<div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> 그것은</span><span> </span><span>누구의</span><span> </span><span>잘못도</span><span> </span><span>아니었다</span><span>. '</span><span>관종새끼</span><span>'</span><span>가</span><span> </span><span>자살한</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>사건에</span><span> </span><span>대해</span><span> </span><span>담희</span><span>, </span><span>소랑</span><span>, </span><span>계철</span><span>, </span><span>오형</span><span>, </span><span>선실</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>사람은</span><span> </span><span>모두</span><span> </span><span>똑같이</span><span> </span><span>생각하고</span><span> </span><span>있었다</span><span>. </span><span>우리의</span><span> </span><span>잘못이</span><span> </span><span>아니다</span><span>. </span><span>아니</span><span>, </span><span>우리뿐만</span><span> </span><span>아니라</span><span> </span><span>누구의</span><span> </span><span>잘못도</span><span> </span><span>아니다</span><span>. '</span><span>관종새끼</span><span>'</span><span>를</span><span> </span><span>아는</span><span> </span><span>누구나라도</span><span> </span><span>분명</span><span> </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>생각할</span><span> </span><span>것이었다</span><span>. </span><span>잘못은</span><span> '</span><span>관종새끼</span><span>' </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>자신한테</span><span> </span><span>있었다</span><span>. </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>뿐이었다</span><span>. </span><span>때문에</span><span> </span><span>그들은</span><span> </span><span>아무</span><span> </span><span>거리낌</span><span> </span><span>없이</span><span> '</span><span>관종새끼</span><span>'</span><span>의</span><span> </span><span>장례식에</span><span> </span><span>참석했고</span><span>, </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼를</span><span> </span><span>끔찍하게</span><span> </span><span>사랑하던</span><span> </span><span>어머니를</span><span> </span><span>어떻게</span><span> </span><span>맞아야</span><span> </span><span>할까하는</span><span> </span><span>걱정이외에</span><span> </span><span>다른</span><span> </span><span>걱정은</span><span> </span><span>없었다</span><span>. '</span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>일</span><span>'</span><span>은</span><span> </span><span>그저</span><span> </span><span>마음</span><span> </span><span>속에</span><span> </span><span>묻어둘</span><span> </span><span>생각이었다</span><span>. </span><span>그런데</span><span>...</span></span></span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>장례식장에</span><span> </span><span>처음</span><span> </span><span>들어섰을</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>썰렁한</span><span> </span><span>분위기가</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구의</span><span> </span><span>마음을</span><span> </span><span>아프게</span><span> </span><span>만들었다</span><span>. </span><span>드문드문</span><span> </span><span>친척이</span><span> </span><span>앉은</span><span> </span><span>테이블이</span><span> </span><span>몇</span><span> </span><span>보였을</span><span> </span><span>뿐</span><span> </span><span>또래나</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>비슷한</span><span> </span><span>연배로</span><span> </span><span>보이는</span><span> </span><span>사람들은</span><span> </span><span>찾을</span><span> </span><span>수가</span><span> </span><span>없었고</span><span>, </span><span>오랫동안</span><span> </span><span>일을</span><span> </span><span>하지</span><span> </span><span>않고</span><span>, </span><span>사람들과도</span><span> </span><span>담을</span><span> </span><span>쌓고</span><span> </span><span>지낸</span><span> '</span><span>관종새끼</span><span>'</span><span>의</span><span> </span><span>말로가</span><span> </span><span>이런</span><span> </span><span>것인가싶은</span><span> </span><span>실감이</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>순간</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구</span><span> </span><span>모두의</span><span> </span><span>마음</span><span> </span><span>속에</span><span> </span><span>들어왔고</span><span>, </span><span>그것이</span><span> </span><span>이상하게도</span><span> </span><span>인생의</span><span> </span><span>어떤</span><span> </span><span>비의감으로</span><span> </span><span>그들에게</span><span> </span><span>다가왔던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span><span>그것뿐만이</span><span> </span><span>아니었다</span><span>. </span><span>그들을</span><span> </span><span>맞이한</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>누나에게</span><span> </span><span>어머니가</span><span> </span><span>왜</span><span> </span><span>보이지</span><span> </span><span>않는지</span><span> </span><span>물었을</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>병원에</span><span> </span><span>계시다는</span><span> </span><span>말을</span><span> </span><span>들었고</span><span>, </span><span>그순간</span><span> </span><span>어머니를</span><span> </span><span>맞아하지</span><span> </span><span>않아도</span><span> </span><span>된다는</span><span> </span><span>생각과</span><span> </span><span>함께</span><span> '</span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>일</span><span>'</span><span>에</span><span> </span><span>대해</span><span> </span><span>말해야</span><span> </span><span>했던</span><span> </span><span>건</span><span> </span><span>아닌가하는</span><span> </span><span>뒤늦은</span><span> </span><span>후회가</span><span> </span><span>그들에게</span><span> </span><span>찾아왔던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>저기</span><span>, </span><span>사실</span><span> </span><span>기다리고</span><span> </span><span>있었는데</span><span>. </span><span>잠깐만</span><span>..."