<div><span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">안녕하세요</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">.</span></div> <div> <p class="p1">예전에<span class="s1"> </span>실업고민글로<span class="s1"> </span>베오베<span class="s1"> </span>갔었던<span class="s1"> </span>페이페이라고<span class="s1"> </span>합니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=bestofbest&no=231353&s_no=231353&kind=member&page=1&member_kind=bestofbest&mn=673573">http://www.todayhumor.co.kr/board/view.php?table=bestofbest&no=231353&s_no=231353&kind=member&page=1&member_kind=bestofbest&mn=673573</a></span></p> <div><span class="s1"><br></span></div> <p class="p1">많은<span class="s1"> </span>분들이<span class="s1"> </span>리플을<span class="s1"> </span>달아주셨는데<span class="s1"> </span>베오베갔던걸<span class="s1"> </span>몰랐습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">매일<span class="s1"> </span>핸드폰으로<span class="s1"> </span>눈팅만<span class="s1"> </span>하느라<span class="s1"> </span>알람메세지를<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게<span class="s1"> </span>확인하는지<span class="s1"> </span>몰랐습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">스크랩한<span class="s1"> </span>게시물<span class="s1"> </span>확인하려고<span class="s1"> </span>했다가<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>늦게<span class="s1"> </span>알게되었어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">리플<span class="s1"> </span>확인하면서<span class="s1"> </span>같은<span class="s1"> </span>고민을<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>분들의<span class="s1"> </span>리플에<span class="s1"> </span>힘도<span class="s1"> </span>얻고<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">깊은<span class="s1"> </span>조언을<span class="s1"> </span>주시는<span class="s1"> </span>분들에게<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>감사의<span class="s1"> </span>마음을<span class="s1"> </span>느꼈습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">지금<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게<span class="s1"> </span>제게<span class="s1"> </span>온<span class="s1"> </span>위기를<span class="s1"> </span>타개해나가는지<span class="s1"> </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>쓰는게<span class="s1"> </span>그에<span class="s1"> </span>대한<span class="s1"> </span>보답이라는<span class="s1"> </span>생각이<span class="s1"> </span>들고</p> <p class="p1">같은<span class="s1"> </span>고민을<span class="s1"> </span>안고<span class="s1"> </span>방구석에서<span class="s1"> </span>침울해<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>친구들에게도<span class="s1"> </span>어떤<span class="s1"> </span>힘이<span class="s1"> </span>되지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1"> </span>해서</p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>앞<span class="s1"> </span>이야기와<span class="s1"> </span>뒷<span class="s1"> </span>이야기를<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>적어보려고<span class="s1"> </span>합니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">~ <span class="s2">앞의</span> <span class="s2">이야기</span> ~</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">집이<span class="s1"> </span>가난해서<span class="s1"> </span>고등학교<span class="s1"> </span>졸업하고<span class="s1"> </span>대학에<span class="s1"> </span>합격했으나<span class="s1"> </span>등록금을<span class="s1"> </span>낼수가<span class="s1"> </span>없었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">아무도<span class="s1"> </span>빌려주지<span class="s1"> </span>않았고<span class="s1">.. </span>아무도<span class="s1"> </span>없었습니다<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">그대로<span class="s1"> </span>알바나<span class="s1"> </span>하면서<span class="s1"> </span>방황을<span class="s1"> </span>크게<span class="s1"> </span>하다가<span class="s1"> </span>어찌어찌<span class="s1"> 알바하다 알게된 언니의 소개로.. 중소기업에 </span>고졸로<span class="s1"> </span>취업해서<span class="s1"> </span>돈을<span class="s1"> </span>모았습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">(</span>인문계<span class="s1"> </span>졸업이라<span class="s1"> </span>취업을<span class="s1"> </span>위한<span class="s1"> </span>준비가<span class="s1"> </span>전혀<span class="s1"> </span>없었음<span class="s1">…</span>ㅜ<span class="s1">)</span></p> <p class="p1">그리고<span class="s1"> </span>회사빽으로<span class="s1">(</span>ㅋ<span class="s1">) </span>신용카드를<span class="s1"> </span>발급받게<span class="s1"> </span>되었고<span class="s1"> </span>퇴사<span class="s1"> </span>후에<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">모은돈과<span class="s1"> </span>신용카드<span class="s1"> </span>돌려막기를<span class="s1"> </span>이용해서<span class="s1"> </span>재수종합학원을<span class="s1"> </span>다녔습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">때마침 오픈 프로모션으로 인근 지역에 비해서 되게 싸게 수강생을 받는 학원이 있었습니다!!!!! (제 기억에... 2008년 기준 한달 40~50만원선, 특강비 제외)</span></p> <p class="p1">이때는<span class="s1"> </span>부모님이<span class="s1"> </span>한달에<span class="s1"> </span>얼마간<span class="s1"> </span>도움을<span class="s1"> </span>주셔서<span class="s1"> </span>다행히도<span class="s1"> </span>재수생활을<span class="s1"> </span>마칠<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1">.. </span>막판에는<span class="s1">… </span>신용카드<span class="s1"> 20</span>원이<span class="s1"> </span>연체되는<span class="s1"> </span>바람에<span class="s1">;;; </span>신용카드가<span class="s1"> </span>막혀<span class="s1"> </span>멘붕에<span class="s1"> </span>빠졌지만</p> <p class="p1">그것도<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>어찌어찌<span class="s1"> </span>해결할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었습니다<span class="s1">. </span>지금<span class="s1"> </span>생각하면<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게<span class="s1"> </span>이겨냈는지<span class="s1">..