<p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-size:13.3333px;">프롤로그. </span><a target="_blank" href="http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88291" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;font-size:13.3333px;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88291</a></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span>1화. </span><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88292" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88292</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span>2화. <a target="_blank" href="http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88293" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88293</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;font-size:12px;line-height:21.6px;">3화. <a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88319&s_no=88319&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88298</a></span></p> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">4화. <span style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88324&s_no=88324&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88319</a></span></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">5화. <span style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88337&s_no=88337&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88324</a></span></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">6화. <span style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88342&s_no=88342&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88337</a></span></div> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">7화. <span style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88354&s_no=88354&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88342</a></span></div> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">8화. <span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88363&s_no=88363&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88354</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span></span></p> <div style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;color:#333333;line-height:21.6px;">9화. <span style="line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88377&s_no=12218607&kind=member&page=1&member_kind=total&mn=60656" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88363</a></span></div> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span>10화. </span><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88382&s_no=88382&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88377</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">11화. <span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88397&s_no=88397&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88382</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">12화. <span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, 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style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?humorbest_1263615</a></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">15화. <span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88543&s_no=88543&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88539</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">16화. <span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88557&s_no=88557&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88543</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">17화. <span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=panic&no=88563&s_no=88563&page=1" style="color:#0000ff;text-decoration:none;background-color:transparent;">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88557</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">18화. <span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:21.6px;font-size:9pt;"><a target="_blank" href="" target="_blank">http://todayhumor.com/?panic_88563</a></span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><br></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><br></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;">전태성 </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span>----- </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">김주성마저 일단 씻고</span><span style="font-family:Calibri;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">온다며</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">이호철을 따라 샤워실로 들어갔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">한지혜도 어느새 토한 자국만 남겨놓은 채로 방안으로 사라졌다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">이제 이곳에 남은 것은 나와 몇 걸음 앞에 떨어진 김재영</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그리고 그를 내려다보고 있는 하늘이가 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">김재영을 내려다보고 있는 하늘이의 표정은 내가 등대에 오고 나서 처음 보는 표정이었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">하늘이가 저런 표정을 짓는 것은 처음이었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">분명히 웃고 있는 표정이었으나</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">입가와 눈가가 일그러져</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">있는 모습이 억지로 웃음을 참는 것처럼 보이기도 했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그러나 내 생각이 틀렸음을 얼마 지나지 않아 알 수 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">반대였다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">억지로 웃음을 참는 것이 아닌</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">억지로 웃음을 지으며 사지가 떨어져 나간 김재영의 모습을 내려다보고 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리곤 입술을 살짝 깨물더니 한숨을 내쉬었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">후회하고 있는 건가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김재영을 죽인 것을</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 도대체 무슨 생각을 하는 건지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 내쉰 한숨의 의미를 알 수 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">이제까지만 하더라도 하늘이가 이런 모습을 보일 것이라고는 상상조차 못했으니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">쾅</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">내가 생각하는 사이 하늘이가 옆에 있던</span><span style="font-family:Arial;"> ‘1-3’ </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">방안으로 들어갔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 재빨리 하늘이의 뒤를 쫓았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">왜 그랬는지는 나도 잘 알 수 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">방안으로 들어가니</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이의 뒷모습이 보였다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 뒤의 문을 천천히 닫았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">탁</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 뒤도 돌아보지 않은 채 고개를 살짝 들어 천장을 바라본다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 한숨을 내쉬고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">무미건조한 말투로 중얼거렸다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“하아</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">무슨 할 말이라도 있으신가요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“설마 김재영을 죽인 걸 후회하는</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“아뇨</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">내가 단도직입적으로 물어보려 했지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 나의 말이 채 끝나기도 전에 단칼에 잘라냈다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 나를 향해 몸을 돌리고는 해명을 하듯 말했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“단지 그를 죽였는데도 성취감이 없어서 그럴 뿐이에요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">무언가 해냈다는 그런 게 있을 줄 알았는데 막상 그를 죽였는데도 남은 건 허무함</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">뿐이네요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 그렇게 말하며 실소를 내뱉었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“성취감</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그게 무슨</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">사람을 죽이고는 그런 말이 나와</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김재영을 죽이면서 도대체 뭘 바란 건데</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">살인은 절대로</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">어떤 경우에도 용서받을 수 없는 죄라고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">!” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“알고 있어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">저도 살인은 죽음으로</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">밖에 속죄할 수 없다고 생각해요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나의 격정적인 반응에도 하늘이는 무미건조하게 대답했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 하늘이의 대답에 어이없어 소리쳤다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“알고 있다고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그걸 알면서 어떻게</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">!.....” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">잠깐</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">방금 하늘이의 말은 뭐지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">내 말과는 달랐다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">살인은 죽음으로밖에 속죄하지 못한다고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">내 머릿속에 한 가지 생각이 스쳐</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">지나갔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그녀가 한 말이 또다른 의미를 지닐 수 있다는 생각이 들었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">설마</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 이어진 하늘이의 말에 내 생각이 맞음을 알 수 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“그래서 그를 죽인 거예요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">살인자는 죽음으로</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">밖에 속죄할 수 없다고 생각해서</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그래서 그를 죽인 거예요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그게 무슨</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 내 생각을 부정함과 동시에 하늘이의 말을 이해하지 못한듯</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">알아듣지 못한 듯이</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">말끝을 흐렸다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 하늘이는 내 말을 가차없이 잘라내며 말했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“알아들었잖아요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">모르는 척 하지 마요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“김재영이 살인자라는 거야</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그 말을 내뱉자</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">가슴이 갑작스럽게 고동치기 시작했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">머릿속이 혼란스러웠다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">숨이 거칠어졌다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 내 말에 대답하지 않고 시선을 피했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 그것은 이미 긍정과 다름이 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">대답하지 않음으로써 더 명확해졌다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김재영이 살인자라고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그가 누구를 죽였다는 거야</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">두 손으로 머리를 쥐어뜯었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">무언가 잡힐 듯이 잡히지 않았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그를 죽였는데도 성취감이 없다고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김재영이 살인자라고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김재영을 죽이는 것이 내가 했어야 할 일</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 단순한 살인이 아닌 어떤 확실한 목적이 있었기에 이런 일을 벌인 것이었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 그 목적은 아연이와 관련이 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그 일기장의 주인은 분명 하늘이일 터였다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 일기장에서 언니라는 건 분명 아연이</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">이게 전부 우연일리 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아연이</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...... 1</span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">년전의 사고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아연이의 죽음</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">설마</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아니</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아니다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">내 상상일 뿐이다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그러나 확인해야했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">확인해야만 했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“설마</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김재영이 아연이를</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">죽였다는 거야</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 내 말에 고개를 돌려 나를 바라보았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이의 두 눈은 크게 벌어져 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그렇게 크게 벌어진 두 눈에는 놀라움이 가득 담겨있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 그것도 잠시일 뿐</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 마치 납득했다는 듯 눈빛을 감추며 입을 약간 벌려 탄성인지 탄식일지 모를 것을 내뱉었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“아</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">알아챘나요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">오늘 아침 나를 깨웠다는 것은 내가 일기장을 보았다는 사실도 알고 있을 것이다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 납득하는 것도 이상하지 않았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">내 말을 긍정하는 하늘이의 대답에 나는 아무런 말도 할 수 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">숨이 턱 막히는 기분이었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">사실 아연이의 죽음에는 의문이 많았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 별다른 증거도 없었고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그녀의 남자친구라는 제</span><span style="font-family:Arial;"> 3</span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">자의 입장에서 알 수 있는 것은 너무 제한적이었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 그녀와 사귀면서도 그녀에 대해서 알고 있는 것이 너무 적었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그녀에게 관심이 없었던 것은 아니었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그녀가 잘 말하려 하지 않았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 그렇다고 해도 나는 아무것도 알고 있는 것이 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그녀에 대해 파고들면 그 관계가 깨져버릴까 무서웠다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">결국엔 아연이와의 관계는 사고사로 끝나버렸다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">브레이크가 고장</span><span style="font-family:Calibri;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">난 자동차로 인한 교통사고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그녀에게 면허가 있는지도 몰랐다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">차량도 어디서 났는지 알 수 없는 중고차</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그녀가 죽기 전 거의 몇 달간 행방이 묘연했던 것도 이상했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">사고사는 아니라고 생각했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">자살이 아닐까는 고민했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그런데 살인인가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“김재영이 아연이를 죽였다고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“네</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그 자식이 진아연</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">제 언니를 죽였어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“왜지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김재영이 왜</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아연이를</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“왜일 것 같아요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">짐작 가는 게 있을 텐데요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">짐작할 수 있는 건</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">일기장</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“빚인가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“정답이에요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“하지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">겨우 빚같은 것 대문에 아연이가 죽었다고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아니</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그 전에 무슨 빚이 있다는 거지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아버지란 사람은 집을 나갔다고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">일기장에는 분명 그렇게 쓰여 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">다만 거기까지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">밖에 없었지만 말이다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그런데 왜 또 빚 이야기가 나오는 거지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“그 새끼는 집을 나갔지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그 자식이 남겨놓은 게 너무 많더군요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그 놈 명의의 집이라던가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">물건들</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그리고 엄마와 갓 성인이 된 언니의 명의로까지 빚을 남겨</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">두었더군요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">엄마는 사채업자랑 조폭들에게 시달리다가 미안하다는 편지만 남겨놓고 자살</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그래서</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그리고 언니가 있는 곳으로 도망쳤죠</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">집은 이미 경매에 넘어가버린 상태였으니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 거기도 이미 사채업자들이 계속 찾아오는 곳이었고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">더이상 우리 자매가 도망칠 곳도 없었어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">설상가상으로 빚쟁이들이 찾아오니 집주인은 방에서 나가라고 하고요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그러다 어느 순간을 기점으로 사채업자들이 오지 않더군요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">대신 문제는 언니가 자취방에 있는 시간이 없어졌죠</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그러기를 세달</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">....... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">언니가 죽었어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">하늘이의 말을 이해하는 데에는 시간이 걸렸다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">이야기가 느닷없이 결론으로 들어간 탓이다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">중요한 부분이 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그 결과로 이르게 된 이유</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그리고 김재영이 아연이를 죽였다는 주장이 결여되어</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">나는 참지 못하고 하늘이를 재촉했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“왜 죽은 거지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아연이는 도대체 왜 죽었던 거야</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“알고 있잖아요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">브레이크가 고장</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">난 자동차로 인한 사고사</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그걸 묻는 게 아니잖아</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그게 왜 김재영이 아연이을 죽였다는 게 되는 건데</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">자살이야</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아연이가 견디지 못하고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“아뇨</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">자살은 아니에요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">사고사로 위장한 살인이니까요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 그렇게 말하며 고개를 가로저었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“언니가 죽고 난 뒤 정장</span><span style="font-family:Calibri;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">차림을 한 어느 남자가 집에 찾아오군요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그리고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">보험금을 받았어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“보험금</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“네</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">저희가 지고 있던 빚을 제외한 보험금</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">언니가 몇 달 전 들어</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">놓은 생명보험이었죠</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">너무 우연의 일치라고 생각하지 않나요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그것도 빚만큼 미리 공제시켜 버리고는</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">이제 갚을 필요는 없다고 친절히 전화까지 오더군요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“사채업자랑 조폭</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 그 전화를 했던 게 김재영이었어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">하늘이는 말을 끝내고는 고개를 숙였다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">몸이 떨리는 것이 보였다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">분노일까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">이내 몸의 떨림이 잦아들고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">하늘이가 고개를 들었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">웃고 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">하늘이는 소름</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">끼칠 정도로 해맑게 미소</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">지으며 말했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그래서 죽였어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하핫</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">!” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“언니의 복수를 한 거라고요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하하핫</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">! </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하하하하</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">!” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 그렇게 말하며 기쁜 듯이 웃었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 그 모습을 보며 가슴속에서 어떤 감정이 떠오르지도 않았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">무슨 감정을 떠올려야 할지 알 수 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">살인자에 대한 경멸을 드러내야 하는 걸까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이처럼 복수에 대한 환희를 드러내야 할까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아니면 아연이의 죽음에 대한 슬픔을 드러내야 하는 걸까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">두 손으로 머리를 쥐어뜯었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">생각이 이리저리 뒤엉킨다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이의 웃음소리에 머리가 터질 것 같았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“하하</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.......” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이의 웃음소리가 떨림이 섞이며 잦아들었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 천천히 고개를 들었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이의 몸이 떨리는 것이 한 눈에 들어왔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">웃고 있던 입가가 갈피를 잡지 못하고 부들거리며 떨고 있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 투명한 물방울이 그렇게 떨고 있는 하늘이의 얼굴을 타고 흘러내렸다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이도 그것을 느낀 듯 손을 들어 눈가를 훔쳤다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 닦아낸 보람도 없이 더 많은 눈물이 흘러내렸다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흐느끼는 소리가 이제 더 이상 들리지 않는 웃음소리를 대신했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">내가 그 모습에 당황하는 사이 하늘이가 먼저 입을 열었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“흐흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">근데</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">왜죠</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">도대체 왜</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">분명 그를 죽였으니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">언니의 복수를 한 거니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">..... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">기뻐야 할 텐데</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">되갚아 줬다는</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그런 성취감이</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">!.... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">분명 있어야 할 텐데</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">! </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">후련해야 할 텐데</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">!” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 그렇게 소리치며 내게 다가와 나의 멱살을 잡았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 엉망이 되어버린 얼굴로 나를 올려다보며</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">간절하게</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">애절하게 말했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“어째서 이렇게 허무한 거죠</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">대체 왜</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">! </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">이렇게 슬픈 거냐고요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">! </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흐흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">....