<div> </div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 친구들을 만나고 와서 일방적으로 진우를 수신차단은 했지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">몸이 문득문득 진우를 사무치도록 그리워하고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그러나 미영은 그러면 안된다고 남편은 소통도 안 되고 여전히 한탕 잘해서 마누라랑 새끼 호강시키겠다며 도박장으로 달리는 어이없는 한심한 남편을 생각하면 미래도 없고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">현재도 없고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">살아도 사는 게 아닌 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">집에 있어도 불안하고 일을 하면서도 신이 나지가 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">집안이 안정되어야 연애를 하든</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">일을 하든 재미가 있을 텐데 가정이 불안하니 짜증이 나기 시작했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그동안은 진우와 질펀한 섹스로 온몸에 쌓였던 노폐물을 다 씻어냈었는데 진우를 만나 열정적인 섹스를 하지 않고 보름을 살고 있자니 정신은 물론 몸까지 스트레스를 받아 더 화가 치밀어 올랐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">사는 게 재미가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">휴대폰엔 진우가 전화를 수도 없이 걸어왔지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">수신차단을 해 놓아서 벨은 울리지 않고 표기만 되어 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">혹시나 전화가 걸리지 않자 문자를 보냈을까 싶어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">수신차단 스팸 문자로 들어가 보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">연락이 안 되네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">전화가 벨이 울리질 않고 끊겨</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">무슨 일 있는 거야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">내가 무슨 잘못을 한 거니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">당신을 못 보니 정말 사는 게 사는 것 같지가 않아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">잘 지내고 있는 거지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">며칠을 이렇게 연락이 안 되니 정말 힘들다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">전화가 계속 안 되는 거 보니 나한테 무슨 실망을 한 건지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">내가 나도 모르는 실수를 한 건지 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">..... </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">이 문자 보면 전화 한 번만 해줘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">사 랑 해</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">사랑해</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">라는 문자에서 진우와 뜨거운 섹스를 하고 나서 꼭 사랑한다고 말해주던 진우의 섹시한 목소리가 들려오는 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">눈물이 맺히기 시작했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">[</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">여직 연락을 안 하네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">문자 하는 것도 당신 남편이 보는 건 아닌지 신경 쓰여 못하겠어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">제발 무슨 일이 있는 건지 전화 좀 해줘</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.]</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">수십 개의 문자가 와 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">더 이상 읽을 수가 없었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">이젠 문자들이 파도를 타며 출렁 거렸다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">눈물이 흘러내려 더 이상 읽지 못하고 전화를 내려놓다 말고 다시 들어 진우의 번호를 누르다가 아니지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">하며 충동을 참고 내려놓았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">다른 사람도 아니고 친구 남편이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">! </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">정신 차려</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">!’</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">진우에게 전화해서 이 상황을 말하고 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그러나 다정한 진우의 목소리를 듣는 순간</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">여름 장맛비로 물이 범람을 해 둑이 허물어지듯 간신히 추스르는 미영의 이성이 허물어지고 진우에게 달려가게 될 것 같아 이를 악물고 참았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 경숙이 부러웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">남편이 밖에서야 다른 여자를 만나든 어쨌든 경숙은 모르니 일단 스트레스는 없는 것 아닐까</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">‘</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">원래 들키면 죄</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">안 들키면 무죄</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">!’</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙은 남편이 바람을 피우는 걸 모르니 사는데 큰 지장이 없을 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">거기다 최고의 자상한 남편으로만 알고 있으니 행복한 얼굴이지 않았던가</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">차라리 소리 아빠도 밖에서 다른 여자랑 살림을 살든 연애를 하든 별짓을 다 하더라도 도박을 하는 것보다 낫겠다 싶었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아니 도박을 하더라도 자신 몰래 하던가 하고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">집에서라도 자상한 남편이라면 그나마 이런 스트레스는 받고 살진 않을 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 남편 생각만 하면 한숨만 나왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그런저런 생각을 하며 마음이 심란한데 벨이 울려 보니 경숙이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">전화했네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">뭐하니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">보고 싶다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">시간 되면 우리 집에 놀러 올래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">으</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">으응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">놀러 오라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 갑자기 경숙이 어떻게 사는지가 궁금한 게 아니라 진우가 사는 집이 어떨까 싶어 무의식적으로 가겠다고 대답했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">진우의 집은 생각보다 아기자기하지는 않았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아들만 둘이 있는 집이라 그런지 장난감이랑 살림들이 엉망이었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리 집은 머스마들만 있어서 이래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">흉보지 마</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙인 친구를 부르면서 집이 어수선한 거에 대해 치울 생각은 않고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그러려니 이해하라며 속 좋은 얼굴로 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">흉보긴</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리 집도 그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 사실 깔끔한 성격상 모델 하우스처럼 정리 정돈을 해 놓고 살지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그냥 그렇게 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;font-size:11pt;">   <p></p></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙이 커피를 가지러 간 사이에 소파 사이드 테이블 위에 놓여있는 가족사진을 보았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">진우의 얼굴만 눈에 크게 확대되어 들어왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">갑자기 심장이 뛰었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">갑자기 진우의 품이 그리웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">진우의 향기와 진우의 체취가 물씬 풍겨오는 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">눈물이 