</span></p> <p class="p1">엄마가<span class="s1"> </span>노력해줬던<span class="s1"> </span>부분이<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>컸습니다<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">지방<span class="s1"> </span>캠퍼스<span class="s1"> 4</span>년제에<span class="s1"> </span>합격했고<span class="s1"> </span>이번에도<span class="s1"> </span>돈은<span class="s1"> </span>없었지만<span class="s1"> </span>정부보증학자금대출을<span class="s1"> </span>받아<span class="s1"> </span>진학할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">다른친구들<span class="s1"> </span>보다<span class="s1"> </span>몇년<span class="s1"> </span>늦게<span class="s1"> </span>진학한<span class="s1"> </span>셈입니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이후<span class="s1"> 4</span>년을<span class="s1"> </span>모두<span class="s1"> </span>대출을<span class="s1"> </span>받아야<span class="s1"> </span>했습니다<span class="s1">. </span>중간에<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>힘들어서<span class="s1"> </span>생활비<span class="s1"> </span>대출도<span class="s1"> </span>두어번<span class="s1"> </span>받았습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">방학때마다<span class="s1"> </span>쉰적<span class="s1"> </span>없습니다<span class="s1">. </span>학교다니는<span class="s1"> </span>도중에도<span class="s1"> </span>근로장학생으로<span class="s1"> </span>계속<span class="s1"> </span>일했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">자취할<span class="s1"> </span>돈을<span class="s1"> </span>도대체<span class="s1"> </span>모을수가<span class="s1"> </span>없어<span class="s1"> </span>왕복<span class="s1"> 5</span>시간<span class="s1"> </span>집에서<span class="s1"> </span>등교했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그렇게<span class="s1"> </span>학점<span class="s1"> 3.7 </span>받았습니다<span class="s1">. </span>더<span class="s1"> </span>잘할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었을<span class="s1"> </span>텐데<span class="s1"> </span>지금<span class="s1"> </span>돌이켜보면<span class="s1"> </span>노력이<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>부족하긴<span class="s1"> </span>했습니다<span class="s1">. (네.. 잠순이였습니다.)</span></p> <p class="p1">체력적으로<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>힘들었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">유학을<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>가고<span class="s1"> </span>싶은데<span class="s1"> </span>장학금<span class="s1"> </span>지원이<span class="s1"> </span>아니라면<span class="s1"> </span>갈<span class="s1"> </span>수가<span class="s1"> </span>없는<span class="s1"> </span>상황이었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그런데<span class="s1"> </span>어찌어찌<span class="s1">;;; </span>지원이<span class="s1"> </span>나오는<span class="s1"> </span>것이<span class="s1"> </span>있어서<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>어찌어찌<span class="s1">;;; </span>갈<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">영어는<span class="s1"> </span>자유롭게<span class="s1"> </span>쓸<span class="s1"> </span>정도가<span class="s1"> </span>되서<span class="s1"> </span>돌아왔습니다<span class="s1">. </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>좋은<span class="s1"> </span>시간이었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이렇게<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>기적적으로<span class="s1"> </span>학교를<span class="s1"> </span>졸업했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">여자이고<span class="s1"> </span>올해<span class="s1"> 30</span>세입니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">회화는<span class="s1"> </span>꽤<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>편이지만<span class="s1"> </span>토익은<span class="s1"> 800</span>점대<span class="s1"> </span>초반<span class="s1"> </span>입니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이외에는<span class="s1"> </span>딱히<span class="s1"> </span>스펙없습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">저는<span class="s1"> </span>학자가<span class="s1"> </span>되는<span class="s1"> </span>것이<span class="s1"> </span>꿈이었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>공부하는게<span class="s1"> </span>제일<span class="s1"> </span>재밌었습니다<span class="s1">. </span>의미도<span class="s1"> </span>있었습니다<span class="s1">. </span>책읽는게<span class="s1"> </span>행복했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">가난한<span class="s1"> </span>집에서<span class="s1"> </span>자라면서<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>얘기를<span class="s1"> </span>들어주고<span class="s1"> </span>함께<span class="s1"> </span>생각해주는<span class="s1"> </span>사람이<span class="s1"> </span>아무도<span class="s1"> </span>없었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> </span>교수님하고<span class="s1"> </span>얘기하는게<span class="s1"> </span>제일<span class="s1"> </span>재밌었습니다<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">학자가<span class="s1"> </span>되어<span class="s1"> </span>연구를<span class="s1"> </span>계속해나가며<span class="s1"> </span>인류에<span class="s1"> </span>이바지할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있다는<span class="s1"> </span>생각으로<span class="s1"> </span>잠을<span class="s1"> </span>못이루고<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">히힉히힉<span class="s1"> </span>웃으며<span class="s1"> </span>관련<span class="s1"> </span>도서<span class="s1"> </span>요약했던<span class="s1"> </span>기억도<span class="s1"> </span>나네요<span class="s1"> </span>ㅎㅎ</p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">(</span>동생이<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>변태같다고<span class="s1"> </span>할<span class="s1"> </span>때도<span class="s1"> </span>있었어요<span class="s1"> </span>ㅋ<span class="s1">)</span></p> <p class="p1">친한<span class="s1"> </span>교수님이<span