class="s1"> </span>오기만을<span class="s1"> </span>기도하며<span class="s1"> </span>방<span class="s1"> </span>안에서<span class="s1"> </span>범인과<span class="s1"> </span>대치하던<span class="s1"> </span>나는</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">이윽고<span class="s1"> </span>시끄러운<span class="s1"> </span>소리를<span class="s1"> </span>수상히<span class="s1"> </span>여겨<span class="s1"> </span>경찰에<span class="s1"> </span>신고한<span class="s1"> </span>이웃에<span class="s1"> </span>의해</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">목숨만은<span class="s1"> </span>구해졌다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">세<span class="s1"> </span>가족의<span class="s1"> </span>장례식을<span class="s1"> </span>지내고<span class="s1"> </span>정신<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>몇<span class="s1"> </span>달을<span class="s1"> </span>보내고<span class="s1"> </span>나니<span class="s1"> </span>통장에는<span class="s1"> </span>예전의<span class="s1"> </span>나라면<span class="s1"> </span>상상도<span class="s1"> </span>못할<span class="s1"> </span>만큼의<span class="s1"> </span>큰<span class="s1"> </span>돈이<span class="s1"> </span>들어와있었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">가족의<span class="s1"> </span>목숨과<span class="s1"> </span>맞바꾼<span class="s1">, </span>절대로<span class="s1"> </span>그러고<span class="s1"> </span>싶지<span class="s1"> </span>않았던<span class="s1"> </span>돈을<span class="s1"> </span>보면서<span class="s1"> </span>나는<span class="s1"> </span>다시<span class="s1"> </span>한참을<span class="s1"> </span>울었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그리고<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>때부터<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습이<span class="s1"> </span>보이기<span class="s1"> </span>시작했다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">처음에<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습을<span class="s1"> </span>봤을<span class="s1"> </span>땐<span class="s1">, </span>심약해진<span class="s1"> </span>마음<span class="s1"> </span>탓이라<span class="s1"> </span>생각하며<span class="s1"> </span>존재를<span class="s1"> </span>부정하려했다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">하지만<span class="s1"> </span>시간이<span class="s1"> </span>지날<span class="s1"> </span>수록<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습은<span class="s1"> </span>점점<span class="s1"> </span>더<span class="s1"> </span>확실하고<span class="s1">, </span>또렷하게<span class="s1"> </span>나에게<span class="s1"> </span>존재를<span class="s1"> </span>드러냈다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">공황장애와<span class="s1"> </span>사회<span class="s1"> </span>공포증으로<span class="s1"> </span>집안에만<span class="s1"> </span>쳐<span class="s1"> </span>박혀<span class="s1"> </span>있던<span class="s1"> </span>시절엔<span class="s1"> </span>정체를<span class="s1"> </span>알<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습과<span class="s1"> </span>단<span class="s1"> </span>둘이<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>집에<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>것이</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">너무나<span class="s1"> </span>두려워서<span class="s1"> </span>사고<span class="s1"> </span>이후로<span class="s1"> </span>꼭<span class="s1"> </span>필요한<span class="s1"> </span>일이<span class="s1"> </span>있는게<span class="s1"> </span>아니면<span class="s1"> </span>나가본<span class="s1"> </span>적<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>집을<span class="s1"> </span>스스로<span class="s1"> </span>나가기도<span class="s1"> </span>했다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">하지만<span class="s1"> </span>그런<span class="s1"> </span>것과<span class="s1"> </span>관계<span class="s1"> </span>없이<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습은<span class="s1"> </span>어디서든<span class="s1"> </span>나타났고<span class="s1">, </span>얼마<span class="s1"> </span>동안<span class="s1"> </span>이런<span class="s1"> </span>생활을<span class="s1"> </span>반복하고</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">결국<span class="s1"> </span>난<span class="s1"> </span>나에게<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>행동도<span class="s1"> </span>하지<span class="s1"> </span>않고<span class="s1"> </span>그저<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습으로<span class="s1"> </span>우두커니<span class="s1"> </span>서있는<span class="s1"> </span>그것을<span class="s1"> </span>그냥<span class="s1"> </span>인정하기로<span class="s1"> </span>마음<span class="s1"> </span>먹었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그러나<span