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>말하고</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>누나는</span><span> </span><span>신위</span><span> </span><span>옆</span><span> </span><span>상주방으로</span><span> </span><span>갔다가</span><span> </span><span>잠시</span><span> </span><span>후</span><span> </span><span>원색의</span><span> </span><span>편지봉투</span><span> </span><span>몇</span><span> </span><span>개를</span><span> </span><span>손에</span><span> </span><span>들고</span><span> </span><span>돌아왔다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>지열이가</span><span> (</span><span>유서랑</span><span> </span><span>함께</span><span>) </span><span>남긴거야</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>말하고</span><span> "</span><span>오형아</span><span>.", "</span><span>선실야</span><span>" </span><span>이름을</span><span> </span><span>하나하나</span><span> </span><span>확인해</span><span> </span><span>가며</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>누나는</span><span> </span><span>오색의</span><span> </span><span>편지지를</span><span> </span><span>하나씩</span><span> </span><span>건네주었다</span><span>. </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>순간</span><span> </span><span>그들에게</span><span> </span><span>떠오른</span><span> </span><span>생각은</span><span> '</span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>일</span><span>'</span><span>이</span><span> </span><span>있던</span><span> </span><span>날</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>그들에게</span><span> </span><span>물었던</span><span> </span><span>말이었다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>분홍색</span><span> </span><span>좋아하는</span><span> </span><span>거</span><span> </span><span>알고</span><span>, </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>사람씩</span><span> </span><span>좋아하는</span><span> </span><span>색깔</span><span> </span><span>하나씩</span><span> </span><span>골라봐</span><span>.</span><span>턱으로</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>지금</span><span> </span><span>그들의</span><span> </span><span>손에</span><span> </span><span>쥐어진</span><span> </span><span>편지지는</span><span> </span><span>그때</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>공포의</span><span> </span><span>순간속에서</span><span> </span><span>그들이</span><span> </span><span>마지못해</span><span> </span><span>택했던</span><span> </span><span>바로</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>색이었던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>보고싶어서</span><span> </span><span>왔지</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> '</span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>날</span><span>', </span><span>야근을</span><span> </span><span>마친</span><span> </span><span>자신을</span><span> </span><span>찾아온</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼에게</span><span> </span><span>어쩐</span><span> </span><span>일이냐고</span><span> </span><span>오형이가</span><span> </span><span>물었을</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>돌아온</span><span> </span><span>대답이었다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>우리</span><span> </span><span>회사</span><span> </span><span>어떻게</span><span> </span><span>알았어</span><span>?"</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>자신이</span><span> </span><span>나온</span><span> </span><span>빌딩쪽을</span><span> </span><span>가리키며</span><span> </span><span>오형이</span><span> </span><span>물었고</span><span>, </span><span>웃으며</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>손에</span><span> </span><span>든</span><span> </span><span>스마트폰을</span><span> </span><span>톡톡</span><span> </span><span>두드렸다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>페이스북</span><span> </span><span>친구잖아</span><span>, </span><span>우리</span><span>."</span></span><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><br></span><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span>그때</span><span> </span><span>오형은</span><span> </span><span>겁이</span><span> </span><span>났다기보다</span><span> </span><span>혐오감이</span><span> </span><span>들었었다</span><span>. </span><span>시큰둥한</span><span> </span><span>표정으로</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼를</span><span> </span><span>바라봤고</span><span>, </span><span>한심하다는</span><span> </span><span>뉘앙스가</span><span> </span><span>전달되도록</span><span> </span><span>커다랗게</span><span> </span><span>한숨을</span><span> </span><span>내쉬었다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>나</span><span> </span><span>오늘</span><span> </span><span>피곤하다</span><span>. </span><span>다음에</span><span> </span><span>하자</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>관종새끼는</span><span> </span><span>여전히</span><span> </span><span>웃고</span><span> </span><span>있을</span><span> </span><span>뿐이었다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>술</span><span> </span><span>마시자고</span><span> </span><span>온</span><span> </span><span>거</span><span> </span><span>아냐</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>그럼</span><span>?"