</span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">흑</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그건</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 뭐라고 대답을 주고 싶었지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아무 말도 해주지 못했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아무것도 떠오르는 게 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 나의 대답을 기다리듯 나와 눈을 마주치며 기다렸다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그러나 내 말이 이어지지 않자자</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">손에서 힘을 빼고는 내 가슴에 얼굴을 파묻었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 나에게 몸을 기대왔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“하아</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 내 가슴에 숨을 내뱉었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 영겁과 같은 찰나의 시간이 지나고 하늘이가 말했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“아니</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">아니에요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">이제 전부 끝이니까요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">끝낼 때가 됐어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">이제 다 끝내</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">버리죠</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">하늘이가 손을 놓고는 두어 걸음 물러났다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">무표정한 얼굴이 보였다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">어느새 눈물은 말라</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">하늘이의 얼굴에서 별다른 감정이 느껴지지 않았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">나는 그 얼굴을 보며 의문을 뱉었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“뭘</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“여기서 벌어진 모든 일이요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">원래라면 더 해볼까 했지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그만두죠</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">다 귀찮아졌어요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">더 이상 해봐야 의미도 없을 것 같고요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">....... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">다 허무하네요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">전부 다 끝낸다고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“어쩌려는 거야</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">제가 드렸던 권총</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">다시 돌려</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">줄래요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 정중하게 나에게 손을 내밀며 말했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">태도 변화가 너무 빨라 따라갈 수가 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">권총은 또 어디에 쓰려고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">누군가를 또 죽일 셈인가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">지금 이렇게 말해놓고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그런 거라면 절대 줄 수 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“걱정 말아요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그걸로 다른 사람을 죽일 일은 없을 테니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">단지 이 섬에서 탈출하기 위해서 필요할 뿐이에요</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">내가 어떻게 해야 할지 망설이자</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 마치 내 생각을 읽기라도 한 듯 차분하게 말했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 하늘이의 말에 권총을 다시 넘겨주어도 되나</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">고민스러웠다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만 어차피 나에게는 쓸모가 없는 물건이었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">문제는 지금의 하늘이를 믿어도 되는가였다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 권총으로 무엇을 하려는 거지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">누군가를 죽이려고 하는 건가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아니</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그렇다면 사람들의 귓속에 박혀있는 그것을 쓸 것이다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그것이 빠르고 확실하니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그 전에</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이가 나에게 거짓을 말한 적이 있었나</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아니</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">말하지 않은 것은 있었지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">거짓말을 한 적은 없었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그렇다면 권총은 정말 탈출하기 위한 수단인가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">다른 사람을 죽이려는 게 아니라</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">믿어볼까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">잠시만 기다려</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">가져올 테니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“네</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 긴가민가하면서도 방을 나왔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“아</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">마침 찾고 있었네</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">방을 나오자마자 김주성이 나에게 말을 걸었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그의 두 팔이 피로 얼룩져</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">김재영의 시신이 한쪽으로 옮겨져 옷으로 덮여 있는 걸로 봐서는 그가 직접 그것을 정리한 듯 했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">나는 그의 팔에 묻은 피게 꺼려지긴 했지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">그렇다고 도망칠 수도 없었기에 멈춰</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="en-us"> </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';" lang="ko">서며 대답했다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;" lang="ko">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“예</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하늘이는 어디에 있나</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">여기 이 방에 있는데</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">....... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">왜 그러십니까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“아</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아무것도 아닐세</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">자네는 어딜 가나</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">?” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“</span><span style="font-family:Arial;"> 3</span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">층에 두고 온 게 있어서</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“그런가</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">알겠네</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">.” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">“예</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">...” </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">김주성은 살짝 의문을 내비치면서도 더 묻지 않고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">다시 처형대로 돌아갔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">왜 물어본 거지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">일단 권총부터 챙겨야 될 것 같았다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 서둘러</span><span style="font-family:Arial;"> ‘3-4’</span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">로 걸음을 옮겼다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">서두른 탓일까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">순식간에</span><span style="font-family:Arial;"> ‘3-4’</span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">로 들어왔다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">아니면 여러 가지 생각으로 머리가 복잡한 탓일까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그리고 침대 뒤편에 있던 권총도 어느새 내 손에 잡혀있었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">이것을 하늘이에게 주어도 괜찮을까</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">사실 나로서는 이 상황만 끝낼 수 있다면</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">어떻게 되어도 상관없을 것 같은 기분이었다</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">. </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">하지만</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나간 뒤엔</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">이 등대로부터</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">이 상황으로부터 탈출한다면</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그 때에는 어떻게 해야 되지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 어떻게 하려 한 거지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">그 메일의 말대로 아연이의 죽음에 대한 진상을 알게 된다면</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">, </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">나는 어떻게 하려고 했었지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">왜 그걸 알아내려고 했지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">알게 되면 어떻게 하려고</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-size:10pt;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">...... </span><span style="font-family:'Malgun Gothic';">왜 알고 싶었던 거지</span><span style="font-family:Arial;">? </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"> </p> <p style="margin:0in;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span>------------------- </span></p> <p style="margin:0in;color:#333333;font-family:Arial;font-size:10pt;"><span 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