class="s1"> </span>제게<span class="s1"> </span>가능성이<span class="s1"> </span>있다며<span class="s1"> </span>잘<span class="s1"> </span>인도하려<span class="s1"> </span>해주실때도<span class="s1">, </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>행복했지요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">우리집<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>가난하지만<span class="s1"> </span>왠지<span class="s1"> </span>하고자<span class="s1"> </span>하면<span class="s1"> </span>길이<span class="s1"> </span>있을<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>같다는<span class="s1"> </span>막연한<span class="s1"> </span>생각을<span class="s1"> </span>했기<span class="s1"> </span>때문에<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">공부하겠다고<span class="s1"> </span>생각했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">사실<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>대학을<span class="s1"> </span>가서<span class="s1"> </span>졸업을<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>것도<span class="s1">, </span>게다가<span class="s1"> </span>유학도<span class="s1"> </span>다녀온<span class="s1"> </span>것도<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>어찌어찌<span class="s1"> </span>발버둥을<span class="s1"> </span>치니<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">기회가<span class="s1"> </span>생겼고<span class="s1">, </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>기적처럼<span class="s1"> </span>가능하지<span class="s1"> </span>않았습니까<span class="s1">?</span></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1">…. </span>그냥<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>하고자<span class="s1"> </span>하면<span class="s1"> </span>되지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1">, </span>안일하게<span class="s1"> </span>생각했었지요<span class="s1">… </span>바보같이<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">(그땐 기적이라 생각했지만, 지금은 엄마 아빠를 갈아서.. 만든 기회였다는 것을 압니다....)</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그러나<span class="s1"> </span>졸업을<span class="s1"> </span>앞두고<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>길이<span class="s1"> </span>없다는<span class="s1"> </span>것을<span class="s1"> </span>알았습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">장학금을<span class="s1"> </span>찾아서<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게든<span class="s1"> </span>출국해서<span class="s1"> </span>유학을<span class="s1"> </span>한다고<span class="s1"> </span>하더라도</p> <p class="p1">당장<span class="s1"> 3</span>천만원을<span class="s1"> </span>훌쩍<span class="s1"> </span>넘는<span class="s1"> </span>학자금<span class="s1"> </span>대출의<span class="s1"> </span>상환이<span class="s1"> </span>코앞이고<span class="s1"> </span>집에서는<span class="s1"> </span>전혀<span class="s1"> </span>도움을<span class="s1"> </span>줄<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>상황이<span class="s1"> </span>아니고</p> <p class="p1">부모님이<span class="s1"> </span>아프기<span class="s1"> </span>시작했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">학자가<span class="s1"> </span>된들<span class="s1">, </span>남편<span class="s1"> </span>잘만나지<span class="s1"> </span>않는<span class="s1"> </span>이상<span class="s1"> </span>답이<span class="s1"> </span>없다는<span class="s1"> </span>것을<span class="s1"> </span>알았습니다<span class="s1">....</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">오해의 소지를 줄이기 위해 더 정확이 말해보자면, 오랜동안 공부를 해야 하는 분야고, 밥벌이는 뭘 하든 저 혼자 어찌 해결할 수준이겠지만</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">집안에는 도움이 전혀 될 수 없었고 학자금 상환을 어떻게 해 나갈것인지에 대한 공포가 매우 컸습니다.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">일도 비정기적일 것이 자명하구요.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">어떻게든<span class="s1"> </span>공부를<span class="s1"> </span>이어가고<span class="s1"> </span>싶어서<span class="s1"> </span>한국에서<span class="s1"> </span>일을<span class="s1"> </span>하면서<span class="s1"> </span>공부할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>방법을<span class="s1"> </span>찾아보기도<span class="s1"> </span>했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>성격상<span class="s1"> </span>뭐든<span class="s1"> </span>대충은<span class="s1"> </span>못하거든요<span class="s1">… </span></p> <p class="p1">병행하려고도<span class="s1"> </span>해봤는데<span class="s1"> </span>둘<span class="s1"> </span>모두<span class="s1"> </span>제대로<span class="s1"> </span>하기<span class="s1"> </span>힘들다는<span class="s1"> </span>결론에<span class="s1"> </span>이르렀습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게든<span class="s1"> </span>해보려고<span class="s1"> </span>진짜<span class="s1"> </span>별<span class="s1"> </span>쌩쑈를<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>해보고</p> <p class="p1">전공방향도<span class="s1"> </span>조금<span class="s1"> </span>틀어서<span class="s1"> </span>약간<span class="s1"> </span>다른<span class="s1"> </span>분야에도<span class="s1"> </span>노력을<span class="s1"> </span>해봤지만<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">잘<span class="s1"> </span>안됐습니다<span class="s1">. 길을 잘 몰랐는지, 방법이 틀렸는지...? 하는데까지는 한다고 해 봤는데 안됐습니다..</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게든..