</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>나랑</span><span> </span><span>잠깐</span><span> </span><span>어디</span><span> </span><span>좀</span><span> </span><span>가자</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>흰</span><span> </span><span>종이가</span><span> </span><span>깔린</span><span> </span><span>빈소탁자에</span><span> </span><span>앉은</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구는</span><span> </span><span>잠시</span><span> </span><span>말없이</span><span> </span><span>서로</span><span> </span><span>눈빛을</span><span> </span><span>교환했다</span><span>. </span><span>선실과</span><span> </span><span>소랑의</span><span> </span><span>눈빛은</span><span> </span><span>살짝</span><span>, </span><span>그리고</span><span> </span><span>담희의</span><span> </span><span>눈빛은</span><span> '</span><span>아주</span><span>' </span><span>젖어</span><span> </span><span>있었다</span><span>. </span><span>홍어회무침과</span><span> </span><span>떡</span><span>, </span><span>플라스틱에</span><span> </span><span>담긴</span><span> </span><span>육개장과</span><span> </span><span>밥이</span><span> </span><span>나오고도</span><span> </span><span>오랫동안</span><span> </span><span>가라앉은</span><span> </span><span>분위기는</span><span> </span><span>이어졌다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>진짜</span><span>..."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>빈소를</span><span> </span><span>돌아본</span><span> </span><span>계철이가</span><span> </span><span>뭔가를</span><span> </span><span>말하려다</span><span> </span><span>삼켰고</span><span>, </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>옆에</span><span> </span><span>앉은</span><span> </span><span>오형이가</span><span> </span><span>먼저</span><span> </span><span>붉은색</span><span> </span><span>봉투에</span><span> </span><span>담긴</span><span> </span><span>자신의</span><span> </span><span>편지를</span><span> </span><span>열어보았다</span><span>. </span><span>그것이</span><span> </span><span>신호라도</span><span> </span><span>되는</span><span> </span><span>듯이</span><span> </span><span>나머지</span><span> </span><span>친구들도</span><span> </span><span>고개를</span><span> </span><span>숙인</span><span> </span><span>채</span><span> </span><span>자신이</span><span> </span><span>손에</span><span> </span><span>든</span><span> </span><span>편지</span><span> </span><span>봉투를</span><span> </span><span>열어보기</span><span> </span><span>시작했다</span><span>. </span><span>소랑만이</span><span> </span><span>소주병을</span><span> </span><span>따</span><span> </span><span>종이컵에</span><span> </span><span>따른</span><span> </span><span>다음</span><span> </span><span>담배를</span><span> </span><span>피워</span><span> </span><span>물었다</span><span>. </span><span>잠시</span><span> </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>편지를</span><span> </span><span>읽는</span><span> </span><span>시간이</span><span> </span><span>이어졌고</span><span>, </span><span>그러다</span><span> </span><span>의외의</span><span> </span><span>장소에서</span><span> </span><span>오열이</span><span> </span><span>터져나왔다</span><span>. </span><span>평소에</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼와</span><span> </span><span>가장</span><span> </span><span>친하지</span><span> </span><span>않았던</span><span> </span><span>선실이였고</span><span>, </span><span>이어서</span><span> </span><span>담희의</span><span> </span><span>울음보가</span><span> </span><span>터졌다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>미친</span><span> </span><span>새끼</span><span>, </span><span>이렇게</span><span> </span><span>갈려고</span><span> </span><span>우리한테</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>짓을</span><span> </span><span>벌인</span><span> </span><span>거야</span><span>?"</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>우리들은</span><span> </span><span>함정에</span><span> </span><span>빠진</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span><span>모두가</span><span> </span><span>그것을</span><span> </span><span>알고</span><span> </span><span>있었지만</span><span> </span><span>그들로써도</span><span> </span><span>어쩔</span><span> </span><span>수</span><span> </span><span>없는</span><span> </span><span>일이었다</span><span>. </span><span>그것은</span><span> </span><span>적어도</span><span> </span><span>그들에게만큼은</span><span> </span><span>세상에서</span><span> </span><span>가장</span><span> </span><span>슬픈</span><span> </span><span>함정이었기</span><span> </span><span>때문에</span><span>...  </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>야</span><span>, </span><span>뭐하는</span><span> </span><span>거야</span><span>?"</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>싫다는</span><span> </span><span>오형이의</span><span> </span><span>소매를</span><span> </span><span>붙든</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼는</span><span> </span><span>택시를</span><span> </span><span>잡아</span><span> </span><span>뒷좌석에</span><span> </span><span>옛</span><span> </span><span>친구를</span><span> </span><span>밀어넣었고</span><span>, </span><span>자신도</span><span> </span><span>올라탔다</span><span>. </span><span>내리려고</span><span> </span><span>시도했지만</span><span> </span><span>결국</span><span> </span><span>포기한</span><span> </span><span>오형이는</span><span> </span><span>어깨를</span><span> </span><span>떨구고</span><span> </span><span>한숨을</span><span> </span><span>내쉬었다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>어디</span><span> </span><span>가는</span><span> </span><span>건데</span><span>?"