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src='http://thimg.todayhumor.co.kr/upfile/201908/156520553745257f17c16d44ec8a3b7ca4f80fedbe__mn749529__w1080__h1439__f296370__Ym201908.jpg' width='1080' height='1439' filesize='296370'></b></font></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><font size="7" face="맑은 고딕"><b><img src="http://thimg.todayhumor.co.kr/upfile/201908/1565205477741dd0c2f96344ddb3ba0d0d77e6fe5e__mn749529__w1440__h1080__f389086__Ym201908.jpg" width="800" height="600" alt="20190720_140107.jpg" class="chimg_photo" style="border:none;"></b></font></div> <div style="text-align:left;"><font size="7" face="맑은 고딕"><b><img src="http://thimg.todayhumor.co.kr/upfile/201908/1565205507546dc561d7e24a96b11f0ac315bcc5ea__mn749529__w1440__h1080__f322570__Ym201908.jpg" width="800" height="600" alt="20190720_111636 (1).jpg" class="chimg_photo" style="border:none;"></b></font></div><font size="7" face="맑은 고딕"><b>민족혼의 블랙홀 </b></font> <p></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="6" face="돋움"><b>제<span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">24</span>화 사랑의 반대는 평등</b></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">모두가 죽지는 않았네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">살아서 멀쩡히 벼슬 잘 하고 있는 사람도 있노라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">바로 자네의 뒷배가 되어줄 수 있는 그 사람이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나와 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">6</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">촌뻘인 재종형제 민 선달이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이에게 얼굴을 바짝 들이댔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">약간 떨어져 앉은 내게도 입냄새가 훅 끼쳐왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">역겨워진 나는</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">입냄새를 술 냄새로 조금이나마 바꾸어 볼 요량으로</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">추동이를 불러 술상을 마련해 오게 하였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">취해서 주정을 부리지 않을 정도의 양만큼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">순식간에 막걸리를 사발에 따라 성남이에게 한 잔 권한 민 선달이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이가 따라 주는 것을 기다리지도 않고 술을 벌컥벌컥 들이켰다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">입에 묻은 허연 막걸리 자국을 닦았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">누군지 알고 싶지 않은가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">알고 싶지 않습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이가 단호하게 쳐 냈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">아버지께서 돌아가시고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">어머니께서 저를 데리고 첨정</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">僉正</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">종</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">4</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">품 쌀 관리직</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나으리 댁에 의탁</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">依託</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">남의 집 살이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">하신 후</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">저희 모자는 지금까지 아무런 부족함이 없이 살았습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">심지어 첨정 나으리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">정</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">3</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">품 아래 당하관을 부르는 호칭</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">께서 제게 개인 스승을 붙여 주신 덕분에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">분이 넘치게도 무과에 응시할 수도 있었습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">다만 마음속에서 계속 걸렸던 부분은 이것입니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">피가 섞이지 아니한 나으리께서도 이토록 살뜰히 대해 주시건만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">어찌하여 나와 핏줄로 연결된 친척들은 코빼기 하나 볼 수 없는가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">정녕 역모죄로 연좌제에 걸려 모두 목숨을 잃었단 말인가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.’</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그런데 지금</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">선달께서 제게 몸 성히 잘 살아 있으며</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">벼슬길을 걷고 있는 친척이 있다고 하셨습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">제가 어머니와 단 둘이 남의 집에서 더부살이를 할 적에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">누군지 모를 그 친척은 저와 어머니를 단 한 번도 돌아보지 아니하였습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이제 와 제가 무과 초시를 치름에 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">제가 혈연임을 밝히고 도움을 기대한들</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">십 수 년 동안이나 전혀 왕래가 없던 친척이 그 얼마나 살뜰히 챙겨주겠습니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">처음부터 그런 기대는 하지 않는 것이 좋을 성 싶습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">알고 싶지 않다니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그 무슨 말인가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">자네 내 꼴을 보고도 그런 말이 나오는가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">설령 자네가 나만큼이나 탁월한 실력으로 무과에 장원 급제를 한다고 해도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">비빌 언덕이 단 하나도 없으면</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나처럼 된다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">백수 건달</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">장원 급제했는데도 여전히 한량 신세</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이미 충분히 경고한 것 같노라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">!”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">술기운 때문인지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">민 선달이 이성을 잃고 소리를 질렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">목소리에 울분이 가득했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이렇게 몸소 찾아와 제 장래를 걱정해 주신 선달께 진심으로 감사드립니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이가 진중하게 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">여름 햇볕을 하루 종일 온 몸에 받으며 무예를 단련한 피부가 구릿빛으로 빛났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그런데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">대관절 저도 모르는 제 아버지의 친척에 대해 어찌 아십니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span><br></font></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">민 선달이 다듬지 않은 수염을 만지작거리며 헛기침을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">에헴</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">요즘 내가 한양 안에서 내로라하는 한량</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">閑良</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">현재의 고시생</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">들과 자주 어울려 술을 마시는 주막이 있는데 말이지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">거기에서 들었노라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">남양 홍</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">洪</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">씨 성을 지닌 사협</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">士協</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">판의금부사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">判義禁府事</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">의금부 종</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">1</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">품</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">줄여서 