class="s1"> </span>가끔<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습이</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">무언가를<span class="s1"> </span>향해<span class="s1"> </span>미친<span class="s1"> </span>듯이<span class="s1"> </span>몸을<span class="s1"> </span>흔들며<span class="s1"> </span>기괴한<span class="s1"> </span>몸짓으로<span class="s1"> </span>팔다리를<span class="s1"> </span>휘저을<span class="s1"> </span>때<span class="s1"> </span>면</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그<span class="s1"> </span>날<span class="s1"> </span>저녁<span class="s1"> </span>뉴스의<span class="s1"> </span>헤드라인에서는<span class="s1"> </span>어김없이<span class="s1"> </span>아무<span class="s1"> </span>이유<span class="s1"> </span>없이<span class="s1"> </span>끔찍하게<span class="s1"> </span>살인<span class="s1"> </span>당한<span class="s1"> </span>사람의<span class="s1"> </span>뉴스를<span class="s1"> </span>볼<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">처음엔<span class="s1"> </span>우연의<span class="s1"> </span>일치라고<span class="s1"> </span>생각했으나<span class="s1">, </span>이런<span class="s1"> </span>일이<span class="s1"> </span>몇<span class="s1"> </span>번이나<span class="s1"> </span>있은<span class="s1"> </span>후<span class="s1"> </span>나는<span class="s1"> </span>깨달았다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">뒷모습은<span class="s1"> </span>사람을<span class="s1"> </span>죽이고<span class="s1"> </span>있는거야<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">뒷모습이<span class="s1"> </span>사람들을<span class="s1"> </span>죽인<span class="s1"> </span>범인이라는것을<span class="s1"> </span>확신했을<span class="s1"> </span>때<span class="s1">, </span>언젠가<span class="s1"> </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>녀석이<span class="s1"> </span>자신이<span class="s1"> </span>끔찍하게<span class="s1"> </span>처리해버린<span class="s1"> </span>사람들처럼</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">나<span class="s1"> </span>역시도<span class="s1"> </span>죽여버릴지<span class="s1"> </span>모른다는<span class="s1"> </span>생각에<span class="s1"> </span>두려움에<span class="s1"> </span>떨었다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">하지만<span class="s1"> </span>두려움에<span class="s1"> </span>몸서리치며<span class="s1">, </span>아무리<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습에게<span class="s1"> </span>저주를<span class="s1"> </span>퍼붓고<span class="s1"> </span>소리를<span class="s1"> </span>질러도</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">뒷모습은<span class="s1"> </span>그냥<span class="s1"> </span>망부석처럼<span class="s1"> </span>서있기만<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>뿐<span class="s1"> </span>이였고<span class="s1">, </span>결국<span class="s1"> </span>먼저<span class="s1"> </span>나가떨어져버리고<span class="s1"> </span>만건<span class="s1"> </span>내<span class="s1"> </span>쪽이였다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">뒷모습을<span class="s1"> </span>의식하지<span class="s1"> </span>않으려<span class="s1"> </span>노력했고<span class="s1">, </span>가끔<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습이<span class="s1"> </span>사람을<span class="s1"> </span>죽이기<span class="s1"> </span>전에<span class="s1"> </span>보이는<span class="s1"> </span>행동을<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>때면</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">속으로<span class="s1"> </span>조용히<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습에게<span class="s1"> </span>끔찍하게<span class="s1"> </span>살해당할<span class="s1"> </span>사람을<span class="s1"> </span>위해<span class="s1"> </span>마음<span class="s1"> </span>속으로<span class="s1"> </span>명복을<span class="s1"> </span>빌어줄<span class="s1"> </span>뿐이였다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그렇게<span class="s1"> </span>나는<span class="s1"> </span>아주<span class="s1"> </span>느리지만<span class="s1"> </span>확실하게<span class="s1"> </span>사고<span class="s1"> </span>이전의<span class="s1"> </span>내<span class="s1"> </span>삶을<span class="s1"> </span>찾아가고<span class="s1"> </span>있었고<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">내가<span class="s1"> </span>기쁠<span class="s1"> </span>때나<span class="s1"> </span>슬플<span class="s1"> </span>때나<span class="s1"> </span>뒷모습은<span class="s1"> </span>먼<span class="s1"> </span>발치서<span class="s1"> </span>우두커니<span class="s1"> </span>서있을<span class="s1"> </span>뿐이였다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그러던<span class="s1"> </span>중<span class="s1"> </span>그녀를<span class="s1"> </span>만났다<span class="s1">.</span></p>
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