흘러내리려고 해서 간신히 참고 있었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙인 차와 과일을 내왔다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">커피는 연하게 내렸어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">오후에 진하게 먹으면 잠이 잘 안 오지 않니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">맞아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">맞아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">나도 이젠 나이 들어가는지 오후에 커피를 마시면 잠이 잘 안 오더라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리가 어떻게 하다 이제 조금 있으면 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">40</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">이다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그러게</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">어쩌다 보니 벌써 나이가 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">40</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">을 향해가고 있다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;"></span> </div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">둘은 한숨을 내쉬었다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙은 사진을 가르키며 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리 남편이야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">음</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">편안하고 자상하게 생겼네</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 최대한 처음 보는 남자처럼 무덤덤하게 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">넌 사진만 보고도 그게 보이니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리 나이 되면 그 정도야 기본 아니니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">호호호</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙인 웃으며 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">잘생기지는 않았지만</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">자기관리 잘하고 가정적이고 그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그럼 됐지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">뭘 더 바라니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우리 친정엄마도 유 서방 같은 사람이 최고라며 칭찬하고 예뻐해</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그럼 넌 남편이 예쁘지 않니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">이 나이에 같이 사는 남자가 뭘 그렇게 예쁘기까지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">넌 네 남편하고 사이가 어때</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">사이</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">내가 말했잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">시아버님 모시고 사는 기분이라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">!”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그런 거 말고 부부관계는 자주 하냐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그 말이지</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">얜</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 갑자기 부부관계를 물어오자 당황했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">우린 사실 거의 섹스리스야</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">어머</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">왜</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 그렇게 물어보면서도 속으로 진우가 아내와는 거의 섹스를 하지 않는다고 했던 말이 떠올라 정말이구나 싶어</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">깜짝 놀랐다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그냥 진우가 자신에게 듣기 좋으라고 그렇게 말하는 것인 줄 알았는데 경숙이 약간 심각한 표정으로 그렇게 말하니 떨리고 미안했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">몰라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">언젠가부터 잘 안 서더라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙의 말에 미영은 점점 미안해져서 얼굴까지 빨개졌다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">이런 말을 듣게 될 줄은 몰랐는데 당황스러웠다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그렇구나</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">너희 남편은 잘 되니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">뭐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그냥 우리 남편도 그냥 그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">사실 미영의 남편은 지금도 도박 가는 날만 아니면 하루도 거르지 않고 섹스를 요구해서 미칠 지경이었지만 그렇게 말하면 안 될 것 같아 거짓말을 했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">사실 저번에 혜영이 바람피운다고 말할 때 살짝 부럽기도 하더라</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">뭐라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">난 이제 평생 못하고 살 거잖아</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">. </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그렇게 생각하면 가끔 허무해</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">남편하고 잘 얘기해 봐</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 죄인이 되어 말도 크게 하지 못하고 타이르듯 천천히 말했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그게 얘기해서 되는 거니</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">? </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">얘기도 해봤는데 노력해도 안 되더라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“......”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미영은 아무 말도 하지 못했다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">어디다 물어볼 데도 없고 해서 인터넷을 뒤져보니 </span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">40</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">대에 섹스리스 부부들이 생각보다 많더라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">!”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그래</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">?”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">응</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">...”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">“</span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">그게 안 서더라도 가끔은 남편하고 뒹굴고 부비고 스킨십이라도 하고 싶은데</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">, </span><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">미안하다며 남편이 이제 자기는 남자도 아니라면서 각방을 쓰자고 하더라고</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.”</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span style="font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">경숙인 그냥하는 말이 아닌 것 같았다. 솔직하게 말을 하는 것 같았다</span><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;"></span> </div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;"></span> </div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;"></span> </div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">오늘은 미영의 마음이 나락으로 떨어지는 기분에 맞는 노래 '암연'을 불러보았습니다.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"><span lang="en-us" style="letter-spacing:0pt;font-family:'굴림';font-size:11pt;">아래 주소를 누르시면 제가 부른 노래를 들으실 수 있습니다.</span></div> <div style="background:rgb(255,255,255);line-height:120%;"> </div> <div></div> <div class="hwp_editor_board_content"><a target="_blank" 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