</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>우리집</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>기가</span><span> </span><span>찬</span><span> </span><span>표정으로</span><span> </span><span>오형이는</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>옆얼굴을</span><span> </span><span>바라보았다</span><span>. </span><span>어렸을</span><span> </span><span>때는</span><span> </span><span>늘</span><span> </span><span>주인공대접을</span><span> </span><span>받아오던</span><span> </span><span>녀석이었다</span><span>. </span><span>나이를</span><span> </span><span>쳐먹고도</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>유치한</span><span> </span><span>주인공</span><span> </span><span>의식이</span><span> </span><span>남아있는</span><span> </span><span>모양인지</span><span> </span><span>모임에는</span><span> </span><span>나오지도</span><span> </span><span>않는</span><span> </span><span>주제에</span><span> </span><span>이렇게</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>번씩</span><span> </span><span>엉뚱한</span><span> </span><span>일을</span><span> </span><span>벌이는</span><span> </span><span>녀석이었다</span><span>. </span><span>오형이는</span><span> </span><span>속에서</span><span> </span><span>부글부글</span><span> </span><span>화가</span><span> </span><span>끌어올랐다</span><span>. </span><span>택시가</span><span> </span><span>도착한</span><span> </span><span>곳은</span><span> </span><span>큰길에서도</span><span> </span><span>한참을</span><span> </span><span>더</span><span> </span><span>들어간</span><span> </span><span>어둑한</span><span> </span><span>골목</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>켠이었고</span><span>, </span><span>오형이가</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>번도</span><span> </span><span>와본</span><span> </span><span>적이</span><span> </span><span>없던</span><span> </span><span>곳이었다</span><span>. </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>택시비를</span><span> </span><span>치루는</span><span> </span><span>동안</span><span> </span><span>오형이는</span><span> </span><span>택시에서</span><span> </span><span>내렸다</span><span>. </span><span>고색창연하다기보다는</span><span> </span><span>차라리</span><span> </span><span>스산하다는</span><span> </span><span>표현이</span><span> </span><span>더</span><span> </span><span>어울리는</span><span> </span><span>퇴락한</span><span> </span><span>동네에서</span><span> </span><span>바람을</span><span> </span><span>맞고</span><span> </span><span>있자니</span><span> </span><span>한결</span><span> </span><span>더</span><span> </span><span>억울한</span><span> </span><span>느낌과</span><span> </span><span>이런</span><span> </span><span>데서</span><span> </span><span>장난을</span><span> </span><span>하고</span><span> </span><span>있을</span><span> </span><span>때가</span><span> </span><span>아니라는</span><span> </span><span>생각이</span><span> </span><span>들었다</span><span>.</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>가자</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>야</span><span>, </span><span>나</span><span> </span><span>진짜</span><span> </span><span>오늘</span><span> </span><span>가야돼</span><span>. </span><span>내일</span><span> </span><span>출근해야</span><span> </span><span>된다고</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>골목</span><span> </span><span>안쪽으로</span><span> </span><span>좀</span><span> </span><span>더</span><span> </span><span>들어갔다가</span><span> </span><span>유턴해서</span><span> </span><span>나오는</span><span> </span><span>택시를</span><span> </span><span>오형이는</span><span> </span><span>멍하니</span><span> </span><span>바라보았다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>가자</span><span>."</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>자신의</span><span> </span><span>옆으로</span><span> </span><span>다가온</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>말하며</span><span> </span><span>팔짱을</span><span> </span><span>꼈을</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>뚜렷한</span><span> </span><span>협박의</span><span> </span><span>기세를</span><span> </span><span>오형은</span><span> </span><span>느꼈다</span><span>. </span><span>바로</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>순간이었다</span><span>. </span><span>지금</span><span> </span><span>이</span><span> </span><span>상황이</span><span> </span><span>뭔가</span><span> </span><span>이상하다는</span><span> </span><span>생각을</span><span> </span><span>오형이가</span><span> </span><span>하기</span><span> </span><span>시작한</span><span> </span><span>것은</span><span>...</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>자기</span><span> </span><span>집</span><span> </span><span>문을</span><span> </span><span>열었을</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>녹색의</span><span> </span><span>뭔가가</span><span> </span><span>번들거리는</span><span> </span><span>모습이</span><span> </span><span>오형이의</span><span> </span><span>눈에</span><span> </span><span>먼저</span><span> </span><span>들어왔다</span><span>. </span><span>무릎을</span><span> </span><span>꿇고</span><span> </span><span>있는</span><span> </span><span>네</span><span> </span><span>사람을</span><span> </span><span>처음</span><span> </span><span>보았을</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>오형은</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>작은</span><span> </span><span>원룸안에서</span><span> </span><span>지금</span><span> </span><span>저</span><span> </span><span>네</span><span> </span><span>친구가</span><span> </span><span>청테이프로</span><span> </span><span>뭔가</span><span> </span><span>게임을</span><span> </span><span>하고</span><span> </span><span>있는</span><span> </span><span>거라고</span><span> </span><span>생각했다</span><span>. </span><span>이내</span><span> </span><span>그들의</span><span> </span><span>입을</span><span> </span><span>보고</span><span> </span><span>그들이</span><span> </span><span>묶여</span><span> </span><span>있는</span><span> </span><span>모습이라는</span><span> </span><span>사실을</span><span> </span><span>깨았을</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>오형이의</span><span> </span><span>목에서</span><span> </span><span>억하고</span><span> </span><span>신음이</span><span> </span><span>터져나왔고</span><span>, </span><span>다음</span><span> </span><span>순간</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>손에</span><span> </span><span>쥐어진</span><span> </span><span>손수건이</span><span> </span><span>오형의</span><span> </span><span>얼굴을</span><span> </span><span>덮쳐왔다</span><span>. </span><span>오형이는</span><span> </span><span>서서히</span><span> </span><span>의식을</span><span> </span><span>잃어갔다</span><span>.  </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>그때</span><span> </span><span>지금</span><span> </span><span>자기</span><span> </span><span>눈</span><span> </span><span>앞에서</span><span> </span><span>일어나는</span><span> </span><span>일을</span><span> </span><span>믿을</span><span> </span><span>수가</span><span> </span><span>없는</span><span> </span><span>기분이었다</span><span>. </span><span>공포로</span><span> </span><span>눈물이</span><span> </span><span>났고</span><span>, </span><span>신음을</span><span> </span><span>계속</span><span> </span><span>했지만</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>소리는</span><span> </span><span>테이프에</span><span> </span><span>막히고</span><span> </span><span>말았다</span><span>. </span><span>이제는</span><span> </span><span>남보다도</span><span> </span><span>못한</span><span> </span><span>사이가</span><span> </span><span>되긴</span><span> </span><span>했지만</span><span> </span><span>그래도</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>연인이었던</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>벌이고</span><span> </span><span>있는</span><span> </span><span>이</span><span> </span><span>미친</span><span> </span><span>짓이</span><span> </span><span>도저히</span><span> </span><span>사실이라고</span><span> </span><span>생각되지</span><span> </span><span>않았다</span><span>. </span><span>자신이</span><span> </span><span>기억하는</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>예전의</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼는</span><span> </span><span>적어도</span><span> </span><span>이</span><span> </span><span>정도는</span><span> </span><span>아니었다</span><span>. </span><span>물론</span><span> '</span><span>관종</span><span>'</span><span>이라는</span><span> </span><span>유행어가</span><span> </span><span>없던</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>시절에도</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼는</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼였다</span><span>. </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>때는</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>자신감이</span><span> </span><span>좋았던</span><span> </span><span>때도</span><span> </span><span>있었다</span><span>. </span><span>그랬는데</span><span>...</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>이</span><span> </span><span>조그만</span><span> </span><span>원룸에</span><span> </span><span>가장</span><span> </span><span>먼저</span><span> </span><span>잡혀</span><span> </span><span>들어온</span><span> </span><span>것은</span><span> </span><span>담희였다</span><span>. </span><span>담희를</span><span> </span><span>이곳으로</span><span> </span><span>끌어들일</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼는</span><span> </span><span>야비하게도</span><span> </span><span>자신이</span><span> </span><span>아프다는</span><span> </span><span>핑계를</span><span> </span><span>댔다</span><span>. </span><span>그녀가</span><span> </span><span>운영하는</span><span> </span><span>데코샾에</span><span> </span><span>찾아왔던</span><span> </span><span>것이었고</span><span>, </span><span>그곳에서</span><span> </span><span>담희로써는</span><span> </span><span>정말이라고</span><span> </span><span>여겨질</span><span> </span><span>정도로</span><span> </span><span>현기증이</span><span> </span><span>나는</span><span> </span><span>연기를</span><span> </span><span>해댔다</span><span>. </span><span>놀란</span><span> </span><span>자신이</span><span> 119</span><span>에</span><span> </span><span>전화를</span><span> </span><span>하려고</span><span> </span><span>하자</span><span> '</span><span>그냥</span><span> </span><span>집에</span><span> </span><span>데려다</span><span> </span><span>달라</span><span>'</span><span>고</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>말했다</span><span>. </span><span>처음에는</span><span> </span><span>물론</span><span> </span><span>말도</span><span> </span><span>안되는</span><span> </span><span>수작이라고</span><span> </span><span>생각했다</span><span>. </span><span>하지만</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>슬픈</span><span> </span><span>눈빛이</span><span> </span><span>담희에게</span><span> </span><span>별안간</span><span> </span><span>예전</span><span> </span><span>사귀던</span><span> </span><span>시절의</span><span> </span><span>애틋함을</span><span> </span><span>상기시키게</span><span> </span><span>만들었고</span><span>, '</span><span>그래</span><span>, </span><span>집까지는</span><span> </span><span>바래다</span><span> </span><span>줄</span><span> </span><span>수</span><span> </span><span>있겠지</span><span>.'