<div> </div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">어제저녁 남편은 도박장으로 가서 아침이 지나도록 오지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아예 주말엔 밤을 새우고 그다음 날 들어올 때가 많으니 그러려니 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">비도 오고 마음이 착잡했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">머그컵에 커피 한 잔을 가득 채워 들고 베란다에서 비 오는 소리를 들었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">차분하게 내리는 빗물이 미영의 눈물 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">주말 아침 다른 집의 삶은 어떤 걸까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">생각해보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">출근하지 않는 날이니 이불 속에서 오래토록 끌어안고 있는 부부도 있을 테고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">일박이일로 산으로 들로 여행 가려고 더 일찍 일어나 분주하게 짐을 싸는 사람들도 있을 테고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">집안 행사로 시댁으로 친정으로 떠나려고 짐을 싸는 가정도 있을테고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">......</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그런 평범한 일상을 사는 사람들이 부러웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">주말이면 피크닉 가방에 먹을 것 싸 가지고 아이들 앞서거니 뒤서거니 엄마 아빠 손 잡고 놀러 가는 가족이 보일 때면 미영은 세상에서 그게 제일 부러웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">소라도 이제 말을 제법하고 유치원도 다니다 보니 친구들에게 들어서 그런지 요즘 들어 놀러 가자고 보채서 걱정이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">소리가 잠이 깼는지 눈을 비비며 귀여운 표정으로 엄마를 부른다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아고 우리 이쁜 소리</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">일어나쪄요</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">엄마</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리는 언제 바닷가에 놀러 가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">뜬금없이 소리가 바닷가에 언제 놀러가냐고 묻는다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;"></span> </div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">으</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">으응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아빠가 조금 한가해지면</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">엄마</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">나 저번에 수경이네 집에서 하루 잔 날 있잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">수경이 아빠는 그날 집에서 자더라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">근데 내가 수경이 보고 우리 아빠는 집에서 안 잔다는 말 안 했어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">잘했지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?” </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">으</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">으응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">잘했어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 목이 메어서 말이 나오질 않아 간신히 대답하고 부엌으로 달려가 따뜻한 물을 조금 마셨다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">엄마</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">근데 우리 아빠는 왜 집에서 안 자</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아빠는 일이 많아서 그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래도 나도 한 번 놀러 가고 싶어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">친구들 보니까 바닷가에서 아빠랑 손잡고 사진 찍은 것도 보여주고 맛있는 거 먹으러 가도 꼭 아빠가 옆에 있던데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아빠가 조금 일이 한가해지면 우리도 언제든 그렇게 할 수 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 언제까지 이렇게 살아가야 하는 건지 언제나 평범한 일상을 살 수 있는 건지 목이 메어서 더이상 말을 할 수가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아이와 좋은 추억을 쌓아줘야 하는 시기에 남편은 오로지 도박밖에는 눈에 보이는 게 없는 듯했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">가족끼리 제주도라도 한 번 다녀오자고 말했다가 나중에</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">라는 단답형의 말을 들은 후로는 놀러 가자는 말도 꺼낼 수가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아무런 의사 표현을 못 하고 살아가는 자신이 답답하고 답답했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">평소보다 이른 시간에 혜영에게 전화가 걸려왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리 남편이 아기들 봐준다고 친구들하고 어디 바닷바람이라도 쐬고 오라는데 우리 대천이라도 다녀올까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">대천</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙이도 된대</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">전화했더니 남편이 선뜻 다녀오라고 하더라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙이 걘 진짜 남편 하나 잘 만났다니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">주말이면 경숙인 아예 주방에 들어가지도 않는단다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">남편이 요리를 그렇게 잘한다나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">뭐라고 계속 말을 하는 데 들리지가 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">눈물이 흐르는데 왜 귀가 안 들리는 걸까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 목이 메어 아무 말도 하지 못했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">한참을 아무 대꾸가 없자 혜영은 얘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">안 들리니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">안 들려</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">끊어봐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">다시 걸게 말하며 전화를 끊었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 화장실로 달려가 수도를 크게 틀어놓고 엉엉 울었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">소리가 들을까 봐 물을 샤워기로 세게 틀어놓고 변기 물도 내렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">친구들의 삶이 너무 부러웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">일상 속에서 자기들은 그냥 하는 말인데 어떤 말도 미영에게는 비수로 다가왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">가슴을 칼로 에이는듯한 통증을 느꼈다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">한참을 울다 거실로 나왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">외할머니 보고 싶다며 소리가 외할머니 집에 가자고 조른다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">갑자기 친구들과 아무생각없이 바다가 보고 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그럼 외할아버지가 데리러 오실 테니 외할머니랑 외할아버지랑 놀고 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">엄마는 친구들 좀 만나고 올게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">엄마</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">엄마 재밌게 놀다 와</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">딸 소리에게 미안했지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그냥 친구들하고 허튼소리라도 하면서 웃고 싶어졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래야 살 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">혜영의 연애담과 경숙의 재치 있는 입담을 들으며 배가 아프게 웃다가 드디어 바닷가에 도착했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">오랜만에 나오니 정말 좋다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">대천은 언제와도 속이 시원하게 탁 트인다니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">물이 들어와서 그런지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">와</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">진짜 더 멋지다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">!”