<p class="p1">안녕하세요<span class="s1">!</span></p> <p class="p1">살면서<span class="s1"> </span>경험한<span class="s1"> </span>무속인과의<span class="s1"> </span>경험들을<span class="s1"> </span>쓰는<span class="s1"> </span>작성자입니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">많은분들이<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>졸업축하해주셧는데<span class="s1"> </span>정말정말<span class="s1"> </span>감사드려요ㅠㅠ<span class="s1"> </span>완전<span class="s1"> </span>감동이엇습니다<span class="s1"> </span>ㅠㅠ</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">금욜에<span class="s1"> </span>에피소드올린다고말씀드렷는데<span class="s1"> </span>늦어죄송합니당<span class="s1"> </span>ㅠㅠ</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">글<span class="s1"> </span>시작하기<span class="s1"> </span>전에<span class="s1"> </span>미리<span class="s1"> </span>말씀드립니다<span class="s1">!</span></p> <p class="p1">비<span class="s1"> </span>과학적인<span class="s1"> </span>무속<span class="s1"> </span>신앙에대한<span class="s1"> </span>이야기를<span class="s1"> </span>할것이기<span class="s1"> </span>때문에<span class="s1"> </span>불편하신분은<span class="s1"> </span>뒤로가기<span class="s1"> </span>부탁드려요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">오늘은<span class="s1"> </span>시간이<span class="s1"> </span>나무<span class="s1"> </span>촉박해서<span class="s1"> </span>가벼운<span class="s1"> </span>스토리만<span class="s1"> </span>풀게용</p> <p class="p1">모바일이라<span class="s1"> </span>오타와<span class="s1"> </span>띄어쓰기는<span class="s1"> </span>양해부탁드립니다<span class="s1"> </span>ㅎㅎ</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">구럼<span class="s1">!</span></p> <p class="p1">먼저<span class="s1"> </span>저번글에<span class="s1"> </span>달린<span class="s1"> </span>댓글에<span class="s1"> </span>답변<span class="s1">? </span>드리고싶은것<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>가져왔슴당</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">Q</p> <p class="p1">작성자님<span class="s1">. </span>우선<span class="s1"> </span>졸업<span class="s1"> </span>진심으로<span class="s1"> </span>축하드려요<span class="s1">~ ^^/</span></p> <p class="p1">작성하신<span class="s1"> </span>글<span class="s1"> </span>잘<span class="s1"> </span>봤습니다만<span class="s1">, </span>에피소드<span class="s1"> 5</span>에<span class="s1"> </span>나왔던<span class="s1"> </span>내용을<span class="s1"> </span>보고<span class="s1"> </span>궁금한게<span class="s1"> </span>있어서<span class="s1"> </span>참다가<span class="s1"> </span>지금<span class="s1"> </span>여쭈어봐요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">기독교적<span class="s1"> </span>관점에서<span class="s1"> </span>볼때<span class="s1"> </span>성경이나<span class="s1"> </span>십자가<span class="s1">, </span>성수<span class="s1"> </span>등도<span class="s1"> </span>작성자님이<span class="s1"> </span>남기신<span class="s1"> </span>글에<span class="s1"> </span>나오는<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>기운들에<span class="s1"> </span>영향을<span class="s1"> </span>미치는지<span class="s1"> </span>궁금해요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">에피<span class="s1">5</span>에서<span class="s1"> </span>성경구절이<span class="s1"> </span>적힌<span class="s1"> </span>현판이<span class="s1"> </span>있었는데도<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>가든이<span class="s1"> </span>나쁜<span class="s1"> </span>기운에<span class="s1"> </span>당하셨다고<span class="s1"> </span>해서요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">참고로<span class="s1"> </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>사이비만<span class="s1"> </span>아니면<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>종교든<span class="s1"> </span>괜찮다고<span class="s1"> </span>생각합니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">A</p> <p class="p1">성경글이적힌<span class="s1"> </span>현판이<span class="s1"> </span>비유를<span class="s1"> </span>하자면<span class="s1"> </span>부적과<span class="s1"> </span>같다고생각해요</p> <p class="p1">나쁜기운을<span class="s1"> </span>막아주고<span class="s1"> </span>신앙의힘을<span class="s1"> </span>발휘하는<span class="s1">(?)