<span class="s1"> </span>해보고<span class="s1"> </span>싶었어요<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그<span class="s1"> </span>와중에<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>동생이<span class="s1"> </span>꿈을<span class="s1"> </span>찾아<span class="s1"> </span>공부를<span class="s1"> </span>시작했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">돈이<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>드는<span class="s1"> </span>전공인데</p> <p class="p1">아버지가<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>노력해<span class="s1"> </span>주셔서<span class="s1"> </span>동생이<span class="s1"> </span>학원에<span class="s1"> </span>다니고<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>본인이<span class="s1"> </span>눈물나는<span class="s1"> </span>노력을<span class="s1"> </span>해서<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>분야<span class="s1"> </span>우리나라<span class="s1"> </span>최고<span class="s1"> </span>대학에<span class="s1"> </span>합격했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>동생이<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>자랑스러워<span class="s1"> </span>합격한날<span class="s1"> </span>둘이<span class="s1"> </span>부둥켜안고<span class="s1"> </span>진짜<span class="s1"> </span>엉엉울었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>동생이<span class="s1"> </span>그랬어요<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">지금껏<span class="s1"> </span>계속<span class="s1"> </span>도망만<span class="s1"> </span>쳤는데<span class="s1"> </span>이번에는<span class="s1"> </span>이악물고<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>최선을<span class="s1"> </span>다했다고<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">그런데<span class="s1"> </span>그걸<span class="s1"> </span>누가<span class="s1"> </span>알아준<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>같다고<span class="s1">… </span></p> <p class="p1">이<span class="s1"> </span>말에<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>억장이<span class="s1"> </span>무너졌어요<span class="s1">.. </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>순탄치<span class="s1"> </span>않은<span class="s1"> </span>길이었거든요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>이건<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>동생의<span class="s1"> </span>승리였어요<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">입학한<span class="s1"> </span>후에도<span class="s1"> </span>열심히<span class="s1"> </span>최선을<span class="s1"> </span>다하는<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>동생보면<span class="s1"> </span>세계최고인<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>같음<span class="s1"> </span>ㅇㅇ<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">근데<span class="s1"> </span>엄마가<span class="s1"> </span>아파요<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">아빠가<span class="s1"> </span>점점<span class="s1"> </span>늙고<span class="s1"> </span>쇠약해지는<span class="s1"> </span>것이<span class="s1"> </span>보이구요<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">경제적으로<span class="s1"> </span>많이들<span class="s1"> </span>힘드시죠<span class="s1">? </span>우리집도<span class="s1"> </span>계속<span class="s1"> </span>어려워지는<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>같아요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">돈<span class="s1"> </span>이리막고<span class="s1"> </span>저리막느라<span class="s1"> </span>보험도<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>해지한<span class="s1"> </span>상태입니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그나마<span class="s1"> </span>실비보험<span class="s1"> </span>밖에<span class="s1"> </span>안남았어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이제<span class="s1"> </span>누가<span class="s1"> </span>아프면<span class="s1"> </span>우리집<span class="s1"> </span>바로<span class="s1"> </span>망하기<span class="s1"> </span>때문에<span class="s1"> </span>건강관리에<span class="s1"> </span>힘써야<span class="s1"> </span>합니다<span class="s1">!!</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> </span>그냥<span class="s1"> </span>전<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>내려놓았어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">꿈이<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>무슨<span class="s1"> </span>소용입니까<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> </span>구직활동을<span class="s1"> </span>열심히<span class="s1"> </span>했는데<span class="s1"> </span>안됐어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> </span>답답한<span class="s1"> </span>마음에<span class="s1"> 그 </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>쓰게<span class="s1"> </span>된<span class="s1"> </span>것입니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">제가 원래 잘 징징대서....;;</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p3">~ <span class="s2">뒷</span> <span class="s2">이야기</span> ~</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">사실<span class="s1"> </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>올렸을때는<span class="s1"> </span>이미<span class="s1"> ‘</span>취업성공패키지<span class="s1"> II’</span>를<span class="s1"> </span>수행중이었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그러나<span class="s1"> </span>제게<span class="s1"> </span>오는<span class="s1"> </span>취업알선은<span class="s1"> </span>중소기업<span class="s1"> </span>연봉<span class="s1"> 1200~1600 </span>사이의<span class="s1"> </span>일거리였습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>학자금대출은<span class="s1"> </span>커녕<span class="s1"> </span>가족부양도<span class="s1"> </span>안되는<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>웃긴게<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> 10</span>년전에<span class="s1"> </span>회사<span class="s1"> </span>경리보조로<span class="s1"> </span>취업했을때<span class="s1"> </span>월급이<span class="s1"> 100</span>만원<span class="s1">(</span>연봉<span class="s1"> 1200 </span>상여제외<span class="s1">, </span>중식제공<span class="s1">, </span>야근시<span class="s1"> </span>석식제공<span class="s1">)</span>였거든요<span class="s1">???</span></p> <p class="p1">경리도<span class="s1"> </span>아니고<span class="s1"> </span>경리보조였는데<span class="s1">, </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>당시<span class="s1"> </span>사장님이<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>다정하게<span class="s1"> </span>돈을<span class="s1"> </span>책정해주신<span class="s1"> </span>것도<span class="s1"> </span>있지만<span class="s1">….