판사라고 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">오늘날의 경찰청장</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">] </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">대감이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그 이름처럼 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">선비</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">士</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)]’</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">와 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">협</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">協</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)’</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">력하길 좋아한다고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">민 선달이 스스로 속해 있는 주취</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">酒臭</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">술 취한</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">문화를 쌈박하게 인정하면서</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이의 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">친척</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">’</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">에 대한 설명도 자연스레 곁들였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">또한 홍 가 성을 지닌 재희</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">在羲</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">라는 소년이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">우리 당숙 댁에 얹혀산다는 이야기는 이미 예전에 제사지낼 때 전해 들었노라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그리고 나로 말할 것 같으면</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">과거에 장원으로 급제했는데도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">여태껏 아무 벼슬자리도 얻지 못해서 몹시 몸이 달아 있었네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">누구라도 연줄이 있다면 찾아가 읍소해 볼 생각이었어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그런데 이번에 재희</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">在羲</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그대는 초시에서 장원으로 뛰어난 실력을 보이지 않았나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그 뿐인가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">한양 저잣거리에 있는 모든 주막은</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">애기살을 맞고도 과락</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">科落</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">부분점수 감점으로 떨어짐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">으로 탈락하지 않고 다시 시험장에 나온</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">재수 없는 안동 김 씨 일족을 얼마나 멋지게 쓰러뜨려 병신</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">病身</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">당시 장애인을 지칭하던 단어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">으로 만들었는지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그 이야기로 밤낮 안 가리고 들끓고 있네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그 이야기를 들으며 생각했지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">만약 나라면</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">무과 시험 중에 중전 마마의 아들을 다치게 했을 때</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">어디로 가서 하소연해야 하는지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">자연스럽게 같은 성씨</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">같은 본을 지닌 홍 판사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">判事</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">대감이 생각나지 뭔가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그렇게 해서 나는</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그대에 대한 정보와 홍 판사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">판의금부사의 약자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">에 대한 정보</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이 두 가지 정보를 하나로 이었네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그리고 남양 홍 씨 족보를 조금 찾아 보았지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그대와 판사 대감은 본래 삼촌뻘 되는 가까운 친족 관계이네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">원래 역모죄에 얽히면</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">당사자와 같은 항렬</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">行列</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">족보의 서열이 같으면 이름 한 글자를 공유함</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">전체가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">대역죄인과 얽히는 것을 피하기 위해 이름을 바꾸거든</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그걸 감안해서 찾아보았네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이는 눈썹 하나 까딱하지 않고 조용히 듣고 있다가 반론했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">무슨 말씀이신지는 이해했습니다만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">가당</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">可當</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">옳고 당당함</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">치 않습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그리고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">설사 선달 어른의 말씀을 그대로 받아들여</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">제게 비빌 언덕이 생긴다 한들</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그것이 대체 선달 어른께 무슨 이득이 되겠습니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p> <p><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="5"></font></span></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">민 선달이 기다렸다는 듯 외쳤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">바로 나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">~! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나일세</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내게 이득이 되노라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나도 그대 자신과 함께 추천해 다오</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">작금의 과거 시험 부정행위를 판의금부사께 고하면서</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">슬쩍 내 이야기도 해 주게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">무과 시험 장원 급제자가 있는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, 266</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">위로 합격한 안동 김 씨 자제가 꿀보직으로 도는 동안</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">강산이 한 번 변할 정도의 시간이 지났는데도 나는</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">발령 한 번 못 받았다고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">꼭 말해주게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">판의금부사께서는 주상 전하의 어명을 받아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">각종 비리나 죄를 추탈</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">追奪</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">쫓아서 벌주다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">하는 업무를 맡고 계시니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">일단 그대가 판의금부사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">더 나아가 상감마마께 읍소하는 것을 기다렸다가 함께 상소를 올리든</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">청탁을 하든</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">효과가 있는 것들을 이용한 행위를 하게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">바로 그 순간 내가 그대와 함께라면 더욱 효과가 크지 않겠는가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">군사에 관한 일을 총괄하는 