</span></p> <p class="p1">무튼<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>교회랑<span class="s1"> </span>성당다니는<span class="s1"> </span>친구에게<span class="s1"> </span>물어봣는데<span class="s1"> </span>그런식으로<span class="s1"> </span>생각하면되지않을까하더라구요</p> <p class="p1">부적도<span class="s1"> </span>나쁜것을<span class="s1"> </span>무조건<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>막아주지는<span class="s1"> </span>못해요</p> <p class="p1">그<span class="s1"> </span>가든의<span class="s1"> </span>터가<span class="s1"> </span>매우<span class="s1"> </span>기운이<span class="s1"> </span>좋지않고<span class="s1"> </span>귀신이<span class="s1"> </span>쌓이는자리였기<span class="s1"> </span>때문에<span class="s1"> </span>부적이었더라도<span class="s1"> </span>크게<span class="s1"> </span>힘을발휘하지는<span class="s1"> </span>못하지<span class="s1"> </span>않았을까싶어요</p> <p class="p1">현판도<span class="s1"> </span>마찬가지<span class="s1"> </span>아닐까합니당</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">Q</p> <p class="p1">근데<span class="s1"> </span>궁금한게<span class="s1"> </span>지금<span class="s1"> </span>키우는<span class="s1"> </span>고양이ㅋ<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>아드님은<span class="s1"> </span>할아버지가<span class="s1"> </span>안보일까요<span class="s1">?</span>ㅋ</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">A</p> <p class="p1">우리아들이<span class="s1"> </span>가끔<span class="s1"> </span>귀쫑긋쫑긋을<span class="s1"> </span>하긴해요<span class="s1">!! </span>근데<span class="s1"> </span>아주작은<span class="s1"> </span>날파리사진만봐도<span class="s1"> </span>그렇기<span class="s1"> </span>때문에<span class="s1"> </span>할아버지보는건지<span class="s1"> </span>아닌지는<span class="s1"> </span>잘모르겟어요<span class="s1"> </span>ㅎㅎ</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">Q</p> <p class="p1">작성자<span class="s1"> </span>야한거<span class="s1"> </span>볼때마다<span class="s1"> </span>두리번<span class="s1"> </span>거리시겠어요<span class="s1"> </span>ㅋㅋㅋ</p> <p class="p1">할부지<span class="s1"> : </span>어험<span class="s1">... </span>오늘은<span class="s1"> </span>잘못<span class="s1"> </span>왔구만<span class="s1">.... </span>심장이<span class="s1"> </span>쿵쾅거리길래<span class="s1"> </span>뭔일<span class="s1"> </span>있는줄<span class="s1"> </span>알았지<span class="s1">...</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">A</p> <p class="p1">ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ</p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">(</span>이하<span class="s1"> </span>생략<span class="s1">)</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">16.</p> <p class="p1">여러분은<span class="s1"> </span>특정한<span class="s1"> </span>맛을<span class="s1"> </span>좋아하지<span class="s1"> </span>않으시는게<span class="s1"> </span>있나요<span class="s1">?</span></p> <p class="p1">저는<span class="s1"> </span>신맛을<span class="s1"> </span>무진장싫어해요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">겨울이면<span class="s1"> </span>제일<span class="s1"> </span>핫한<span class="s1"> </span>과일인<span class="s1"> </span>귤도<span class="s1"> </span>잘안먹을<span class="s1"> </span>만큼요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">발사믹이한창유행이었을때<span class="s1"> </span>친규들이랑<span class="s1"> </span>브런치먹으러가면<span class="s1"> </span>손도안대고<span class="s1"> </span>빵만<span class="s1"> </span>꾸역꾸역먹고<span class="s1"> </span>그랬어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">김치도<span class="s1"> </span>신김치는<span class="s1"> </span>못먹어요ㅠ</p> <p class="p1">갓<span class="s1"> </span>만든<span class="s1"> </span>김치가<span class="s1"> </span>젤<span class="s1"> </span>맛있어요<span class="s1">!!</span></p> <p class="p1">무튼<span class="s1"> </span>이렇게<span class="s1"> </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>신맛이나는<span class="s1"> </span>음식은<span class="s1"> </span>거의<span class="s1"> </span>입에<span class="s1"> </span>안대요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이게<span class="s1"> </span>무속과<span class="s1"> </span>관련이있나<span class="s1">? </span>하면<span class="s1"> </span>절대<span class="s1"> </span>아니라고생각했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">하루는<span class="s1"> </span>절에가서<span class="s1"> </span>스님이랑<span class="s1"> </span>불기를<span class="s1"> </span>닦으며<span class="s1"> </span>대청소를하던날이었어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">점심에<span class="s1"> </span>뭐먹고싶냐고<span class="s1"> </span>하셔서<span class="s1"> </span>짜장면을<span class="s1"> </span>시켜달랫죠<span class="s1">( </span>스님은<span class="s1"> </span>안드셧는데<span class="s1"> </span>생각해보니<span class="s1"> </span>짜장면에<span class="s1"> </span>고기가ㅠㅠ<span class="s1">)</span></p> <p class="p1">같이<span class="s1"> </span>온<span class="s1"> </span>단무지<span class="s1"> </span>양파<span class="s1"> </span>김치를<span class="s1"> </span>먼저뜯고<span class="s1"> </span>맛잇게<span class="s1"> </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>짜장면을먹고<span class="s1"> </span>스님은<span class="s1"> </span>밥이랑<span class="s1"> </span>단무지<span class="s1"> </span>양파<span class="s1"> </span>김치를<span class="s1"> </span>반찬으로<span class="s1"> </span>드셨어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">구런데<span class="s1"> </span>스님이<span class="s1"> </span>저랑<span class="s1"> </span>상의없이<span class="s1"> </span>단무지에<span class="s1"> </span>식초를<span class="s1"> </span>뿌리시는거에요<span class="s1">!!