</span></p> <p class="p1">도대체<span class="s1"> 10</span>년사이에<span class="s1"> </span>무슨<span class="s1"> </span>일이<span class="s1"> </span>벌어진<span class="s1"> </span>건지<span class="s1">?????? </span></p> <p class="p1">멘붕이었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">사람인<span class="s1">, </span>인크루트<span class="s1">, </span>잡코리아<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>뒤져가며<span class="s1"> </span>중소기업<span class="s1">, </span>중견기업<span class="s1"> </span>해외무역<span class="s1"> </span>쪽이나<span class="s1"> </span>일반<span class="s1"> </span>사무직<span class="s1">(</span>행정<span class="s1"> </span>관리<span class="s1">)</span>이쪽으로<span class="s1"> </span>서류를<span class="s1"> </span>미친듯이<span class="s1"> </span>넣었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">회사마다<span class="s1"> </span>자기소개서<span class="s1"> </span>다시<span class="s1"> </span>써가면서<span class="s1">.….. </span></p> <p class="p1">연봉<span class="s1"> 2000 </span>정도면<span class="s1"> </span>퇴직금이나<span class="s1"> </span>연차<span class="s1"> </span>이딴거<span class="s1"> </span>없어도<span class="s1"> </span>걍<span class="s1"> </span>넣었습니다<span class="s1">. </span>급했으니까요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p3"><span class="s2">그런데</span> <span class="s2">경쟁률이</span> <span class="s2">좀</span> <span class="s2">적으면</span> 50:1, <span class="s2">많으면</span> 120:1, 240:1 <span class="s2">이렇게</span> <span class="s2">되더라구요</span>.</p> <p class="p1">일단<span class="s1"> </span>나이가<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>걸린것<span class="s1"> </span>같고....<span class="s1"> </span>토익<span class="s1"> </span>점수가<span class="s1"> </span>낮은거더라구요<span class="s1">??? </span></p> <p class="p1">전<span class="s1"> </span>대충<span class="s1"> 800</span>점만<span class="s1"> </span>넘으면<span class="s1"> </span>된다<span class="s1">, </span>싶었는데<span class="s1"> </span>아니래요<span class="s1">. </span>문과는<span class="s1"> 900</span>이래요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">전<span class="s1"> </span>그냥<span class="s1"> </span>점수<span class="s1"> </span>만들기보다<span class="s1"> </span>빨리<span class="s1"> </span>일을<span class="s1"> </span>시작하는게<span class="s1"> </span>낫다고<span class="s1"> </span>생각했는데<span class="s1"> </span>시작도<span class="s1"> </span>못할<span class="s1"> </span>선이었던가요<span class="s1">???</span></p> <p class="p1">사람인<span class="s1"> </span>광고는<span class="s1"> </span>다르던데<span class="s1"> </span>ㅠㅠ (아마 나이가....)</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">대기업은<span class="s1"> </span>애초에<span class="s1"> </span>쳐다도<span class="s1"> </span>안봤습니다<span class="s1">… </span>급하니까여<span class="s1">… </span>뽑아줄것<span class="s1"> </span>같지도<span class="s1"> </span>않고<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그<span class="s1"> </span>사이에<span class="s1"> </span>집에<span class="s1"> </span>쌀이<span class="s1"> </span>떨어졌습니다<span class="s1">…… </span>진짜<span class="s1"> </span>겁이<span class="s1"> </span>덜컥나더라구요<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">아<span class="s1"> </span>그래서<span class="s1"> </span>이러다간<span class="s1"> </span>진짜<span class="s1"> </span>망하겠다<span class="s1"> </span>싶어서<span class="s1"> ‘</span>취업성공패키지<span class="s1"> II’ </span>취업루트로<span class="s1"> </span>빠졌던걸</p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>담당자분께<span class="s1"> </span>요청드려서<span class="s1"> </span>내일배움카드<span class="s1"> </span>발급받는걸로<span class="s1"> </span>전환했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">세무사<span class="s1"> </span>사무소에<span class="s1"> </span>일하고<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>친구가<span class="s1"> </span>추천해서<span class="s1"> </span>전산회계<span class="s1"> 1</span>급<span class="s1"> </span>취득이<span class="s1"> </span>목표가<span class="s1"> </span>되었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이걸<span class="s1"> </span>이용해서<span class="s1"> </span>돌파구를<span class="s1"> </span>마련해보려고<span class="s1"> </span>해요<span class="s1">. 이쪽도 박봉이지만 버티면 나중에 여자직업으로 괜찮다고 해서요.</span></p> <p class="p1"><span class="s1">(도대체 여자직업으로 괜찮다는 말이...??? 제게도 적용이 될지 모르겠지만요. 결혼, 출산은 제게 없는 선택이기 때문입니다. 그래도 경력이 된다고 하니....)</span></p> <p class="p1">어떻게든<span class="s1"> </span>이겨내야<span class="s1"> </span>하니까<span class="s1">… </span>길을<span class="s1"> </span>만들어서라도<span class="s1">… </span>어떻게든<span class="s1">!! 해보려고요.... </span>으윽<span class="s1"> </span>ㅠㅠ</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> 4</span>월부터<span class="s1"> </span>학원에<span class="s1"> </span>다닙니다<span class="s1">. </span>소정의<span class="s1"> </span>교통비가<span class="s1"> </span>지원된다고<span class="s1"> </span>합니다<span class="s1">. </span>학원비는<span class="s1"> 85% </span>지원받았습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그러나<span class="s1"> </span>다음달부터<span class="s1"> </span>대출받았던<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>중<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>학기의<span class="s1"> </span>원금<span class="s1"> </span>상환이<span class="s1"> </span>시작됩니다<span class="s1">……;;;;;</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">지금까치<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>단기알바<span class="s1"> </span>미친듯이<span class="s1"> </span>뛰어서<span class="s1"> </span>먹을걸<span class="s1"> </span>사고<span class="s1">;;; </span>엄마한테<span class="s1"> </span>돈<span class="s1"> </span>쫌<span class="s1"> </span>주고<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">어찌어찌<span class="s1"> </span>학원비<span class="s1"> </span>내고<span class="s1">… </span>밀린<span class="s1"> </span>핸드폰비<span class="s1">, </span>교통비<span class="s1"> </span>내고<span class="s1">..