</span><span>하는</span><span> </span><span>약한</span><span> </span><span>생각을</span><span> </span><span>하게</span><span> </span><span>만들었던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span><span>택시에서</span><span> </span><span>내려서도</span><span> </span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼를</span><span> </span><span>어렵게</span><span> </span><span>어렵게</span><span> </span><span>집까지</span><span> </span><span>끌고</span><span> </span><span>갔다</span><span>. </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>집으로</span><span> </span><span>들어오자마자</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>태도가</span><span> </span><span>바뀌었다</span><span>. </span><span>지금</span><span> </span><span>데리고</span><span> </span><span>들어온</span><span> </span><span>오형이에게</span><span> </span><span>하는</span><span> </span><span>짓을</span><span> </span><span>자신에게</span><span> </span><span>똑같이</span><span> </span><span>저질렀던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>의식을</span><span> </span><span>잃은</span><span> </span><span>오형이가</span><span> </span><span>무릎을</span><span> </span><span>꿇고</span><span> </span><span>쓰러지자</span><span> </span><span>녹색</span><span> </span><span>청테이프로</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>온몸을</span><span> </span><span>휘감았고</span><span>, </span><span>마지막으로</span><span>(</span><span>그래도</span><span> </span><span>양심은</span><span> </span><span>있었는지</span><span> </span><span>조심스럽게</span><span>) </span><span>입을</span><span> </span><span>막았다</span><span>. </span><span>신발을</span><span> </span><span>벗기고</span><span> </span><span>그대로</span><span> </span><span>뒤에서</span><span> </span><span>안아올린</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>오형이를</span><span> </span><span>이쪽으로</span><span> </span><span>데려오는</span><span> </span><span>모습이</span><span> </span><span>담희의</span><span> </span><span>눈에</span><span> </span><span>보였다</span><span>. </span><span>늘어진</span><span> </span><span>발등이</span><span> </span><span>바닥을</span><span> </span><span>쓰는</span><span> </span><span>소리가</span><span> </span><span>났다</span><span>. </span><span>책장이</span><span> </span><span>있는</span><span> </span><span>왼쪽</span><span> </span><span>끝에</span><span> </span><span>오형이를</span><span> </span><span>돌려앉히자</span><span> </span><span>이제</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>명의</span><span> </span><span>인질이</span><span> </span><span>무릎꿇고</span><span> </span><span>앉아</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>줄로</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼를</span><span> </span><span>마주보는</span><span> </span><span>형태가</span><span> </span><span>되었다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>그날</span><span>...</span><span>자신이</span><span> </span><span>흘리는</span><span> </span><span>눈물의</span><span> </span><span>의미에</span><span> </span><span>대해</span><span> </span><span>곰곰</span><span> </span><span>헤아려</span><span> </span><span>보며</span><span> </span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>자신에게</span><span> </span><span>쓴</span><span> </span><span>편지에서</span><span> </span><span>눈을</span><span> </span><span>들고</span><span> </span><span>빈소를</span><span> </span><span>돌아보았다</span><span>. </span><span>친척들로</span><span> </span><span>보였던</span><span> </span><span>조문객</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>테이블이</span><span> </span><span>자리를</span><span> </span><span>박차고</span><span> </span><span>일어서는</span><span> </span><span>모습이</span><span> </span><span>보였고</span><span>, </span><span>관종새끼</span><span> </span><span>누나가</span><span> </span><span>테이블을</span><span> </span><span>치우러</span><span> </span><span>걸어가는</span><span> </span><span>모습을</span><span> </span><span>멍하게</span><span> </span><span>바라보면서</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼에게</span><span> </span><span>납치를</span><span> </span><span>당했던</span><span> </span><span>그날의</span><span> </span><span>기억이</span><span> </span><span>떠올라</span><span> </span><span>몸서리를</span><span> </span><span>쳤다</span><span>. </span><span>청테이프에</span><span> </span><span>온몸을</span><span> </span><span>칭칭</span><span> </span><span>묶인</span><span> </span><span>채</span><span> </span><span>나란히</span><span> </span><span>무릎꿇고</span><span> </span><span>앉아</span><span> </span><span>그들이</span><span> </span><span>견뎌야</span><span> </span><span>했던</span><span> </span><span>것은</span><span> </span><span>지루함이었다</span><span>. </span><span>새디스트로</span><span> </span><span>변해버린</span><span> </span><span>마지막</span><span> </span><span>순간</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>납치해</span><span> </span><span>온</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구들</span><span> </span><span>앞에서</span><span> </span><span>벌인</span><span> </span><span>퍼포먼스는</span><span> </span><span>끔찍하도록</span><span> </span><span>재미가</span><span> </span><span>없었던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> '</span><span>잘</span><span> </span><span>나가던</span><span> </span><span>왕년의</span><span> </span><span>호시절을</span><span> </span><span>복기해</span><span> </span><span>보고</span><span> </span><span>싶었던</span><span> </span><span>걸까</span><span>?'</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>그러나</span><span> </span><span>그것은</span><span> </span><span>철이</span><span> </span><span>지날</span><span> </span><span>대로</span><span> </span><span>지났고</span><span>, </span><span>그나마도</span><span> </span><span>어리숙해</span><span> </span><span>도저히</span><span> </span><span>눈뜨고는</span><span> </span><span>못봐줄</span><span> </span><span>공연이었다</span><span>. '</span><span>우리는</span><span> </span><span>삶의</span><span> </span><span>프로가</span><span> </span><span>되었어</span><span>.'