</span></p> <p class="p1">저는<span class="s1"> </span>신게<span class="s1"> </span>싫어서<span class="s1"> </span>스님한테<span class="s1"> </span>식초왜뿌리냐구<span class="s1"> </span>투정을<span class="s1"> </span>막<span class="s1"> </span>부렸어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">스님은<span class="s1"> </span>미안하다며<span class="s1"> </span>냉장고에서<span class="s1"> </span>새단무지를<span class="s1"> </span>꺼내주셧어요<span class="s1">. (</span>근데<span class="s1"> </span>그것도<span class="s1"> </span>스님반찬용이라<span class="s1"> </span>신맛엄청났어요ㅠ<span class="s1">)</span></p> <p class="p1">청소를<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>끝내고<span class="s1"> </span>스님이랑<span class="s1"> </span>같이<span class="s1"> </span>체스를<span class="s1"> </span>두며<span class="s1"> </span>편식에<span class="s1"> </span>대해<span class="s1"> </span>꾸중을<span class="s1"> </span>들었어요</p> <p class="p1">저는<span class="s1"> </span>맛이없어서<span class="s1"> </span>안먹는게<span class="s1"> </span>아니라<span class="s1"> </span>신음식을<span class="s1"> </span>먹으면<span class="s1"> </span>입이<span class="s1"> </span>아파서<span class="s1"> </span>못먹눈거라고<span class="s1"> </span>말씀<span class="s1"> </span>드렸죠</p> <p class="p1">구러자<span class="s1"> </span>스님이<span class="s1"> </span>체스를<span class="s1"> </span>두시다말고<span class="s1"> </span>공책을<span class="s1"> </span>꺼내셔서는<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>생년월일과<span class="s1"> </span>이름을<span class="s1"> </span>쓰시고는<span class="s1"> </span>뭘<span class="s1"> </span>막<span class="s1">~</span>적으시고<span class="s1"> </span>저를보셨어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">"</span>구너구가<span class="s1"> </span>신맛은<span class="s1"> </span>필요가<span class="s1"> </span>없구나<span class="s1">!"</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">-</span>엥<span class="s1"> </span>뭔말이에여<span class="s1">??</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">"</span>응<span class="s1"> </span>달과<span class="s1"> </span>신맛이<span class="s1"> </span>관련돼있는데<span class="s1">  </span>구너구를보니<span class="s1"> </span>이미<span class="s1"> </span>달의기운이<span class="s1"> </span>꽉<span class="s1"> </span>차<span class="s1"> </span>있어서<span class="s1"> </span>신맛을<span class="s1"> </span>필요로<span class="s1"> </span>하지<span class="s1"> </span>않네<span class="s1">. </span>만약<span class="s1"> </span>달의기운이<span class="s1"> </span>없었다면<span class="s1"> </span>신맛을<span class="s1"> </span>채우려고<span class="s1"> </span>신음식을<span class="s1"> </span>좋아하고<span class="s1"> </span>잘<span class="s1"> </span>먹었을거야<span class="s1">"</span></p> <p class="p1">사실<span class="s1"> </span>우리가<span class="s1"> </span>먹을때<span class="s1"> </span>느끼는<span class="s1"> </span>맛은<span class="s1"> </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>기운과<span class="s1"> </span>관련이<span class="s1"> </span>있다고<span class="s1"> </span>해요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">달<span class="s1"> </span>뿐만<span class="s1"> </span>아니라<span class="s1"> </span>해<span class="s1"> </span>땅<span class="s1"> </span>나무<span class="s1"> </span>등도<span class="s1"> </span>관련이있다고<span class="s1"> </span>했어요</p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">(</span>사실<span class="s1"> </span>신맛이<span class="s1"> </span>달이었는지는<span class="s1"> </span>기억이<span class="s1"> </span>확실하게<span class="s1"> </span>안나요<span class="s1">. </span>일기에<span class="s1"> </span>안적어뒀네요ㅠ<span class="s1">)</span></p> <p class="p1">본래<span class="s1"> </span>태어나는<span class="s1"> </span>년월일시에<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>것을<span class="s1"> </span>이름을<span class="s1"> </span>지을때<span