<embed src="http://player.bgmstore.net/HBzvL" width="422" height="180"><br><a target="_blank" href="http://bgmstore.net/view/HBzvL" target="_blank">BGM정보 : 브금저장소 - http://bgmstore.net/view/HBzvL</a> <div><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br></span></div><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"></span> <div><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br></span></div><img src="http://thimg.todayhumor.co.kr/upfile/201509/1442678103Ao7cogt5mgSLhCKzEgj5f9dFGvQ3t36X.jpg" width="391" height="399" alt="1303142224174_1.jpg" style="border:none;"><div><br></div> <div>벌써 꽤 많은 세월이 흘렀군요.<br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그때 전 의대 본과 3학년 학생으로 정신과 실습을 돌고 있었습니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">아시다시피 어느 병원이나 정신과 입원실은 한 병동을 통째로 그 입구를 완전히 봉쇄하고 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">안쪽으로는 탁 트인 널찍한 공간을 마련해 놓는 소위 "폐쇄병동" 시스템으로 운영합니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">이른 아침 실습 동료들과 함께 그 육중한 철문의 벨을 누를 때면 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">간단한 신분확인 후 어김없이 들리던 "꾸앙~" 하는 둔탁한 쇳소리는 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">아직도 가끔씩 기억에 되살아나 소름을 돋게 하곤 합니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">실습학생들은 저마다 한명씩의 환자를 배정받아 실습기간 중 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그들과 면담도 하고 병동 내에서 놀이도 같이 하면서 환자를 주의깊게 살핀 다음 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">수시로 담당 주치의와 환자 상태나 치료방침에 대해 의논을 하게 된답니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">제가 맡았던 환자는 갓 고등학교에 들어갔던 16-7세 가량의 예쁘장한 소녀였습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">겉보기에 누구나 호감을 가질만한 귀여운 외모의 그 소녀는 뜻밖에도 우리말로 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">"색정광" 이라고 일컬어지는 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">흉칙하고도 망측한 병명이 붙어 있었습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그 아이의 대표적인 증상은 한마디로 이 세상 남자들이 전부 다 자기를 사랑한다고 생각하는 것이었지요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">아니 그건 단순한 '생각'이 아니라 종교적인 '믿음'의 수준이었어요. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">면담도중 어이없게도 그 아이는 저보다 먼저 정신과 실습을 돌았던 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">의대 동료들 이름을 주욱 대면서 제게 이렇게 말하더군요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">"선생님~ 그분들은 모두 제게 프로포즈를 했어요. 당장 결혼하재요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">나 지금 선생님도 똑같은 생각하고 있다는 거 다 알아요~"</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">소녀의 망상에 얼굴마저 빨개진 전 한동안 당황해서 어쩔 줄을 몰랐지요. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">나중에 담당 주치의는 그 아이가 이제 거의 정신분열병 단계로 가고 있다는 귀뜸을 해주더군요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">어쨌든 그 이후로 그 아이와 조금씩 친해지면서 전 아주 특이한 사실을 발견하게 되었는데 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그건 바로 그녀의 말투였습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">놀랍게도 그 아인 대부분 "시어"를 연상시키리만치 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">우아하고 고상한 단어들만을 가려쓰고 있는 것이었어요. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">어쩌다 주변 환자들이 욕설이라도 하는 걸 들으면 금새 눈주위가 발게지고 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">눈물이 글썽거리면서 못견뎌 하더군요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">한번은 저와 탁구를 치다가 거듭되는 실수에 제가 그만 무심코 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">"아~ 미치겠네~" 란 말을 했더니 그 아인 그걸 욕으로 간주하고는 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">냅다 라켓을 집어던지고 어떻게 선생님이 그런 말을 할 수 있냐며 펑펑 울더군요. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">아마 "미친다"란 말이 예민하게도 어떤 감정적 증폭을 초래한 모양이었지만요...</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그당시 실습이 끝나갈 무렵 간호학과 학생들과 함께 정신병동의 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">환자들을 위해 간단한 파티와 레크리에이션 시간을 가지는 게 일종의 전통처럼 되어 있었습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">바로 그 레크리에이션 시간, 환자들과 한가지 게임을 하다가 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">전 지금까지도 이렇게 기억에 생생하게 남게 된 충격적인 일을 경험하게 되었습니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그 시절 유행하던 소위 "스피드 퀴즈"란 게임을 할 때였지요. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">마침 제 환자였던 그 소녀가 뒷쪽 종이에 적힌 어떤 단어를 설명하면 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">간호학과 학생 하나가 답을 맞추는 차례였답니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">문제가 적힌 스케치북에는 매직으로 커다랗게 "어린이" 하고 적혀 있었어요. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">여러분 같으면 그 단어를 어떻게 설명하시겠습니까? </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">놀랍게도 제 환자는 잠시도 머뭇거리는 기색없이 반사적으로 이렇게 말하더군요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">어/른/의/아/버/지/</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그걸 들은, 소위 자신이 정상인이라 믿는 간호학과 학생은 역시 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">지체없이 "할아버지~" 하고 외쳤다가 그만 '땡~' 하고 오답을 알리는 종소리를 듣게 되었지요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">순간 그 자리에 있던 많은 사람들은 웃음을 터뜨렸습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그때 전 분명히 알 수 있었습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그 웃음의 많은 부분을 "역시 저앤 정신병자야... 싸이코야.." </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">하는 '비웃음'이 채우고 있었다는 사실을요...</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">여러분도 그렇게 생각하십니까?</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">제 충격의 이유는 이렇습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그 아이의 '어린이'에 대한 엉뚱한 설명은 바로 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">저 유명한 미국의 시인 윌리엄 워즈워드의 싯구절이었기 때문이지요. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">제가 시에 조예가 깊어서가 아니라 마침 그게 고등학교 때 영어 교과서에 실렸던 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">'하늘의 무지개를 바라보노라면 내마음 뛰노나니..'하고 시작되는 워즈워드의 명시 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">"무지개"의 한 구절임을 똑똑히 기억하고 있어서였습니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">어린이는 어른의 아버지</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그 자리에서 박장대소했던 사람들 중에 얼마나 많은 사람들이 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그 소녀의 시심을 이해했을런지 전 알 수가 없습니다. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">다만 그 시간 이후로 전 한동안 심각한 회의에 빠지게 되었었지요.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">저렇게 아름다운 생각들만이 머리에 가득 차있는 아이를 가리켜 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">누가 미쳤다 하고 누가 싸이코라 손가락질 하는가?</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">과연 자신있게 정상인이라 믿으며 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">때론 뭇사람들을 비방하고 헐뜯기에 욕설도 마다않는 나는 참으로 정상인인가?</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">아아... 그때의 복잡했던 제 머릿속에는 자꾸만 외눈박이 원숭이들이 사는 마을에 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">어쩌다 길을 잘못 들게 된 두눈 달린 정상 원숭이의 이야기가 떠올랐습니다.</span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">그렇죠. </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">현대의학은 그녀를 정신병자라 낙인을 찍어버렸지만 그건 단지 </span><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><br style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;"><span style="font-family:gulim, Dotum, Helvetica, AppleGothic, sans-serif;line-height:17.28px;">외눈박이 원숭이들이 만든 룰에 따를 때 그랬다는 것일지 모르지요.......</span></div>