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">출렁대는 깊고 푸른 바다 좀 봐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">굉장하다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">파도 소리는 또 어떻고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리 셋은 남편들이 다 착한 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">주말에 친구들하고 바닷바람 쐬고 오라고 해주는 남편들이 몇이나 있겠니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">맞아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">맞아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">돈 잘 벌어오지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">집에 착착 일찍 들어오지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">가정밖에 모르지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">....</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">이만하면 착한 남편들이지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우린 다 결혼은 최고로 잘한 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 그저 웃었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">굳이 아니라고 말할 필요는 없으니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">무언으로 긍정을 표현할 뿐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">!</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">셋이서 바다가 보이는 집에서 회도 먹고 매운탕도 맛있게 먹고 커피 숍으로 이동했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">혜영의 남성 편력은 또 시작됐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그 말 하고 싶어 모이자고 했던 것 같다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">수영 강사 말고도 또 헬스장에서 어떤 회원과 눈이 맞아 사귀고 있다고 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">도대체 남자들도 잘도 만났다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">너는 어딜 가나 남자가 붙나 보다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙이 부러워하는 눈빛으로 신기하다는 듯이 물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">난 이상하게 남자가 꼬여</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">혹시 네가 먼저 남자를 야리하게 쳐다보는 거 아니고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙은 의심반 호기심 반으로 장난치듯 물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">호호</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그건 나도 모르겠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">닭이 먼저냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">알이 먼저냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">일수도</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">호호호</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그런 저런 이야기들로 한참을 이야기 하면서 배를잡고 웃다가 집으로 돌아가야 할 시간이 되어 다들 혜영의 차에 올라탔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">차 안에서도 이야기는 혜영의 불륜 이야기가 주를 이루었고 미영은 그냥 적당히 웃어주며 그럭저럭 분위기를 맞춰주었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">한참 웃고 떠들며 스트레스를 풀고 있는데 전화벨이 울렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">남편의 전화였다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">받지 않으려다 또 전화를 안 받으면 난리가 날 테니 할 수 없이 받았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">어디야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">남편은 이제 집에 왔는지 집에 아무도 없자 화가 잔 뜩 난 목소리로 물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">나 혜영이랑 경숙이가 대천에 간다고 같이 가자고 해서 대천 왔다가 지금 돌아가는 길이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">대천</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">얼씨구</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">잘 논다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">소리는</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">소리는 엄마한테 가 있어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 큰 죄를 지은 사람처럼 목소리가 기어들어 가며 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">친구들은 남편들이 다녀오라고까지 배려를 해 주는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영 자신은 큰 잘못을 한 듯 변명 아닌 변명을 해야 한다는 게 친구들에게 부끄럽고 민망해 식은땀이 났지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">남편은 큰 소리로 소리를 지르며 짜증을 내기 시작했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">애를 친정에 맡기고 싸돌아 다니고 지금 애 엄마라는 것들이 할 짓이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">나 처음으로 이렇게 나온 거잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">지금 집에 들어가니까 집에 가서 말해</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">집을 어디라고 들어와</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">여편네가 애를 팽개치고 놀러 다니는 여자는 집에 올 필요도 없어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">!”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영의 남편이 하도 큰 소리로 말을 해서 수화기 밖으로 화내는 목소리가 차 안을 울리고 말았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그리고 남편은 일방적으로 전화를 탁 끊었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 기가 막혔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">자유스럽게 사는 친구들과 자신은 너무나 비교되는 삶을 살고 있다는 현실이 앞이 안 보이는 길을 걷는 맹인의 심정이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">혜영이 조심스레 물었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">왜</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">너 남편에게 말하고 나오지 않았니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">실은 남편이 친구 아버님이 돌아가셨는데 오늘 장지까지 따라갔다 와야 할 친구라서 집에 없었어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그럼 전화를 해서 우리 놀러 갔다 온다고 말하고 오지 그랬어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">집에 왔는데 이쁜 마누라가 없으니 화가 나셨나 보네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">눈치를 보며 혜영이 미영을 다독이는 말을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그러니까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">내가 연락을 먼저 했어야 했는데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">... </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미안해</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">내가 분위기 망쳐서</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">분위기를 망치긴</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그럴 수도 있지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙인 벌써 두 번째 미영과 만날 때마다 남편과 싸우는 모습을 보고 뭔가 가정에 문제가 있다는 것을 확신했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영이 불안해하는 표정을 짓자 동네에 도착해 저녁까지 사주려고 했다가 얼른 미영의 아파트에 데려다주었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 서둘러 집으로 가서 현관의 비밀번호를 눌렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그런데 문에서 띠리릭</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">~ </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">소리가 나며 문이 열리지 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">내가 급하게 눌러서 잘 못 눌렀나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">생각하며 미영은 다시 한번 천천히 꼭꼭 눌렀다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그런데 이번에도 또다시 띠리릭</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">~ </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">하는게 아닌가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">이상하다 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div>   <p></p></div> <div class="hwp_editor_board_content"></div> <div class="hwp_editor_board_content">다음 회에서 만나요.</div> <div class="hwp_editor_board_content"> </div> <div class="hwp_editor_board_content"> </div> <div class="hwp_editor_board_content">*********</div>