class="s1"> </span>채워서<span class="s1"> </span>균형을<span class="s1"> </span>맞추어주려고<span class="s1"> </span>철학관같은곳에서<span class="s1"> </span>이름을<span class="s1"> </span>짓는거라고해요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">저는<span class="s1"> </span>부모님이<span class="s1"> </span>의도하고<span class="s1"> </span>그러신건<span class="s1"> </span>아닌데<span class="s1"> </span>태어난것도<span class="s1"> </span>균형이<span class="s1"> </span>잘맞고<span class="s1"> </span>한글이름이라서<span class="s1"> </span>기운이<span class="s1"> </span>과한것은<span class="s1"> </span>없다고<span class="s1"> </span>해요</p> <p class="p1">다만<span class="s1"> </span>가득한<span class="s1"> </span>기운이<span class="s1"> </span>있어서<span class="s1"> </span>신맛을<span class="s1"> </span>싫어하는거라능<span class="s1">!! </span>그런<span class="s1"> </span>흥미로운<span class="s1"> </span>이야기를<span class="s1"> </span>들은<span class="s1"> </span>에피소드입니다</p> <p class="p3">(<span class="s2">마무리가</span> ;;;)</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">17.</p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>이야기에<span class="s1"> </span>줄곧<span class="s1"> </span>등장하시는<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤이라는<span class="s1"> </span>분은<span class="s1"> </span>침술을<span class="s1"> </span>하실줄<span class="s1"> </span>아는분이세요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">굉장히<span class="s1"> </span>많은것들을<span class="s1"> </span>고치셨는데<span class="s1"> </span>입이완전히돌아가서<span class="s1"> </span>오년동안<span class="s1"> </span>고생햇던분을<span class="s1"> 3</span>개월<span class="s1"> </span>꾸준히치료해주셔서<span class="s1"> </span>얼굴모양도<span class="s1"> </span>완전<span class="s1"> </span>다시돌아왔고<span class="s1">, </span>탈모때문에걱정이돈<span class="s1"> </span>동네삼촌<span class="s1"> </span>머리가<span class="s1"> </span>풍성해지는<span class="s1"> </span>기적도<span class="s1"> </span>보았죠<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">하루는<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>이모처럼<span class="s1"> </span>따라다니던<span class="s1"> </span>무속인<span class="s1"> </span>이모가<span class="s1"> </span>계셨는데<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>아프셔서<span class="s1"> </span>이제는<span class="s1"> </span>병원에<span class="s1"> </span>계시다는<span class="s1"> </span>소식을<span class="s1"> </span>들었어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">저희가족은<span class="s1"> </span>병문안을<span class="s1"> </span>다녀왓고<span class="s1"> </span>안타까웠던<span class="s1"> </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤께<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모좀<span class="s1"> </span>낫게<span class="s1"> </span>도와달라고햤어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">못고치는<span class="s1"> </span>병이<span class="s1"> </span>없으셨어요<span class="s1"> </span>정말로<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그런데<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤은<span class="s1"> </span>안타깝지만<span class="s1"> </span>그건<span class="s1"> </span>불가하다고<span class="s1"> </span>하셨어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>부탁을<span class="s1"> </span>거절하셨다는<span class="s1"> </span>서운함도<span class="s1"> </span>있었지만<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>못고치는<span class="s1"> </span>병이있다니<span class="s1">!!! </span>하고<span class="s1"> </span>놀랐었죠</p> <p class="p1">그리고<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모<span class="s1"> </span>병을<span class="s1"> </span>고칠수<span class="s1"> </span>없다는<span class="s1"> </span>것에<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>슬펐어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제가<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있는일이<span class="s1"> </span>별로<span class="s1"> </span>없었고<span class="s1"> </span>혼자<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모병원에<span class="s1"> </span>가는것도<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>어려운일이었어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">차편이<span class="s1"> </span>별로<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>시골에있는<span class="s1"> </span>요양병원같이<span class="s1"> </span>생긴곳에<span class="s1"> </span>계셨거든요<span class="s1">…..