</span></p> <p class="p1">밀린<span class="s1"> </span>카드값<span class="s1"> </span>모조리<span class="s1"> </span>상환하고<span class="s1">… </span></p> <p class="p1">카드값에<span class="s1"> </span>진짜<span class="s1"> </span>몇달동안<span class="s1"> </span>너무<span class="s1"> </span>시달려가지구<span class="s1"> </span>상환<span class="s1"> </span>끝나고<span class="s1"> </span>잘라버렸어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">지긋지긋했어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">소액이었지만<span class="s1"> </span>연체<span class="s1"> </span>때문에<span class="s1"> </span>어차피<span class="s1"> </span>한도도<span class="s1"> 20</span>만원으로<span class="s1"> </span>축소되서<span class="s1"> </span>큰<span class="s1"> </span>도움은<span class="s1"> </span>안되는데</p> <p class="p1">아<span class="s1"> </span>다음달<span class="s1"> </span>당장<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게<span class="s1"> </span>살지<span class="s1">? </span>싶으니까<span class="s1"> </span>카드<span class="s1"> </span>잘라버린게<span class="s1"> </span>또<span class="s1"> </span>후회가<span class="s1"> </span>되네요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">또<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게<span class="s1"> </span>이겨낼지<span class="s1"> </span>머리를<span class="s1"> </span>굴리며<span class="s1"> </span>알바몬<span class="s1"> </span>검색을<span class="s1"> </span>합니다..... 아아.... </p> <p class="p1">(머리굴릴것 없이 일해야져! 뭐 별 수 있겠슴까 ㅋ)</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">어떻게든<span class="s1"> </span>살아내야<span class="s1"> </span>하니까<span class="s1"> </span>열심히<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>같습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">열심히<span class="s1"> </span>하고<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>같습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">굶어죽거나<span class="s1">, </span>우리부모님이<span class="s1"> </span>아프다<span class="s1"> </span>치료도<span class="s1"> </span>못받고<span class="s1"> </span>죽는<span class="s1"> </span>일이<span class="s1"> </span>없게<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">혹시나<span class="s1">..</span></p> <p class="p1">제발제발제발<span class="s1">, </span>열심히<span class="s1"> </span>살테니까<span class="s1">, </span>가슴에<span class="s1"> </span>사무칠<span class="s1"> </span>일<span class="s1"> </span>없기만<span class="s1"> </span>바랍니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>학자금<span class="s1"> </span>상환하면서<span class="s1">, </span>쌀<span class="s1"> </span>떨어질<span class="s1"> </span>일<span class="s1"> </span>없이<span class="s1">, </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>동생에게<span class="s1"> </span>가끔<span class="s1"> </span>용돈도<span class="s1"> </span>줘가며<span class="s1">, </span></p> <p class="p1">제<span class="s1"> </span>동생이<span class="s1"> </span>필요한<span class="s1"> </span>장비를<span class="s1"> </span>사는데<span class="s1"> </span>돈을<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>보태주면서<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">엄마한테<span class="s1"> </span>생활비도<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>쥐어주고<span class="s1">..</span></p> <p class="p1">이게<span class="s1"> 지금 </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>꿈이예요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">엄마<span class="s1"> </span>아빠<span class="s1"> </span>보험도<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>넣고요<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">정말<span class="s1"> </span>이게<span class="s1"> </span>다예요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">이<span class="s1"> </span>글을<span class="s1"> </span>쓰면서<span class="s1">.. </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>씩씩하게<span class="s1"> </span>쓰는데<span class="s1"> </span>눈물이<span class="s1"> </span>나네요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">얼마전에는<span class="s1"> </span>엄마가<span class="s1"> </span>그러더라구요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">대학까지나<span class="s1"> </span>보내놨으면<span class="s1"> </span>일<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>해서<span class="s1"> </span>가정에<span class="s1"> </span>보탬이<span class="s1"> </span>되라구요<span class="s1">..</span></p> <p class="p1">공부<span class="s1"> </span>더해서<span class="s1"> </span>뭐하냐구요<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">엄마가<span class="s1"> </span>얼마나<span class="s1"> </span>힘들었으면<span class="s1"> </span>이런<span class="s1"> </span>말을<span class="s1"> </span>했겠어요<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">다<span class="s1"> </span>포기했는데도<span class="s1"> </span>제가<span class="s1"> </span>아직<span class="s1"> </span>뚜렷한<span class="s1"> </span>직장이<span class="s1"> </span>없으니</p> <p class="p1">아직도<span class="s1"> </span>미련가진<span class="s1"> </span>줄<span class="s1"> </span>알았는지<span class="s1">….</span></p> <p class="p1">하얗게<span class="s1"> </span>새버린<span class="s1"> </span>엄마머리카락<span class="s1"> </span>보면<span class="s1">, </span>얼마나<span class="s1"> </span>돈에<span class="s1"> </span>시달리며<span class="s1"> </span>살았는지<span class="s1"> </span>알겠어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그래요<span class="s1">… </span>공부<span class="s1"> </span>더해서<span class="s1"> </span>뭐합니까<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">그거<span class="s1"> </span>아는데<span class="s1">….