</span><span>같은</span><span> </span><span>썩은</span><span> </span><span>유머를</span><span> </span><span>날리며</span><span> </span><span>룰라의</span><span> '</span><span>프로와</span><span> </span><span>아마츄어</span><span>'</span><span>를</span><span> </span><span>부르지</span><span> </span><span>않나</span><span> </span><span>영화</span><span> '</span><span>건축학개론</span><span>'</span><span>의</span><span> </span><span>이제훈처럼</span><span> </span><span>되지도</span><span> </span><span>않는</span><span> </span><span>서태지춤을</span><span> </span><span>추지를</span><span> </span><span>않나</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>시절</span><span> </span><span>유행하던</span><span> </span><span>엠티괴담이나</span><span> </span><span>택시괴담같은</span><span> </span><span>철지난</span><span> </span><span>무서운</span><span> </span><span>이야기를</span><span> </span><span>나름</span><span> </span><span>분위기를</span><span> </span><span>잡는답시고</span><span> </span><span>불을</span><span> </span><span>끄고</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구에게</span><span> </span><span>들려주기도</span><span> </span><span>했다</span><span>. </span><span>묶인</span><span> </span><span>상태에서도</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구는</span><span> </span><span>점점</span><span> </span><span>지루해져</span><span> </span><span>갔던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span><span>한때</span><span> </span><span>노래를</span><span> </span><span>잘</span><span> </span><span>부르기로</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>유명했던</span><span> </span><span>것은</span><span> </span><span>사실이었다</span><span>. </span><span>유머러스했던</span><span> </span><span>것도</span><span> </span><span>사실이었다</span><span>. </span><span>담희</span><span> </span><span>자신도</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>그런</span><span> </span><span>점에</span><span> </span><span>끌려</span><span> </span><span>사귀기로</span><span> </span><span>마음을</span><span> </span><span>먹었었으니까</span><span>... </span><span>그리고</span><span> </span><span>머릿속으로</span><span> '</span><span>우리는</span><span> </span><span>이제</span><span> </span><span>삶의</span><span> </span><span>프로가</span><span> </span><span>되었다</span><span>'</span><span>라는</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>내뱉은</span><span> </span><span>말을</span><span> </span><span>곰곰</span><span> </span><span>곱씹으면서</span><span> </span><span>그때</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>시절과는</span><span> </span><span>달리</span><span> </span><span>단</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>순간도</span><span> </span><span>지루함이나</span><span> </span><span>낭비의</span><span> </span><span>시간을</span><span> </span><span>견디지</span><span> </span><span>못하게</span><span> </span><span>된</span><span> </span><span>지금</span><span> </span><span>자신의</span><span> </span><span>상황을</span><span> </span><span>반성해</span><span> </span><span>보기도</span><span> </span><span>했다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>하지만</span><span> </span><span>그날</span><span>, </span><span>생경한</span><span> </span><span>공포와</span><span> </span><span>분노속에서</span><span> </span><span>바라본</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> '</span><span>혼자놀기</span><span>'</span><span>는</span><span> </span><span>그야말로</span><span> </span><span>처연할</span><span> </span><span>정도로</span><span> </span><span>지루했다</span><span>. </span><span>지루한</span><span> </span><span>옛날</span><span> </span><span>노래와</span><span> </span><span>옛날</span><span> </span><span>유머와</span><span> </span><span>엣날</span><span> </span><span>넋두리가</span><span> </span><span>끝이</span><span> </span><span>나고</span><span> </span><span>마침내</span><span> </span><span>어디서</span><span> </span><span>구했는지</span><span> </span><span>마바지와</span><span> </span><span>기지바지</span><span>, </span><span>알라딘</span><span> </span><span>구두따위를</span><span> </span><span>꺼내보이고</span><span> </span><span>입어</span><span> </span><span>보이고</span><span> </span><span>신어</span><span> </span><span>보이던</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>잠이</span><span> </span><span>들기까지</span><span> </span><span>그리</span><span> </span><span>오랜</span><span> </span><span>시간이</span><span> </span><span>걸리지도</span><span> </span><span>않았다</span><span>. </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구는</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>지루한</span><span> </span><span>시간동안</span><span> </span><span>몰래몰래</span><span> </span><span>움직인</span><span> </span><span>덕택에</span><span> </span><span>이제</span><span> </span><span>제법</span><span> </span><span>테이프로부터</span><span> </span><span>몸이</span><span> </span><span>헐렁해져</span><span> </span><span>있었다</span><span>. </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구는</span><span> </span><span>영화에서처럼</span><span> </span><span>서로</span><span> </span><span>힘을</span><span> </span><span>모아</span><span> </span><span>마침내</span><span> </span><span>청테이프의</span><span> </span><span>속박에서</span><span> </span><span>벗어날</span><span> </span><span>수</span><span> </span><span>있었다</span><span>. </span><span>그리고</span><span> </span><span>새벽</span><span> </span><span>두</span><span> </span><span>시가</span><span> </span><span>채</span><span> </span><span>안</span><span> </span><span>된</span><span> </span><span>시간에</span><span> </span><span>자신들이</span><span> </span><span>잡혀</span><span> </span><span>온</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>좁은</span><span> </span><span>방에서</span><span> </span><span>나오면서</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구는</span><span> </span><span>이</span><span> </span><span>사건에</span><span> </span><span>대해</span><span> </span><span>경찰에</span><span> </span><span>신고를</span><span> </span><span>해야</span><span> </span><span>될</span><span> </span><span>지</span><span> </span><