</span></p> <p class="p1">그래도<span class="s1"> </span>방학하면<span class="s1"> </span>가고<span class="s1"> </span>샌드위치<span class="s1"> </span>휴일이<span class="s1"> </span>끼면<span class="s1"> </span>또<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모<span class="s1"> </span>보러<span class="s1"> </span>병원에<span class="s1"> </span>가곤했어요<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p1">어느순간부터<span class="s1"> </span>저도<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>크기도했고<span class="s1"> </span>차도<span class="s1"> </span>혼자<span class="s1"> </span>타러다닐<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있어서<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모를<span class="s1"> </span>자주<span class="s1"> </span>뵈러<span class="s1"> </span>갔는데<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모가<span class="s1"> </span>이제<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>괜찮아져서<span class="s1"> </span>곧<span class="s1"> </span>퇴원할것같으니<span class="s1"> </span>집에가서<span class="s1"> </span>기다리고<span class="s1"> </span>있으라고<span class="s1"> </span>했어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>기뻤지만<span class="s1"> </span>마음이<span class="s1"> </span>미어지고<span class="s1"> </span>슬퍼져서<span class="s1"> </span>집으로<span class="s1"> </span>돌아오는<span class="s1"> </span>버스안에서<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>울었더랬어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그리고<span class="s1"> </span>일주일정도가<span class="s1"> </span>지난<span class="s1"> </span>뒤<span class="s1">, </span>보살이모는<span class="s1"> </span>세상과<span class="s1"> </span>이별하셨어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">얼마전에<span class="s1"> </span>보고왔는데<span class="s1"> </span>장례식에가서<span class="s1"> </span>영원한<span class="s1"> </span>작별을<span class="s1"> </span>맞이해야한다는게<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>실감도안나고<span class="s1"> </span>받아들이기가<span class="s1"> </span>쉽지<span class="s1"> </span>않았어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">가족들과함께<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모<span class="s1"> </span>장례식을<span class="s1"> </span>다녀오고나서<span class="s1">, </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>화가나고<span class="s1"> </span>악에바쳐서<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>우리집에<span class="s1"> </span>놀러오면<span class="s1"> </span>꼭<span class="s1"> </span>따져물어야겠다고<span class="s1"> </span>생각했어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">다른<span class="s1"> </span>사람들<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>도와주시면서<span class="s1"> </span>착한<span class="s1"> </span>우리<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모만<span class="s1"> </span>딱잘라서<span class="s1"> </span>안되겠다고한게<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모가<span class="s1"> </span>돌아가신<span class="s1"> </span>이유같아서<span class="s1"> </span>화가났어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>저희집에<span class="s1"> </span>들르셨고<span class="s1"> </span>마치<span class="s1"> </span>기다렸다는<span class="s1"> </span>듯이<span class="s1"> </span>저를<span class="s1"> </span>찾으셨어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">“</span>구너구가<span class="s1"> </span>나에게<span class="s1"> </span>할말이<span class="s1"> </span>있는듯해<span class="s1"> </span>들렸단다<span class="s1">.”</span></p> <p class="p1">김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>오면<span class="s1"> </span>따져야지<span class="s1">! </span>하고<span class="s1"> </span>화가났던<span class="s1"> </span>마음이<span class="s1"> </span>막<span class="s1"> </span>분ㄴ출됐어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>우리<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모<span class="s1"> </span>죽인거다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">왜<span class="s1"> </span>도와주지<span class="s1"> </span>않은건지<span class="s1"> </span>납득이<span class="s1"> </span>가게<span class="s1"> </span>이해가<span class="s1"> </span>가게<span class="s1"> </span>설명을<span class="s1"> </span>해달라며<span class="s1"> </span>울면서<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤을<span class="s1"> </span>막<span class="s1"> </span>때렸어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">김쌤은<span class="s1"> </span>폭발해서<span class="s1"> </span>용암터뜨려<span class="s1"> </span>분출하는<span class="s1"> </span>저를<span class="s1"> </span>그냥<span class="s1"> </span>지켜만<span class="s1"> </span>보시다가<span