</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">어젯밤에는<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>서럽더라구요<span class="s1">. </span>미련이<span class="s1"> </span>있기는<span class="s1"> </span>했나보죠<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">물류센터<span class="s1"> </span>같은데서<span class="s1"> </span>단기알바하는데<span class="s1"> </span>피곤했는지<span class="s1"> </span>입술에<span class="s1"> </span>멍울이<span class="s1"> </span>잡혔거든요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">근데<span class="s1"> </span>그게<span class="s1"> </span>터지면서<span class="s1"> </span>빨갛게<span class="s1"> </span>부었는데<span class="s1">.. </span>세수하면서<span class="s1"> </span>그걸<span class="s1"> </span>봤어요<span class="s1">..</span></p> <p class="p1">눈물이<span class="s1"> </span>터지는데<span class="s1"> </span>감당이<span class="s1"> </span>안되더라구요<span class="s1">….</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">꿈<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>버린<span class="s1"> </span>줄<span class="s1"> </span>알았는데<span class="s1"> </span>아직도<span class="s1"> </span>슬프고<span class="s1"> </span>가슴이<span class="s1"> </span>아파요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">아마도<span class="s1"> </span>시간이<span class="s1"> </span>지나면<span class="s1"> </span>못배운<span class="s1"> </span>한이<span class="s1"> </span>가슴에<span class="s1"> </span>남지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1"> </span>싶어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그러나<span class="s1"> </span>이런<span class="s1"> </span>것도<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>내려놓고<span class="s1"> </span>제게<span class="s1"> </span>주어진<span class="s1"> </span>삶을<span class="s1"> </span>살아야<span class="s1"> </span>한다는<span class="s1"> </span>걸<span class="s1"> </span>알아요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">여러분은<span class="s1"> </span>어떻게<span class="s1"> </span>살고<span class="s1"> </span>계신가요<span class="s1">?</span></p> <p class="p1">저는<span class="s1"> </span>이렇게<span class="s1"> </span>열심히<span class="s1"> </span>좌절하고<span class="s1"> </span>아파하고<span class="s1"> </span>열심히<span class="s1"> </span>알바를<span class="s1"> </span>찾고<span class="s1"> </span>열심히<span class="s1"> </span>친구에게<span class="s1"> </span>불평하고</p> <p class="p1">전화해서<span class="s1"> </span>울고<span class="s1"> </span>ㅋ<span class="s1"> </span>또<span class="s1"> </span>에잇<span class="s1"> </span>쓰벌<span class="s1"> </span>어쩔수<span class="s1"> </span>없다<span class="s1">!! </span>하며<span class="s1"> </span>알바몬을<span class="s1"> </span>킵니다<span class="s1"> </span>ㅋ</p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">제가<span class="s1"> </span>순탄한<span class="s1"> </span>삶을<span class="s1"> </span>살았다면</p> <p class="p1">이런<span class="s1"> </span>힘겨운<span class="s1"> </span>삶을<span class="s1"> </span>몰랐겠죠<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이렇게<span class="s1"> </span>힘겹게<span class="s1"> </span>가슴아프게<span class="s1"> </span>사는<span class="s1"> </span>삶이<span class="s1"> </span>이<span class="s1"> </span>사회에<span class="s1"> </span>함께<span class="s1"> </span>있다는거<span class="s1"> </span>몰랐겠죠<span class="s1">?</span></p> <p class="p1">쌀통에<span class="s1"> </span>쌀이<span class="s1"> </span>떨어져<span class="s1"> </span>겁나는<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>마음<span class="s1"> </span>모르고<span class="s1"> </span>살았겠죠<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">삶의<span class="s1"> </span>고단함을<span class="s1"> </span>몰랐겠죠<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">함께<span class="s1"> </span>동시대를<span class="s1"> </span>살아가는<span class="s1"> </span>사람들의<span class="s1"> </span>구석구석<span class="s1"> </span>아픔들을<span class="s1"> </span>이해할<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있으니<span class="s1"> </span></p> <p class="p1">나쁘기만<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>일은<span class="s1"> </span>아닐<span class="s1"> </span>것입니다<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">지금<span class="s1"> </span>돌이켜보니<span class="s1"> </span>저를<span class="s1"> </span>아프고<span class="s1"> </span>힘들게<span class="s1"> </span>한<span class="s1"> </span>것도<span class="s1"> </span>사람이었고<span class="s1">, </span>또<span class="s1"> </span>절<span class="s1"> </span>살게<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>것도<span class="s1"> </span>사람이었습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이렇게<span class="s1"> </span>힘들수록<span class="s1"> </span>함께<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>사람이<span class="s1"> </span>가장<span class="s1"> </span>큰<span class="s1"> </span>아픔을<span class="s1"> </span>줄<span class="s1"> </span>지라도<span class="s1"> </span>다시<span class="s1"> </span>사랑하고<span class="s1"> </span>또<span class="s1"> </span>사랑하면서</p> <p class="p1">열심히<span class="s1"> </span>견디는게<span class="s1"> </span>삶을<span class="s1"> </span>살아간다는<span class="s1"> </span>것이<span class="s1"> </span>아닐까<span class="s1"> </span>싶습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">얼마나<span class="s1"> </span>나쁘고<span class="s1"> </span>못났더라도<span class="s1"> </span>서로를<span class="s1"> </span>절대<span class="s1"> </span>포기하지<span class="s1"> </span>않고<span class="s1"> </span>체념하지<span class="s1"> </span>않는<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">스스로<span class="s1"> </span>너무나<span class="s1"> </span>약해지고<span class="s1"> </span>실망스럽더라도<span class="s1"> </span>누군가가<span class="s1"> </span>끝까지<span class="s1"> </span>옆에<span class="s1"> </span>있어주는<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">이런<span class="s1"> </span>것이<span class="s1"> </span>저를<span