병조판서</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">兵曹判書</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">오늘날의 국방부장관</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">가 부당하게 처리한 일을</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">의금부</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">義禁府</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">왕명으로 죄인을 심문하는 곳</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">를 총괄하는 판사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">判事</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">오늘날의 경찰청장</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">에게 항의하라니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">어린 내 귀에는 꽤 솔깃하게 들렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그러나 성남이는 허투루 인생을 산 낙관주의자가 아니었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">어찌하여 선달께서 직접 이 일을 판사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">判事</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">대감에게 이르지 않으시고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">번거롭게 저에게 찾아와 부탁하시는 것입니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">민 선달의 표정이 급격히 시무룩해졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">쪼르륵</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">술을 한 잔 더 따라 들이켰다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내가 처음부터 이렇게 술이나 마시며 허송세월하고 있었던 것은 아니네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나 자신의 입신양명이 꺾이지 않기 위해 참 많이도 돌아다녔지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">연판장</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">連判狀</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">다같이 서명하여 죽음을 무릅쓰고 제출</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">상소문에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">...... </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그렇지만 홍 판사 정도 되는 고관대작</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">高官大爵</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">지위가 높고 훌륭한 벼슬사는 사람</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">은 나 같은 건 만나주지도 않아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">심지어 과거 장원 급제자인데도 말이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">역시 재희</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">在羲</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">같이 가까운 친척이 직접 가서</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">전직 형조판서</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">刑曹判書</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">형벌을 관할하는 정</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">2</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">품 정승</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">현대의 검찰총장</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">의 자제라고 말하는 게 접수가 빠를 것이노라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">밥을 폭풍 흡입하던 바로 그 기상으로</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">민 선달은 안주를 깡그리 먹어치웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이가 술도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">안주에도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">손 하나 대지 않은 채</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이맛살을 무섭도록 찌푸리고 있는 것은 신경 쓰지도 않고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">마치 경쟁하듯 재빠른 속도로 상에 있는 모든 음식을 입 속에 털어 넣었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">자영아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">안주 더 없느냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">심지어 내게 안주를 추가로 더 달라고까지 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">아무래도 우리 일가붙이 전체가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">며칠 동안 먹는 것을 줄여야겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그러나 손님 대접은 마땅한 예절이자 도리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나는 추동이를 불러 현재 집안에 있는 먹거리라면</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">비록 아껴 두었던 것이라도 내어 오도록 일렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">수박이 나왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">한석봉 어머니가 떡 썰 듯이 고르게 썰어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">채반에 층층이 담아 놓은 자태가 고왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">민 선달이 달려들어 한 입 깨물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">아이고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">왜 이리 싱거운가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">온전히 물로 가득한 맛이노라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p style="text-align:center;"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;"><font size="5">★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆</font></span></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">바야흐로 사납던 여름의 예봉</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">銳鋒</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">날카로운 끄트머리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이 꺾이고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">입추</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">立秋</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; 24</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">절기의 하나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">가을의 초입</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">직후 초시를 치른 후의 일이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">매미 소리가 언젠가부터 서서히 사그라들더니 뚝 그쳤다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">대신 날개 네 개 달린 잠자리들이 매미가 없어진 빈 공간을 채우며 날아다녔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">밤에는 귀뚜라미가 울었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">공기 중에 서늘한 기운이 흘러</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">더워서 잠 못 이루는 밤이 점차 줄어들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">가을의 향기가 점점 진해졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나는 싫다는 성남이를 설득해서</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">홍 판사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">判事</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">댁에 데리고 가는 중이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">겉으로 내세운 명분은 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">군자는 어려움을 지켜내야 한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내 뜻을 굽혀 세속의 편한 길을 따르느니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">떳떳한 역경을 선택한다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">다만 가까운 친척 민 선달이 어려움에 처해 있는데 못 본 척 하는 것은 군자의 도리가 아니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.’