class="s1"> </span>말씀하셨어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">“</span>구너구야<span class="s1">, </span>아저씨가<span class="s1"> </span>할수있는<span class="s1"> </span>일<span class="s1"> </span>밖의<span class="s1"> </span>일은<span class="s1"> </span>아무리<span class="s1"> </span>하고싶어도<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>수가<span class="s1"> </span>없단다<span class="s1">. </span>아저씨가<span class="s1"> </span>모시는<span class="s1"> </span>할아버지가<span class="s1"> </span>부탁해도<span class="s1"> </span>안되는일이야<span class="s1">. </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>속상하지<span class="s1">? </span>해줄수<span class="s1"> </span>있는게<span class="s1"> </span>없어<span class="s1"> </span>미안하구나<span class="s1">. </span>우리<span class="s1"> </span>구너구가<span class="s1"> </span>슬픔을<span class="s1"> </span>딛고<span class="s1"> </span>이겨낼때가<span class="s1"> </span>오기를<span class="s1"> </span>기다려야겠구나<span class="s1">.”</span></p> <p class="p1">하셨어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그리고<span class="s1"> </span>한동안<span class="s1"> </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>우울했고<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>우울했던<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>기간동안은<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤을<span class="s1"> </span>보지<span class="s1"> </span>못했어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">물론<span class="s1"> </span>엄빠한테<span class="s1"> </span>엄청나게<span class="s1"> </span>혼났어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그래도<span class="s1"> </span>내<span class="s1"> </span>소중한사람을<span class="s1"> </span>잃었을때의<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>기분은<span class="s1"> </span>시간으로<span class="s1"> </span>해결이<span class="s1"> </span>되지않았어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">보살이모의<span class="s1"> 49</span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>지나고서야<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤을<span class="s1"> </span>봤어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">근데<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤을<span class="s1"> </span>보면<span class="s1"> </span>왠지모르게<span class="s1"> </span>자꾸만<span class="s1"> </span>화가나서<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤을<span class="s1"> </span>모른척하고<span class="s1"> </span>가버렸어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그렇게<span class="s1"> </span>두어달이<span class="s1"> </span>지난<span class="s1"> </span>후에<span class="s1"> </span>아빠가<span class="s1"> </span>해주시는<span class="s1"> </span>이야기를<span class="s1"> </span>듣게됐어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>훌륭한<span class="s1"> </span>침술가는<span class="s1"> </span>맞지만<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>없는일이<span class="s1"> </span>몇가지<span class="s1"> </span>있는데<span class="s1"> </span>그중에<span class="s1"> </span>한가지가<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모가<span class="s1"> </span>걸린<span class="s1"> </span>병이라고<span class="s1"> </span>했어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>기억으로는<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모는<span class="s1"> </span>췌장암이었어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">췌장암은<span class="s1"> </span>현대<span class="s1"> </span>의학기술로도<span class="s1"> </span>치료가<span class="s1"> </span>어려워요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>김썜의<span class="s1"> </span>도움을<span class="s1"> </span>간절히<span class="s1"> </span>바랬던<span class="s1"> </span>것이었어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그런데<span class="s1"> </span>신을<span class="s1"> </span>모시는<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>신이<span class="s1"> </span>주신<span class="s1"> </span>병을<span class="s1"> </span>고치면<span class="s1"> </span>그에<span class="s1"> </span>대항하는것으로<span class="s1"> </span>받아들여<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>병을<span class="s1"> </span>고스란히<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>떠안게<span class="s1"> </span>된다고<span class="s1"> </span>해요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그건<span class="s1"> </span>신이<span class="s1"> </span>주는<span class="s1"> </span>병이자<span