span>말아야</span><span> </span><span>될</span><span> </span><span>지를</span><span> </span><span>의논했고</span><span>, </span><span>우선은</span><span> </span><span>피곤하니</span><span> </span><span>다음에</span><span> </span><span>얘기하자는</span><span> </span><span>말과</span><span> </span><span>함께</span><span> </span><span>헤어졌다</span><span>. </span><span>방을</span><span> </span><span>나오면서</span><span> </span><span>오형이가</span><span> </span><span>잠이</span><span> </span><span>든</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼를</span><span> </span><span>때리려고</span><span> </span><span>하는</span><span> </span><span>것을</span><span> </span><span>계철이가</span><span> </span><span>막는</span><span> </span><span>일도</span><span> </span><span>있었지만</span><span> </span><span>결국</span><span> </span><span>신고에</span><span> </span><span>대해서는</span><span> </span><span>귀찮기도</span><span> </span><span>하고</span><span> </span><span>연민도</span><span> </span><span>생겨</span><span> </span><span>그냥</span><span> </span><span>내버려</span><span> </span><span>두게</span><span> </span><span>되었고</span><span>, </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>어물거리고</span><span> </span><span>있을</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>때</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>자살했다는</span><span> </span><span>소식이</span><span> </span><span>들려온</span><span> </span><span>것이었다</span><span>. </span><span>그렇게</span><span> </span><span>이제</span><span> </span><span>다섯</span><span> </span><span>친구는</span><span> </span><span>어이없게</span><span> </span><span>다시</span><span> </span><span>이</span><span> </span><span>자리에</span><span> </span><span>모여</span><span> </span><span>있게</span><span> </span><span>된</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> '...</span><span>사는</span><span> </span><span>게</span><span> </span><span>참</span><span>... </span><span>힘이</span><span> </span><span>드네</span><span>... </span><span>그런</span><span> </span><span>식으로</span><span> </span><span>마지막</span><span> </span><span>삶의</span><span> </span><span>한순간에</span><span> </span><span>너희들을</span><span> </span><span>끌어들여서</span><span> </span><span>정말</span><span> </span><span>미안하다</span><span>. </span><span>정말</span><span>... </span><span>미안하다</span><span>...'</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼가</span><span> </span><span>죽기</span><span> </span><span>전</span><span> </span><span>마지막으로</span><span> </span><span>쓴</span><span> </span><span>편지의</span><span> </span><span>문구를</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>번</span><span> </span><span>더</span><span> </span><span>바라보았다</span><span>. </span><span>마지막까지</span><span> </span><span>정말</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼답다고</span><span> </span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>생각했다</span><span>. </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>마지막</span><span> </span><span>퍼포먼스는</span><span> </span><span>죽음에</span><span> </span><span>있어서도</span><span> </span><span>주인공이</span><span> </span><span>되고</span><span> </span><span>싶어하는</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼의</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>허영심이</span><span> </span><span>그대로</span><span> </span><span>투영된</span><span> </span><span>짓거리였던</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span><span>그래도</span><span> </span><span>역시</span><span> </span><span>관종새끼를</span><span> </span><span>떠올리며</span><span> </span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>눈물을</span><span> </span><span>훔칠</span><span> </span><span>수밖에</span><span> </span><span>없었다</span><span>. </span><span>그가</span><span> </span><span>쓴</span><span> </span><span>편지의</span><span> </span><span>거의</span><span> </span><span>모든</span><span> </span><span>문장들은</span><span> </span><span>옛날</span><span>, </span><span>옛날로</span><span> </span><span>시작되고</span><span> </span><span>있었다</span><span>. </span><span>관종새끼에겐</span><span> </span><span>아마도</span><span> </span><span>그</span><span> </span><span>옛날이</span><span> </span><span>자신에겐</span><span> </span><span>가장</span><span> </span><span>아름다운</span><span> </span><span>기억이었을</span><span> </span><span>것이다</span><span>. </span><span>담희는</span><span> </span><span>다시</span><span> </span><span>한</span><span> </span><span>번</span><span> </span><span>빈소를</span><span> </span><span>돌아봤다</span><span>. </span><span>쓸쓸한</span><span> </span><span>빈소에는</span><span> </span><span>이제</span><span> </span><span>자신들과</span><span> </span><span>누군가가</span><span> </span><span>먹고</span><span> </span><span>버린</span><span> </span><span>빈그릇들뿐이었다</span><span>.</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>갈까</span><span>?"</span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>오형이가</span><span> </span><span>말했다</span><span>. </span></span></div> <div style="text-align:justify;line-height:160%;margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;"><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> "</span><span>그래</span><span>."</span></span></div><span style="color:#000000;font-size:12pt;"><span> </span><span>담희가</span><span> </span><span>고개를</span><span> </span><span>끄덕였다</span><span>. </span><span>그런</span><span> </span><span>뒤</span><span> </span><span>마지막으로</span><span> </span><span>눈밑을</span><span> </span><span>손등으로</span><span> </span><span>문질렀다</span><span>.          </span></span>