</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">라고 논어 구절을 섞어 쓰며 급히 만들어낸 것이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그렇지만 속 알맹이의 진정한 뜻은 달랐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">무과 시험에서 대놓고 특권과 반칙을 허용한 얄미운 병조판서에게 성남이를 잃고 싶지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내 머릿속에는</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">병조판서가 보여 주었던 두루마리 속 처자가 그림 속에서 튀어나와</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이의 손을 잡고 나와 떼어 놓는 망상으로 가득했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">홍 판사 댁은 남산골 초입에 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">종루가 있는 감고당</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">感古堂</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">에서 걸어가기에 거리가 꽤 되었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나를 업어주겠다는 성남이의 제안을 거절하고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">쓰개치마를 두른 채 성남이를 뒤따라 걸었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">어머니의 것이라 제법 컸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">치마 뭉치를 끌어안은 자세를 하고 열심히 걸으며</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">나는 어떻게 하면 어린 소녀가 일면식 없는 남의 집에 방문하는 일을 그럴 듯하게 설명할 수 있을지 고민했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">물론 내가 성남이를 따라가는 진짜 뜻은</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">다시 병조판서의 경우와 같은 일이 생기지 않게 하려는 것이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">남에게 끌려 니지 않고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내가 직접 상황을 만들어 운용하고 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이에게는 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">남의 집에 가서 엿볼 수도 없고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">또 상대방이 성남이에게 어떻게 나올지 모르니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">필요하면 옆에서 변호해 줄 사람이 불가결</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">不可缺</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">없으면 안됨</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그것이 아무리 어린 소녀일지라도 없는 것보다는 낫다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">고 말해두었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">의외로</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이는 나와 같이 걷는 것이 싫지 않은 기색이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">아씨</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">평등</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">平等</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">을 아십니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">뒤에서 따라 오고 있는 내게 나직히 속삭였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">어릴 적 어머니가 서학</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">西學</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">천주교</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">모임에 가서 배워 오셨고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">또 떡대 아저씨가 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">제선</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">濟宣</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)’</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이라는 떠돌이 의원에게서 동학</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">東學</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이라는 가르침을 배웠다면서 알려주더라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내가 대답했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">초시 이후</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내 머릿속에서는 성남이가 이미 장원 급제를 한 상태였기 때문에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그 어느 때보다도 말을 편하게 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">다른 어느 누구에게보다도 편하게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">우리 모두가 태어난 신분에 관계없이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">다 같은 사람이라며</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그러니 이를테면 과거시험 같은 것에서도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">차별이 없이 고르고 한결 같게 심사해야겠지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">바로 그 문제 때문에 우리가 홍 판사</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">判事</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">; </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">판의금부사의 약칭</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">댁에 가는 거고 말이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">예</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그렇다면 아씨</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">평등의 반대말이 무엇인줄 아십니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">평등의 반대말</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">불평등인가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">막</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">병조판서 사촌은 쏘지도 않은 화살 가산점 받고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이런 거</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">아닙니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이가 대답했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">평등의 반대는 사랑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">思郞</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">입니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">내가 물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">사랑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">思郞</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">이 평등의 반대라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">대체 어떻게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">?”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">평등이란 말을 하는 사람들은</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">모두에게 똑같이 공평하게 대해야 한다고 말합니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">아씨께서 말씀하신 것처럼</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">과거 시험을 공정하게 치르는 문제 같은 경우에는 그것이 옳습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그러나 사랑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">思郞</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">) </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">문제에 있어서만큼은 그렇게 할 수 없습니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">누군가를 마음을 다해 사랑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">思郞</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">한다면</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그와 필적</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">匹敵</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">;</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">엇비슷</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">한 마음으로 다른 누군가를 사랑하는 것이 불가능합니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">그러므로 사랑</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">思郞</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">에 있어서만큼은</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">평등이 불가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">(</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';letter-spacing:0pt;">不可</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">)</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">합니다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.”</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p><font size="5"><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">성남이가 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">목소리에 열기 비슷한 것이 담겨 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">뒤따라 걷고 있는 나에게는 표정이 보이지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">한참 동안 우리는 묵묵히 걸었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">.</span></font></p> <p> <font size="5"> </font></p> <p></p> <p style="text-align:center;"><font size="5"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">-</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">제</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;">25</span><span style="font-family:'나눔명조';">화에서 계속</span><span lang="en-us" 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