class="s1"> </span>벌이래요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤은<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>대신으로<span class="s1"> </span>매일<span class="s1"> </span>기도를<span class="s1"> </span>올려드리고<span class="s1"> </span>보살이모께<span class="s1"> </span>좋은<span class="s1"> </span>한약재도<span class="s1"> </span>보내고<span class="s1">… </span>나중에<span class="s1"> </span>돌아가시고<span class="s1"> </span>나서는<span class="s1"> 49</span>제도<span class="s1"> </span>지내주셨다고해요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">모든<span class="s1"> </span>사실을<span class="s1"> </span>알고나서<span class="s1"> </span>굉장히<span class="s1"> </span>죄송했고<span class="s1"> </span>김쌤이<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>어른이시구나<span class="s1">, </span>했어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>행동이<span class="s1"> </span>부끄러워지고<span class="s1"> </span>반성하게되더라구요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">사람의<span class="s1"> </span>운명이라는것이<span class="s1">… </span>마음먹기<span class="s1"> </span>나름이라지만<span class="s1"> </span>병이<span class="s1"> </span>생겼을때<span class="s1"> </span>간절함으로도<span class="s1"> </span>변하지<span class="s1"> </span>않을떄가<span class="s1"> </span>있더군요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">씁쓸하네요<span class="s1">. </span>그때를<span class="s1"> </span>떠올리려<span class="s1"> </span>일기를<span class="s1"> </span>펼쳐보니<span class="s1"> </span>모든<span class="s1"> </span>사실을<span class="s1"> </span>알기<span class="s1"> </span>전<span class="s1">, </span>김쌤을<span class="s1"> </span>원망하는<span class="s1"> </span>글로<span class="s1"> </span>하루를<span class="s1"> </span>마치는<span class="s1"> </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>썼네요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">남을<span class="s1"> </span>원망만<span class="s1"> </span>하던<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>어리석어보여요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">저도<span class="s1"> </span>일기를<span class="s1"> </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>시리즈를<span class="s1"> </span>연재하느라<span class="s1"> </span>꺼내서<span class="s1"> </span>읽어보게되는데<span class="s1"> </span>ㅎㅎ<span class="s1"> </span>꼬맹이는<span class="s1"> </span>꼬맹이었네요</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">어떡하죠<span class="s1">?</span>ㅜㅜ<span class="s1"> </span>오늘<span class="s1"> </span>이야기는<span class="s1"> </span>여기까지에요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제가<span class="s1"> </span>급<span class="s1"> </span>바빠지는<span class="s1"> </span>일이<span class="s1"> </span>생겨서<span class="s1"> </span>다음주는<span class="s1"> </span>되어야<span class="s1"> </span>또<span class="s1"> </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>쓸것같아요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>생각으로는<span class="s1"> </span>다음주에<span class="s1"> </span>올리는<span class="s1"> </span>썰<span class="s1">10</span>이<span class="s1"> </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>시리즈를<span class="s1"> </span>마무리하는<span class="s1"> </span>편이<span class="s1"> </span>되지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1"> </span>생각해요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">다른이야기들도<span class="s1"> </span>많지만<span class="s1"> </span>아무래도<span class="s1"> </span>취준생이다보니<span class="s1"> </span>이제<span class="s1"> </span>졸업도<span class="s1"> </span>했고<span class="s1"> </span>정신차려서<span class="s1"> </span>얼른<span class="s1"> </span>취직해얄듯해욯ㅎ</p> <p class="p1">그리고<span class="s1"> </span>다른사람이<span class="s1"> </span>관련되는<span class="s1"> </span>에피소드는<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>이야기만이<span class="s1"> </span>아니기<span class="s1"> </span>때문에<span class="s1"> </span>아무래도<span class="s1"> </span>쓰지<span class="s1"> </span>못할것같아요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">긴<span class="s1"> </span>글<span class="s1"> </span>읽어주셔서<span class="s1"> </span>감사합니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">여러분<span class="s1"> </span>좋은밤되시고<span class="s1"> </span>행복한<span class="s1"> </span>주말<span class="s1"> </span>보내세요<span class="s1">!</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1"><br></span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1"><br></span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1"><br></span></p>