class="s1"> </span>살게했습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">그래서<span class="s1"> </span>저는<span class="s1"> </span>다른<span class="s1"> </span>이들이게<span class="s1"> </span>꼭<span class="s1"> </span>이런<span class="s1"> </span>사람이<span class="s1"> </span>되어주려고<span class="s1"> </span>노력하고<span class="s1"> </span>있습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">관심과<span class="s1"> </span>사랑이<span class="s1"> </span>사람을<span class="s1"> </span>다시<span class="s1"> </span>빛나는<span class="s1"> </span>존재로<span class="s1"> </span>만들어주는<span class="s1"> </span>것<span class="s1"> </span>같습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">저처럼<span class="s1"> </span>잠시<span class="s1"> </span>어둠에<span class="s1"> </span>잠긴<span class="s1"> </span>분들<span class="s1">, </span>본인이<span class="s1"> </span>원래는<span class="s1"> </span>빛나는<span class="s1"> </span>존재임을<span class="s1"> </span>꼭<span class="s1"> </span>잊지<span class="s1"> </span>말아주세요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">저도<span class="s1"> </span>글에<span class="s1"> </span>다<span class="s1"> </span>쓰지<span class="s1"> </span>못한<span class="s1"> </span>어둔<span class="s1"> </span>유년시절이<span class="s1"> </span>있었지만<span class="s1">..</span></p> <p class="p1">저도<span class="s1"> </span>다리<span class="s1"> </span>위<span class="s1">, </span>옥상<span class="s1"> </span>많이<span class="s1"> </span>가봤지만<span class="s1">… </span>목도<span class="s1"> </span>매달아<span class="s1"> </span>봤지만<span class="s1">… </span>약도<span class="s1"> </span>사모아<span class="s1"> </span>본<span class="s1"> </span>적이<span class="s1"> </span>있지만<span class="s1">…</span></p> <p class="p1">삶을<span class="s1"> </span>버티고<span class="s1">, </span>어찌어찌<span class="s1"> </span>살아남으면<span class="s1">, </span>빛이<span class="s1"> </span>되는<span class="s1"> </span>시간이<span class="s1"> </span>꼭<span class="s1"> </span>찾아와요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">살아남지<span class="s1"> </span>않으면<span class="s1"> </span>보지<span class="s1"> </span>못할<span class="s1"> </span>빛입니다<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">지금<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>앞가림도<span class="s1"> </span>못한 제가<span class="s1"> </span>하는<span class="s1"> </span>말이라<span class="s1"> </span>설득력이<span class="s1"> </span>좀<span class="s1"> </span>떨어질<span class="s1"> </span>수도<span class="s1"> </span>있지만...</p> <p class="p1">살아보니<span class="s1"> </span>정말<span class="s1"> </span>그랬어요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">만약<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>글이<span class="s1"> </span>누군가의<span class="s1"> </span>가슴을<span class="s1"> </span>울린다면<span class="s1">, </span>주위를<span class="s1"> </span>돌아볼<span class="s1"> </span>마음의<span class="s1"> </span>여유가<span class="s1"> </span>있는<span class="s1"> </span>분이<span class="s1"> </span>어딘가<span class="s1"> </span>계시다면<span class="s1">,</span></p> <p class="p1">힘든<span class="s1"> </span>사람에게<span class="s1"> </span>손을<span class="s1"> </span>내밀고<span class="s1"> </span>그<span class="s1"> </span>사람을<span class="s1"> </span>포기하지<span class="s1"> </span>않는<span class="s1"> </span>사랑을<span class="s1"> </span>주는<span class="s1"> </span>존재가<span class="s1"> </span>되어주시면<span class="s1">, </span></p> <p class="p1">이<span class="s1"> </span>힘든<span class="s1"> </span>시기를<span class="s1"> </span>잘<span class="s1"> </span>넘겨낼<span class="s1"> </span>수<span class="s1"> </span>있지<span class="s1"> </span>않을까<span class="s1"> </span>싶네요<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">누군가<span class="s1"> </span>제게<span class="s1"> </span>손을<span class="s1"> </span>내민다면<span class="s1"> </span>절대<span class="s1"> </span>포기하지<span class="s1"> </span>않겠습니다<span class="s1">. </span></p> <p class="p1">저는<span class="s1"> </span>제<span class="s1"> </span>삶을<span class="s1"> </span>통해서<span class="s1"> </span>증명해보이겠습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p2"><br></p> <p class="p1">읽어주셔서<span class="s1"> </span>감사합니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">제 글에 부족한 점 끝없이 나오겠지만... 그래도 진심으로 쓴 글이니 <span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">어둠에</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;"> </span><span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">머무르며</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;"> </span><span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">아파할</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;"> </span><span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">누군가에게</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;"> </span><span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">힘이</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;"> </span><span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">되길</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;"> </span><span style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">바라며</span><span class="s1" style="font-size:9pt;line-height:1.5;">, </span></p> <p class="p1">여기<span class="s1"> </span>함께<span class="s1"> </span>아파하는<span class="s1"> </span>사람<span class="s1"> </span>있다는<span class="s1"> </span>외침이<span class="s1"> </span>꼭<span class="s1"> </span>그에게<span class="s1"> </span>닿길<span class="s1"> </span>바라며<span class="s1"> </span>글<span class="s1"> </span>마무리<span class="s1"> </span>짓겠습니다<span class="s1">.</span></p> <p class="p1">함께<span class="s1"> </span>행복합시다<span class="s1">.</span></p></div>
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